https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/first-time-poster/m-p/458569#M3515 <P>Mydogiamytherapist and I hope that is true, what a great name.</P> <P>My dog, I hope it is ok to shorten you name, Welcome to this forum which is full of kind and supportive people.</P> <P>I am so sorry for the loss of your dad to such an awful diseas,</P> <P>Firstly you are a great human being a wonderful daughter. Wha you are experiencing is grief</P> <P>The first year isnoften the hardest aftervthe koss of a loved one and the first three months are very difficult as you learn to cope without someone you loved and admired.</P> <P>You are not crazy but you are grieving and we all grieve in our own way and there is no one right way to do it.</P> <P>Being nagrynis th epartbofvthe grieving process!</P> <P>It may be too soon, butvthere are groups for grief support or grief. Iunsellors who. An explain what you are doing is all part of grieving. </P> <P>When my dad died I was angry at daughters who had a da$ but never saw them or took them for granted. </P> <P>Can you talk to your mum or is that too hard? </P> <P>If you want o keep talking here feel free to post.</P> <P>One thing I did was to start a file on the computer Dear Dad, and I’d write down na6hying I would have tol dome if he was alive. sometimes Intold him how sad I was and othe times I told him family news. It helped me as I missed our chats.</P> <P>You are confused and upset and this is all part of oping with grief.</P> <P>Quirky </P> <P> </P> Sat, 06 Jul 2019 05:49:36 GMT quirkywords 2019-07-06T05:49:36Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/first-time-poster/m-p/458568#M3514 <P>Hi, Don't know really where to start or what to say. But I guess my current struggles are with losing my Dad a couple of months ago to cancer. My Dad is my hero. Like most girls Dad's are. When my Dad got really sick and we knew we only had a few months left with him, I moved home to help my Mum care for him and to spend as much time with him as I could. But that entire month I was there, it was so hard as I watching my hero deteriorate. I watched him take his last breath and sat with him and told him how much I loved him. I just miss him. Miss him more and more every day. I feel like since losing him I have lost my will, strength and determination. All the things he instilled in us as kids. I have no drive at work, I keep making mistakes in life and I am so angry at the world. Something little will set me off and then I feel embarrassed for my going crazy and yelling at people. I feel like a failure all the time and that I'm just a crappy human. I just feel really lost and if he was alive I'd be letting him down with how I am acting. He wouldn't be proud of me and that makes me more upset. </P> Fri, 05 Jul 2019 03:15:35 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/first-time-poster/m-p/458568#M3514 Mydogismytherapist44 2019-07-05T03:15:35Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/first-time-poster/m-p/458569#M3515 <P>Mydogiamytherapist and I hope that is true, what a great name.</P> <P>My dog, I hope it is ok to shorten you name, Welcome to this forum which is full of kind and supportive people.</P> <P>I am so sorry for the loss of your dad to such an awful diseas,</P> <P>Firstly you are a great human being a wonderful daughter. Wha you are experiencing is grief</P> <P>The first year isnoften the hardest aftervthe koss of a loved one and the first three months are very difficult as you learn to cope without someone you loved and admired.</P> <P>You are not crazy but you are grieving and we all grieve in our own way and there is no one right way to do it.</P> <P>Being nagrynis th epartbofvthe grieving process!</P> <P>It may be too soon, butvthere are groups for grief support or grief. Iunsellors who. An explain what you are doing is all part of grieving. </P> <P>When my dad died I was angry at daughters who had a da$ but never saw them or took them for granted. </P> <P>Can you talk to your mum or is that too hard? </P> <P>If you want o keep talking here feel free to post.</P> <P>One thing I did was to start a file on the computer Dear Dad, and I’d write down na6hying I would have tol dome if he was alive. sometimes Intold him how sad I was and othe times I told him family news. It helped me as I missed our chats.</P> <P>You are confused and upset and this is all part of oping with grief.</P> <P>Quirky </P> <P> </P> Sat, 06 Jul 2019 05:49:36 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/first-time-poster/m-p/458569#M3515 quirkywords 2019-07-06T05:49:36Z