topic No purpose, not feeling good in Young people

No purpose, not feeling good

MaiiBear — Tue, 30 May 2017 09:12:06 GMT

This thing is kind of off and on for me, but now I'm not in the best place. There's nothing special waiting for me in my future. I have hobbies but they can't be future jobs and with how it is now, when I do get one it'll probably be a dead-end one. I won't be remembered after school and it'll be even worse after that because I'll have no community to belong to. I don't exactly have friends anyway and it's lonely. I feel like I'm the only one who really cares about the future and what I do. Either way I won't get anywhere and there is nothing special about me. It's expected I find somebody else to shoulder this with me but I don't ever want my own family, or to have a boyfriend. It's not because I'm young or stupid, I know what I want and it isn't that. No family, no career, nothing special and no friends. Sounds pretty useless to me.

I've been told I'm an attention-seeker and "all I do is make others feel bad" by somebody I thought was my friend a while ago. The funny thing is I never told them anything, I've never done anything. I try not to be negative and they think it's okay to do that when I finally feel okay again. Then everybody starts treating me like I'm naiive because I think differently to them and I can't stand up for myself. I pretty much live alone because my dad is working all day, so I'm alone all day with a brother I never want to talk to and never do.

I finally decided to see a GP and I was in there for less than ten minutes. I spent the whole day worrying to be given a sheet of paper that asked me if I'm depressed or anxious, how would I know? There's a reason I came, not to self-diagnose. In the end I was told it wasn't that bad as well. I had to lie about some things I think about which was the only real important question because I didn't want to get into trouble.

So now I guess I'm making it up too. People really know how to make me feel selfish and stupid

I'm sorry if this isn't allowed. My last one got deleted for mentioning GPs and I wouldn't be surprised. I feel invisible lately

No purpose, not feeling good

HamSolo01 — Tue, 30 May 2017 12:31:02 GMT

Your story hit a nerve with me. This is because it could all too easily have been me writing this.

I know how it feels to be in that mindset where there is literally no hope and theres nothing that can seemingly be done about it.

When one is different to the crowd/norm one is cast out or is forced into driving themselves away. I believe it is a healthy thing to exit from any scenario that would see you fall from your personal identity. Your individuality is everything.

However you must never let your individuality prevent you from getting help getting the right treatment. Remember this fundamental truth.

Be the person you want to be and let nothing get in the way of that.

I hope you are feeling better soon. This forum is the best 🙂

Take care

No purpose, not feeling good

Sophie_M — Tue, 30 May 2017 23:52:40 GMT

Hi MaiiBear, thanks for posting again and good to see you back.

Your earlier thread about GPs wasn't published because you already have one open (please see below). We're sorry if this wasn't clear from the email we sent you. A couple of our members reached out to you in your original thread to provide support and didn't hear back from you.

It would be great if you could pop in there and acknowledge their replies, and bring them up to date on what's happening for you:

Earlier thread: GPs

No purpose, not feeling good

MaiiBear — Wed, 31 May 2017 05:19:25 GMT

Thank you. It's nice to see somebody else understands but at the same time I'm sorry you do. I try to be an individual but there's a line between being a tryhard and actually being who I want. Sometimes I give up on trying to get closer to people and others I'm suddenly okay with it and I think I know what I'm doing, then it goes back again. I'm feeling slightly better than I was yesterday. I'll do my best from now on

Again, thanks so much for your wishes. I hope you have a great day

No purpose, not feeling good

MaiiBear — Wed, 31 May 2017 05:31:09 GMT

That would make sense. I don't check my emails often at all, so I'm really sorry about that. I hope it wasn't inconvenient to anyone and I'd forgotten about replying, I really hope I didn't send a bad message. It's harder to respond to somebody that it is to speak first.

I'll reply to them as soon as I can. Thanks for clearing it up for me, I was worried I'd broken an unspoken rule because I couldn't find anything in the forum rules that applied to me, at least from what I could see. I'm glad I didn't though

I hope you have a good day