Hey SilverLight,
Thanks for your post.
It sounds like you've been incredibly creative! That's a lot of different outlet's there and I can see why you might miss that and the joy it brought you.
There's a big link between creativity and anxiety. On one hand people find that being creative can be an outlet - part of the reason why colouring books have been so popular lately; it can be very slow, relaxing and a way to kind of express what's going on but in a healthy way. On the other hand though - because our brains are so wired up things like creativity can seemingly 'go out the window'. The reason for this is that our brains just try and focus on what feels important, and being creative and using our imagination just doesn't seem important.
The good news is though is that it's not permanent. You can definitely be creative again. The tricky thing is that it might not be as easy. It might start with a little push. I know from my own experiences I stopped being creative years ago through trauma, so getting back into it was really uncomfortable. But with little pushes it started being more enjoyable.
What would happen if you put some time aside to focus on your creativity? Maybe you could just look at what you've created in the past; maybe you can look at images that inspire you; or maybe just pick up a pencil and draw whatever comes to mind. Even if it's just for a few minutes; it's still a small step in the right direction.
Hope this helps,
