https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/15-years-ago-a-very-good-friend-of-mine-took-her-life-and-i-didn/m-p/41183#M610 <P>Hi all, I just signed up today. I was feeling pretty good until a few days ago. I have my anxious days but there's always a reason for it - uni stress usually. But I read an excerpt of anacquaintances &nbsp;upcoming book at 1am on a freezing night and it's been my undoing.&nbsp;</P><P>The book is about drug addiction and the piece I read was about a suicide attempt. (Which she was brought back from). 15 years ago a very good friend of mine took her life. She wasn't fortunate enough to be in a public place. She had gone through treatment, rehab and detox during the time I knew her. She decided to move out of the city so we wrote letters and I visited her twice. She was going to meetings and seemed in a good place. But the letters stopped and I couldn't call her. I finally called her mum three months later to find out she had died a week after I last saw her.&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>I didn't get to say</P>goodbye at the funeral, I just had I get on with things. It was very sad and weird. But I did get over it. Until I read that piece of a book. As it's all back again.&nbsp;<P>&nbsp;</P><P>This week I've teared up at everything. Had a stupid altercation with my stupid neighbour / landlord so home sucks too. My gf is away, my children are with their dad until tonight. I feel lazy and miserable and kinda pathetic right now.&nbsp;</P><P>thanks for letting me just write that out.&nbsp;<BR /><BR /><I>beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.</I><BR /><BR />&nbsp;</P> Sat, 18 Oct 2014 23:14:16 GMT Namu 2014-10-18T23:14:16Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/15-years-ago-a-very-good-friend-of-mine-took-her-life-and-i-didn/m-p/41183#M610 <P>Hi all, I just signed up today. I was feeling pretty good until a few days ago. I have my anxious days but there's always a reason for it - uni stress usually. But I read an excerpt of anacquaintances &nbsp;upcoming book at 1am on a freezing night and it's been my undoing.&nbsp;</P><P>The book is about drug addiction and the piece I read was about a suicide attempt. (Which she was brought back from). 15 years ago a very good friend of mine took her life. She wasn't fortunate enough to be in a public place. She had gone through treatment, rehab and detox during the time I knew her. She decided to move out of the city so we wrote letters and I visited her twice. She was going to meetings and seemed in a good place. But the letters stopped and I couldn't call her. I finally called her mum three months later to find out she had died a week after I last saw her.&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>I didn't get to say</P>goodbye at the funeral, I just had I get on with things. It was very sad and weird. But I did get over it. Until I read that piece of a book. As it's all back again.&nbsp;<P>&nbsp;</P><P>This week I've teared up at everything. Had a stupid altercation with my stupid neighbour / landlord so home sucks too. My gf is away, my children are with their dad until tonight. I feel lazy and miserable and kinda pathetic right now.&nbsp;</P><P>thanks for letting me just write that out.&nbsp;<BR /><BR /><I>beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.</I><BR /><BR />&nbsp;</P> Sat, 18 Oct 2014 23:14:16 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/15-years-ago-a-very-good-friend-of-mine-took-her-life-and-i-didn/m-p/41183#M610 Namu 2014-10-18T23:14:16Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/15-years-ago-a-very-good-friend-of-mine-took-her-life-and-i-didn/m-p/41184#M611 <P>Just want to say I totally understand, I tear up at everything too...it gets so draining huh. I hope your Monday is a better day and you get to smile at least once. And I am sorry you had to go through that awful time with your friend taking her life all those years ago...it's hard when something brings back those feelings x</P> Sun, 19 Oct 2014 11:26:04 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/15-years-ago-a-very-good-friend-of-mine-took-her-life-and-i-didn/m-p/41184#M611 OliveOyl 2014-10-19T11:26:04Z