topic Unable to truly move on in Grief and loss

Unable to truly move on

Abd — Fri, 03 Jan 2020 07:19:04 GMT

Two years ago on the 30/11/2017 I received the call that my beautiful 25 year old daughter had died by suicide. I have three children and my daughter was my middle child. The life of the party, my biggest supporter and never a day went past that she didn’t tell me she loved me. I fought hard for justice for my child and was left to handle everything as my husband struggled to cope. As I fought for my child I also found out that my husband of 30 years was having an affair with a woman known to me. I overheard his drunken conversation to her as he was describing me as disgusting to look at and how wonderful she was. The next day I phoned him and he was with her on our new boat named after our daughter (they both laughed because she went on the boat before me). I spent over 8 hours that day begging him to come home. He agreed to counselling and trying to put our marriage back together. Nothing has changed, with him doing whatever he wants, relying heavily on alcohol and telling me to get over it. This is a man I loved. This is all too much and I struggle more and more to find reasons to go on. The woman I see in the mirror is disgusting. I went back to work, am studying and trying to like myself but I don’t know how much I can take. He refuses to sell the boat and when I go to my car it is the first thing I see. My other two children don’t want to talk about their sister and I continue to pretend I’m happy when I’m dying inside. My husband just things I’m a fool.

Unable to truly move on

white knight — Fri, 03 Jan 2020 14:23:23 GMT

Hi, welcome

Please, let me offer you our condolences. My brother and uncle went the same way, my sister and I attempted many years ago.

If I could offer one critical peice of wisdom it would be- that there is a life beyond your husband, if that is what you are sceptical of, if that is what you are afraid of andifthat is your preferred option.

I don’t think you are as confident as you should be. “His boat” and “he refuses to sell it” tells me that he makes the ultimate decisions in your marriage. If you divorced he’d lose half his assets, then he might realise fun at your expense isn’t the way to go.

Grief is personal. Take as long as you need. Very cruel of him to say “get over it”. Your other children will talk about their sister when they are ready. I took 10 years with my brother.

Id like to ask you to read the first post of this thread

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also google YouTube Prem Rawat Maharaji videos

You deserve love and respect.

BEAUTIFUL TO

As your child waits for you

there is still the other two

coloured ribbons fill their hidden pain

Memories still there of their daisy chains

And one day you cradle her again

until then you must refrain

A space in your heart reserved for her

You look inside it’s just a blurr

But be there for them the other two

The best mum in the world is beautiful too....

TonyWK

Unable to truly move on

Abd — Fri, 03 Jan 2020 19:54:41 GMT

Thank you