https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/watching-her-fade-away/m-p/92827#M1210 <P>This is my first post here, my wife of 37 years is suffering from terminal cancer. She has been fighting it for nearly 3 years now but for the past 2 weeks she has gone down hill fast and now is on end of life program . She's at home and my daughter and I am caring for her. However I still have to work to pay the bills. I'm not getting much sleep because she needs me through the night with anxiety attacks and pain so I have to give subcut injections and administer all her medication . I' m sacred not just for me but for her as well,I don't know &nbsp;exactly what to do I feel totally useless that I cant fix this .I want to cry but cant as I don't want her to feel that I cant cope, she's scared enough and doesn't want to leave me. I have friends and family staying in contact, but I still feel alone and watching her slow fade is killing me ,I just don't know what to do.</P> Mon, 19 May 2014 21:20:15 GMT StephenP 2014-05-19T21:20:15Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/watching-her-fade-away/m-p/92827#M1210 <P>This is my first post here, my wife of 37 years is suffering from terminal cancer. She has been fighting it for nearly 3 years now but for the past 2 weeks she has gone down hill fast and now is on end of life program . She's at home and my daughter and I am caring for her. However I still have to work to pay the bills. I'm not getting much sleep because she needs me through the night with anxiety attacks and pain so I have to give subcut injections and administer all her medication . I' m sacred not just for me but for her as well,I don't know &nbsp;exactly what to do I feel totally useless that I cant fix this .I want to cry but cant as I don't want her to feel that I cant cope, she's scared enough and doesn't want to leave me. I have friends and family staying in contact, but I still feel alone and watching her slow fade is killing me ,I just don't know what to do.</P> Mon, 19 May 2014 21:20:15 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/watching-her-fade-away/m-p/92827#M1210 StephenP 2014-05-19T21:20:15Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/watching-her-fade-away/m-p/92828#M1211 <P>Dear Stephen</P> <P>Thank you for coming to Beyond Blue and providing us with your post - as difficult as it must have been to write it down.</P> <P>I cannot imagine the emotions you must be going through on a daily basis - and on top of that, you are still having to be away from her due to work.&nbsp; </P> <P>When you're at work, is it just your daughter there with your wife?&nbsp;&nbsp; Or are you getting any assistance from friends or family?&nbsp;&nbsp; Stephen at these times, these are when you need to seek out and lean on friends and family, if they are available.&nbsp; I can understand you not getting much sleep - but in order for you to function well enough to be able to look after&nbsp;your wife,&nbsp;would it be possible&nbsp;to call on other sources of support for you and your daughter?</P> <P>You know, even if it's just for someone to make a meal or something - just something to give you a hand.</P> <P>I really wish I had more that I could offer - I do want you to know that you can come here and post as often as you feel able too.&nbsp; I'm really stumped for words to say Stephen.</P> <P>Neil</P> <P>&nbsp;</P> <P>&nbsp;</P> Tue, 20 May 2014 06:46:29 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/grief-and-loss/watching-her-fade-away/m-p/92828#M1211 Neil_1 2014-05-20T06:46:29Z