Anxiety eating away at my time

[jellybeanshampoo]

Hi everyone,

This is my first post on Beyond Blue. I've been reading through a lot of the posts and find it almost comforting that what I'm feeling isn't isolated, and that there have been instances where people like us have gotten a good hold of their anxieties.

I feel like my anxiety consumes any hours or minutes that I have spare in the day. I would fret and think about social situations I need to be at and it will be all that I think about. I feel like I'm living in some borrowed time, that "judgement day" (i.e. any day I feel like I can't control what happens or I know will push my comfort zones) is looming. It gets to the point where sometimes I'll just blank out and stare at the clock, counting down the hours/days until I have to do whatever it is that's triggering my anxiety. I lose any spare time I have with myself, friends, or family because it's always at the back of my mind. I hate feeling this way. It makes me feel lonely, too, because I feel like I can't talk about this situation with anyone. I can't let my friends know I'm feeling like this, and my closest sibling is so busy and lives so far away that I don't want to burden her. I'm jittery and more often than not I'm crying myself to sleep over it. I feel like my days revolve around doing the stressful thing and counting down to the next stressful thing.

This anxiety has been with me since primary school but it feels so much worse now as an adult. I don't know how to control it.

[blondguy]

Hi jellybeanshampoo

Welcome and thankyou for being a part of the forum family!

I understand the pain you experiencing with anxiety feelings....They can be horrible to experience especially when they have a detrimental impact on our daily well being...which mine used to

you are not alone jellybeanshampoo

The forums are a safe and non judgmental place for you to post

my kind thoughts

Paul

[spudgun2930]

Hey Jellybean,

I also somewhat feel the same way and get pretty upset with myself at the end of the day when I remember nothing was done because I sat there thinking and worrying for 80% of the day. Wish you the best and appreciate the post keen to hear how you get on.

[geoff]

Hello Jellybeanshampoo, welcome to the forums.

Maybe we all live in 'judgement day', it's just at times people are able to cope with it, or it doesn't worry them or perhaps they haven't even given it a thought, but when it concerns us, then there is a problem.

When I used to stare into the wilderness, I remember my grandmother saying 'penny for your thoughts' not that she ever realised how deep these thoughts were or what they were about and probably didn't particularly care, however, what you are thinking needs to be interpreted as it's very important where your mind is going, if you can write down whatever you are glazing at and a reason why needs to be talked about with a qualified psychologist as there are already existing problems building up that you need to sort out.

Take care.

Geoff.

[jellybeanshampoo]

Hi everyone,

I've been hesitating coming back to this post, but I'm relieved I did. I'm thankful for the advice and the stories, you don't even know. I've been trying hard recently to address my own anxiety, and reading these words have helped a lot. Thank you

[Bonzaroo]

Yes, keep coming back to this. Unlike emails and text messages triggering anxiety, this would be a safe place to come to.