https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/young-people/i-just-want-the-pain-to-stop/m-p/44080#M2034 <P>I've been feeling really anxious, depressed, angry, alone&nbsp;and even a bit suicidal for the last two and a half years. I've recently told my parents and my brother, I haven't told them about my suicidal thoughts though, I don't want to freak them out or tell them why. They were reassuring when my school counsellor told them about my self harming and depression. I find it hard to talk to them about stuff. I used to talk to my friend Michael but he told half my year about my depression and suicidal thoughts. I&nbsp;told him that I didn't want to be friends anymore, because every time I would tell him something he would tell others and he always made excuses, a couple of times he's gotten me so angry that I would self harm. Michael would continuously hurt me&nbsp;and I'd always forgive him, but he was such a good friend. Did I make the right choice?<BR /><BR /><BR /><BR />I've been feeling depressed and alone for weeks now and I just want it all to go away. I want the anxiety, the pain and the anger to all just go away. My emotions are everywhere all the time, I feel as if I have no control over them. My emotions rotate from angry to sad to alone to anxious to stressed to tired but I constantly feel depressed and angry.&nbsp;Is there something wrong with me?&nbsp;How can I take control of my emotions? I just want it all to go away. I feel so stressed out, I'm a type one diabetic and I've recently changed my insulin and have had to take extra precautions with what&nbsp;I eat and its just stressing me out, sometimes I forget to do my insulin and I just get so angry. Sometimes I'm afraid that if i can't control my anger that I'm going to break something or hurt someone.<BR /><BR />I just want it to all go away and control over my emotions.</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;</P> Sat, 07 Jun 2014 15:53:01 GMT Ravenna 2014-06-07T15:53:01Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/young-people/i-just-want-the-pain-to-stop/m-p/44080#M2034 <P>I've been feeling really anxious, depressed, angry, alone&nbsp;and even a bit suicidal for the last two and a half years. I've recently told my parents and my brother, I haven't told them about my suicidal thoughts though, I don't want to freak them out or tell them why. They were reassuring when my school counsellor told them about my self harming and depression. I find it hard to talk to them about stuff. I used to talk to my friend Michael but he told half my year about my depression and suicidal thoughts. I&nbsp;told him that I didn't want to be friends anymore, because every time I would tell him something he would tell others and he always made excuses, a couple of times he's gotten me so angry that I would self harm. Michael would continuously hurt me&nbsp;and I'd always forgive him, but he was such a good friend. Did I make the right choice?<BR /><BR /><BR /><BR />I've been feeling depressed and alone for weeks now and I just want it all to go away. I want the anxiety, the pain and the anger to all just go away. My emotions are everywhere all the time, I feel as if I have no control over them. My emotions rotate from angry to sad to alone to anxious to stressed to tired but I constantly feel depressed and angry.&nbsp;Is there something wrong with me?&nbsp;How can I take control of my emotions? I just want it all to go away. I feel so stressed out, I'm a type one diabetic and I've recently changed my insulin and have had to take extra precautions with what&nbsp;I eat and its just stressing me out, sometimes I forget to do my insulin and I just get so angry. Sometimes I'm afraid that if i can't control my anger that I'm going to break something or hurt someone.<BR /><BR />I just want it to all go away and control over my emotions.</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;</P> Sat, 07 Jun 2014 15:53:01 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/young-people/i-just-want-the-pain-to-stop/m-p/44080#M2034 Ravenna 2014-06-07T15:53:01Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/young-people/i-just-want-the-pain-to-stop/m-p/44081#M2035 <P>Hi Ravenna,&nbsp; welcome to the forum,</P> <P>Have you visited your GP. That's the first step and maybe a subsequent referral amybe to a counsellor. I'd say this will eventually get your anger and anxiety under control. It did for me. Meditation and relaxation excercises I still do 25 years after learning them and they do work. You have to train your mind to relax if it doesnt come natural. </P> <P>You are not abnormal. You just might need some guidance like we all have had here. </P> <P>Good luck and take care. I agree also that you have to be careful who you trust with information about your health.</P> Sun, 08 Jun 2014 07:23:23 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/young-people/i-just-want-the-pain-to-stop/m-p/44081#M2035 white knight 2014-06-08T07:23:23Z