They say it will get better?

brooked — Mon, 21 Oct 2013 13:07:14 GMT

Hi, I'm 25 & have been struggling with depression for 10 years! I was sexually abused by my brother as a young child and kept this to myself till I was 16! the aftermath of this has almost been as bad as the abuse, my parents have spilt up and my family All hate each other! I feel like this is all my fault( even though i know its not) i constantly feel like i have spilt the family up even though they all tell me its not my fault and not too worry! How can i not worry when i now dont have a family that supports each other! Sometimes i just wish i could end it because i really cant handle it being rubbed in my face everyday! But i know i cant because my cousin commited sucicide and it was horrible my family was a mess! As much as i want to escape my family & life i still love them and cant bare to put them through it again! My friends tell me it will get better and to just be happy! I have been waiting my whole life to be happy! Will this ever get easier?

Brooke

They say it will get better?

Jo3 — Tue, 22 Oct 2013 03:20:55 GMT

Hi Brooked

I'm sorry to read you're struggling with depression.

I am in a similar position as you. I am 47 yrs old and I remembered only 3 yrs ago that i was sexually abused as a 9-12 yr old. I was abused by my neighbour, uncle and brother. I hate them all. I told my parents and they have abandoned me from the day i told them. It's almost three yrs now and i feel so alone without them. To not have them hug me or support me is devastating. BUT I have a husband and 3 beautiful children who are supporting me and keeping me grounded. Each time I think of self harming or suicide I think of my kids - i couldn't do it to them. I, too have blamed myself so many times for "breaking up" my family. But i know now that it's not my fault for the abuse, i was only a child. I'm now suffering depression, anxiety, post traumatic stress and borderline personality disorder.

Are you having counselling? I am seeing a pyschotherapist for the past 3 yrs and find that I am very slowly getting there. Although at times I feel like giving up.

I understand how suicide can devastate a family - my niece 23yrs old committed suicide 3 weeks ago and it has devastated my own family and I'm sure it's affected my parents and her parents.

I wish you all the best, take care and keep in touch here on BB.

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They say it will get better?

They say it will get better?