Am I going backwards

[K_Ley]

Hi it has been quite a while since I was on here as things were going pretty well.  My sister's death in May last year was the catalyst to seeking help although I think I probably needed it long before that.  I am in regular therapy and was even able to go 5 weeks over the christmas new year period with no therapy at all.  In early January I almost lost my brother he was in a critical condition when the ambulance arrived.  He is ok now, but still having tests as they don't know what caused him to collapse in the first place.  Hopefully we will get answers one day.  

Anyway, I am a teacher and since returning to school the requirements of the job have increased 10 fold.  I had to take the day off today to get some work done to try and relieve the pressure.  My anxiety is through the roof and quite frankly I currently feel like I am drowning.  Therapy is currently fortnightly and I feel like I need to increase it back to weekly until I get on top of things at work.  My head is saying this is a step backwards though and I don't want to look at it like that.  What do you think is increasing my therapy a step backwards????

[blues23]

Hi K_ley

in my opinion no , if you feel you need more therapy it will definitely help you , even if it’s just someone to vent too until you feel more settled , I think it’s great that you know you need it and that’s ok it’s great In fact because you are following your needs , it’s definitely not a step backwards , it’s actually saying to yourself u know what I kinda need support right now and it’s ok to say those things to urself and follow thru . You are definitely not letting yourself down u are holding urself up which is fantastic. Sorry for your loss too loosing family can be devastating, I’m glad ur taking care to notice your needs to take care of yourself & be kind to yourself 

[sax_11]

Hello K_Ley,

Increasing your therapy isn't a step backwards. Knowing you need extra help at the moment and taking that step is a good thing and maybe you can turn this around and settle your anxiety. Only you know what you need and if extra therapy will help you, then go for it.

Take care of yourself xx

[Richju]

Hi K_ley,

Thank you for your post and I agree with blues and sax that increasing your therapy is the best way forward. I used to be a teacher and I'm aware the job is much more stressful now than when I left with burnout in 1990. You have just gone through major stress on top of that so, yes, I would encourage you to get as much therapy as you need and to be self-compassionate. 

Meditation may be helpful too. I began to meditate just before I resigned. I had studied as a mature age student after a turbulent divorce and things caught up with me so spending time in meditation each day helped and still does.

Take care and please continue to post.

Big hugs,

Richju xxxx