anxiety attack over mess

[Ccbbk]

Does anyone get the feelings and thoughts that they have finally got better? Ive been so happy and positive after a really bad time a few months ago and today i felt amazing and went out with no social anxiety feeling pretty fabulous.... until i got back home and remembered i didnt clean before i left. Now i know it doesnt take long to clean up so why would i get so worked up 😞 My mother arrived during and i was shakey and heart was pounding and i couldn't stop cleaning trying to fight back the choking feeling. When she left i helped myself calm down and I called her and apologised which i never usually have the guts to do and she said it was very obvious something was wrong but she new i needed space. Its really embarrassing when you have to say its because I didn't clean before i left! Anyone else have Anxiety attacks over a clean unorganised house?

[MsPurple]

Hi Ccbbk. Sorry that you felt like you were going so well to only have another anixety attack. I know how sucky that is. It is normal for some people to have certain triggers. Messiness and untidiness is a common trigger for people. It can give someone a sence that you are not in control of your space. It is something people can control and be proud of so I completely understand where you are coming from. For me clutter makes me feel a bit anxious. I just don't like clutter much as it makes me feel like there is so much unnecessary stuff (like in my brain I guess). Unfortunately for mental health you can be doing so well and then you can have a bad day or week. Sometimes you can get worse again. The key is to know the signs and to go see the gp and get help before going back to the darkest points you have been in. I know because I have been going backwards and have only just decided to see my gp. Wish I did it a little earlier, but at least I did it at all. I know you maybe going through a tough time now, but trust me we can get back to our happy selves again. I know it as I have been there before. Sometimes life and work and other things can stress us out and put us a little backwards. But we can get back to how we were.

MP

[Ccbbk]

you sound exactly like me, clutter is something I really struggle with. That birthday Anxiety knowing more stuff is moving in is horrible, thankfully my family finally get it and give me vouchers (i would be happy with just a card but its very lovely) Im sorry you have the same issues it can be very hard to deal With and i hope you have a good support network. Ive been quiet for too long due to shame and the expectation of being strong, ive only recently admitted that im ok with not being ok and i will find ways to help myself:)

[MsPurple]

Yeah I went to a friends house as a kid and I swear half the house was clutter. I struggled. I just wanted to through half the stuff out. I didn't understand why they kept half of it. haha.

I am glad you have such an understanding family. It makes it so much easier to get help because support is helpful when you have rough days. And you are right, it is ok to not be ok. But saying that if you know you are not ok, you should try take the steps to become ok again. I hope I made sense then.

One thing I find helpful with managing my anxiety is meditation. I use the apps calm, headspace and smiling minds. They help me calm down by stopping my racing mind which reduces my anxiety. I suggest giving it a try. My mental health nurse told me to do it for at least a week. At first I thought it was a waste of time but I started to find it really helpful and I used it to avoid anxiety attacks.

MP