https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/sexuality-and-gender-identity/i-m-transgender/m-p/431373#M4681 <P>Hello,</P> <P>I wanted to extend a caring welcome to you to the forums here, because your post moved me...</P> <P>I would imagine that it must be so painful, more than I can possibly understand as I’m not transgender, to feel as though you’re in a physical body that doesn’t match the gender that you know you truly are in your heart and mind...</P> <P>I feel there’s understandably a lot of hurt, anger and sadness in your post, and we would like to get to know you a little better. So please feel free to keep writing when/if you feel up to it. We will try our best to support you...</P> <P>Kind thoughts to you today,</P> <P>Pepper</P> <P> </P> <P> </P> <P> </P> Thu, 20 Dec 2018 19:24:18 GMT Peppermintbach 2018-12-20T19:24:18Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/sexuality-and-gender-identity/i-m-transgender/m-p/431372#M4680 <I><B>My name is Graham. I'm 32 years old, for twenty-eight years I know something was wrong with me. At age 4 old she came to me in my dreams (Nightmares) tell me that I didn't have to live a lie. I thought it was an illusion or something worst. So I drowned it with alcohol, drugs &amp; cigarettes. My heart is filled with darkness, my brain cloud chaos and destructive thoughts. I have been playing as female character on video games since I was 12 years old. I hate being male, it's makes me sick to my core. I want to be a female that I forgot it feel to human. I never go out with another one at long as inside pitiful male body so I got single forever than I prefer to die than live out reason of my life pig headed male. I thought tell my story so other tell there. I hate being called by real name &amp; my parents keep on calling me Graham, even use my first &amp; middle name so I started to use f word everytime they call me by my real name. I prefer Cyber it's abridged name for me.</B></I> Thu, 20 Dec 2018 11:38:44 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/sexuality-and-gender-identity/i-m-transgender/m-p/431372#M4680 Cyber 2018-12-20T11:38:44Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/sexuality-and-gender-identity/i-m-transgender/m-p/431373#M4681 <P>Hello,</P> <P>I wanted to extend a caring welcome to you to the forums here, because your post moved me...</P> <P>I would imagine that it must be so painful, more than I can possibly understand as I’m not transgender, to feel as though you’re in a physical body that doesn’t match the gender that you know you truly are in your heart and mind...</P> <P>I feel there’s understandably a lot of hurt, anger and sadness in your post, and we would like to get to know you a little better. So please feel free to keep writing when/if you feel up to it. We will try our best to support you...</P> <P>Kind thoughts to you today,</P> <P>Pepper</P> <P> </P> <P> </P> <P> </P> Thu, 20 Dec 2018 19:24:18 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/sexuality-and-gender-identity/i-m-transgender/m-p/431373#M4681 Peppermintbach 2018-12-20T19:24:18Z