Somebody12,
Thank you for finding the strength to contact us, welcome to the forums.
The first thing I would recommend is taking advantage of your lunch breaks at work. Whether you take a book in to read, or whether you go for a walk, anything that can give you a little chance to relax and unwind in the middle of a busy work day can be really effective. I usually pack some headphones and put on some music while I'm eating.
Is there anything that your partner may be able to help out with around the house at all, even something small? Sharing roles and responsibilities can help take some of the stress off of one person.
With regards to Friday around your coworkers, was anybody else intoxicated? In my experience, a few drunken nights out with work colleagues isn't unusual in most professions, so people may not have thought much of it, particularly if there were others doing the same. So long as you didn't harm yourself or others in the process, I would try not to be so hard on yourself. I'd argue that most people have a night like that at some point in their work or personal lives.
How often do you work, are you flexible around your work hours at all? If so, would you feel comfortable reaching out to any of your friends who you may have lost touch with for a call or catch up? Even if it's a brunch on a random morning, or visiting each other's house for a chat, these kinds of catch ups can be impactful even if they're small. Calls may also be a good alternative, to catch up and hear about each other's lives without the pressure of having to leave your house or prepare for guests.
I hope this is helpful, please feel free to chat some more with us if you'd like. Let me know how you're feeling about everything.
All the best, SB
