Afraid anxiety will stay for the rest of my life.

[Alel]

I was diagnosed recently with severe anxiety and depression. 

I'm scared that no matter how much I overcome my anxiety and depression, it'll still be there. Even if it won't be as bad, just the thought that it'll be there forever, makes me feel broken beyond repair.

I don't want to spend the rest of my life adjusting to the anxiety and depression to fight it. Fighting it everyday for the rest of my life seems exhausting. 

I'm also deadly afraid that I won't be able to handle it and go crazy one day. I'm so scared of becoming a lunatic or so messed up.

How do I live with this? I don't want to be conscious of it forever that it drives me crazy. 

Please help. 

[white knight]

Hi, Alel, welcome

Suddenly, when we are still young, we are no longer perfect. This seems quite a challenge and in 1987 when I had my first panic attack and subsequent anxiety, I wondered the same thing. Full commitment being the new challenge I imagined anxiety would be gone in a few months but alas, it took me 22 years. That would seem frightening to you but it is a mindset that you will need to tackle.

I sense some negativity in your post. To meet the challenge that negativity will need to be addressed. You can do that by attending motivation speeches and reading how to turn it to a positive mindset. 

There is treatment for anxiety and it does involve many different techniques. Find the ones that you feel comfortable with. Rather than go through many of them I have a thread you can read- just read the first post of any links I provide. Doesnt take long.

Anxiety if not treated can evolve into depression, believe me you dont want that.

So we can talk more, I'm here daily so just reply and I'll reply back when on my computer.

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/acceptance-is-this-our-biggest-challenge/td-p/14769...

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/anxiety/anxiety-how-l-eliminated-it/td-p/183873

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/30-minutes-can-change-your-life/td-p/154525

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/motivation-search-and-rescue-it/td-p/38279

P.S  if you were to take a survey of 100 people that passed you on the street to ask them if they are on medication or if they carry illness or injury, you would be lucky to get 5 to 10 that didnt have either.

TonyWK

[Richju]

Dear Alei,

You seem very anxious about your anxiety but as White Knight explained, it won't go away all at once.

I had my first anxiety attack in 1973 and it took many years and much discipline to control it.

Attending to regular exercise, deep breathing and meditation were all useful for me and I still practise these daily. Initially I made a list of all the things I could do to control my anxiety and kept this within easy reach so that 

I could refer to it when needed.

Are you having counselling? You can get in touch with one of the Beyond Blue counsellors quickly and it might be a good idea to put the number on your list.

Abive all, please remember that you are in control and the problem is the anxiety, not you yourself.

I hope you will continue to post on the forum so that we can congratulate you on your progress. You can do it Alal.

Warmest regards,

Richju xxxx