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Frenzying? Going crazy? OCD? Threatening myself?

MaeM — Fri, 18 Jul 2014 00:16:05 GMT

Whenever I am anxious I seem to go into this mode where I just clean or sort things out. A few weeks ago I went through my wardrobe 3 times and throughout clothes I never wear and folded everything up all over again (Keeping in mind this what at 10pm). I will vacuum my carpet, take everything off shelves and put it back neat, clean my rabbits cage, wipe down cupboards and mop floors. I never noticed it until my mum pointed it out to me and started worrying about it. If I don't complete what I wanted to do I start freaking out aswell my mind is set on getting it done right then and there.
Another thing I do is go shopping or online shopping. I never buy anything online though. Im always checking online to see if anything is cheaper than the day before and if it is I don't even buy it. I go shopping and don't find anything that I like but I feel horrible if I don't go and check. I don't know whats going on with it. Never really been the kind of person to shop all the time. Im not very girly either so I don't know why I seem to feel obliged to just go to the shops. Sometimes I even ask my parents at 9:00pm to take me to the supermarket. I don't know what I am getting there but I just feel like going.
Am I going crazy? Is it frenzy? Kind of seems like OCD I suppose?
Another thing I do which I have been told by a counsellor seems a lot like OCD is threaten myself with the most random things for example, I'll tell myself in my head to look at the time or myself or something I love will die somehow. It can be the most stupid of things like straightening a picture frame, eating a bit of food, changing the channel, picking something up off the floor, patting my rabbit or dogs, asking my parents a question or saying something. Im always telling myself to do things like this and always threatening "or _____ will die"
I don't know what is happening!?

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geoff — Fri, 18 Jul 2014 02:57:40 GMT

dear MaeM, I am pleased that you have contacted us for support and decided to post what you are worried about and from what you have been doing.

Excuse me for saying that your counsellor believes that you may have OCD, well from what you have described to us, there is no doubt that you do have OCD, as I have had it for 54 years, and everything that you have mentioned is without a doubt that you do have it.

Many people have posted on here about their own traumas with OCD but it's unfortunate that they never stay with us, as they feel strange or guilty and then disappear, which I am disappointed about, because 54 years is a long long time to try and cope with this illness.

I really understand everything that you have said, so I would love to talk about it with you, so first of all can you please tell if you are a female, which I tend to believe you are and how old you are.

I only ask these questions because I would love to be able to get to know you.

Please don't have any fear with this because I would also love to explain this issue with your parents as well. Geoff.

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AGrace — Fri, 18 Jul 2014 06:58:36 GMT

Hi MaeM,

I'm glad that Geoff has responded and is willing to give you some further insight as he has personal experience that he can share.

You mentioned that you are seeing a Counsellor, have you seen a Dr or Psychiatrist/Psychologist? It would probably be comforting for you to get a definite diagnosis, so that you don't feel like you're going crazy. Is your counsellor willing to help you with managing your symptoms?

I hope you'll get back to us.

AGrace

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MaeM — Fri, 18 Jul 2014 12:04:50 GMT

I am seeing a psychiatrist but I haven't been able to see a psychologist in a while because the one I was seeing is impossible to get in to see. I have an appointment to try out a new one but other than that I am just on medication for depression and anxiety. Unfortunately the councellor I saw was just a web chat one and I hadn't it explained it very thoroughly.

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MaeM — Fri, 18 Jul 2014 12:06:10 GMT

Hi Geoff,
I am a female and I am soon to be 17 :L

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geoff — Fri, 18 Jul 2014 16:06:51 GMT

dear MaeM, thanks very much for this, as it's always nice to know the gender of the person who posts a comment.

Can I explain to you that over the years I have had OCD my habits and rituals have changed, like when I was a kid I couldn't step on any cracks in the footpath, but now it doesn't worry me, but when I do stop a habit, it is replaced by something else, and this list is endless.

It can happen at the spuhr of the moment, or it happens every time before I do something. Geoff. x

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MaeM — Fri, 18 Jul 2014 21:32:43 GMT

I think I used to not step on cracks as a kid but I never would've guessed that was OCD.
I don't know if my parents would understand and I really don't know how to help it.

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geoff — Sat, 19 Jul 2014 00:11:03 GMT

dear MaeM, there are so many little traits that everybody does, and from what I do someone like yourself wouldn't do, but is there anything that have to do while you are working.

I am also curious that when your parents take you to the supermarket is it the same section that you go to, and can I ask what happens to you if they don't take you.

Excuse me for asking you questions it's only because I am really interested, and by all means ask me as many questions as you want. Geoff.x

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MaeM — Sat, 19 Jul 2014 06:13:12 GMT

I don't think there is anything in particular but I will list just incase you see a pattern. When I ask my parents to take me and its at night normally I just go to the health and beauty section (Im not that into beauty stuff) otherwise anywhere and everywhere but I always have an urge to go to that isle.
As for when I go on my own to a shopping centre normally I will go to clothing stores but heres the shops I go to: jayjays, cotton on, kmart, city beach, surf dive n ski, priceline, factorie and ruby. I never really get anything? I hate buying things over $5.. I freak out if I don't get anything because I feel like its a waste, I go into shops more than one and I normally go once a week.
Im getting a little bit scared on this forum. I thought id just tell you. Not use to being this open and I am worried its not 100% anonymous.

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MaeM — Sat, 19 Jul 2014 07:38:24 GMT

Thought id just let you know* sorry.. Thank you for your help aswell i really appreciate it. I just have trust issues. But id like to continue talking with you

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AGrace — Sat, 19 Jul 2014 09:12:54 GMT

Hi MaeM,

Just a quick note to let you know the forums are completely anonymous, some of us disclose our names but this is not necessary. You can feel safe posting as much as is helpful for you. You're in very safe hands with Geoff, he's been a part of the discussions here for a number of years and will support you as much as possible.

Take Care

AGrace

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geoff — Sat, 19 Jul 2014 16:56:20 GMT

dear MaeM, please as Amber has said we don't know who you, what you look like, all we know is someone using a username, and please have no fear.

Having the urge to go to the same isle and also going into them more than once, and an obsession about not buying anything over a certain price all of these lead to having OCD.

Another possibility is that do you pick up an item more than once and then put it back in the same position as it was, and do you have a need to count to a certain number of times, or the same number like I do as I have to count to 4 or touch an item 4 times. Geoff. x

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MaeM — Sat, 19 Jul 2014 23:57:25 GMT

I don't count no.. I do pick things up and put them down in the same position though.

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AGrace — Sun, 20 Jul 2014 00:26:44 GMT

Hi Geoff,

Im not overly familiar with OCD, I used to have to wash my hands 3 times for no reason but I've since overcome this. So I was curious as to what treatments may have helped you over the years? Is it something that can be cured? Or is it just about managing the symptoms? Are their specific treatments that are recommended, ie CBT, ACT or exposure therapy?

Thanks in advance for your insight.

Amber