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Falling_Angel — Fri, 07 Apr 2017 09:15:53 GMT

Hi i havent been on for a while but im at the end of my tether

im sick of ppl assuming things about my life and then actually making me believe they are honest and true& yet they lie straight to my face especially since i put all my trust in them and thats really hard for me and also,especially since its a obvious misunderstanding on the other persons behalf ????????????????

Im confused,angry ,upset and basically plain devaststed. Why why why ??I try soo hard to please those i care about just to have it slapped in my face... I honestly give up ....!!!!!!!!!!! i really dont think im getting the proper support i need atm and then to have someone close to me run me down and not remember anything ive done for them .. thinkng im just a taker (wow) anyway this person means the world to me and i dont know how to go about working out the problem especially if i feel the replies arent honest omg how did i allow myself to get shattered like this or let myself ....!!and all because of a miscontrude overheard conversation that had nothing to do with this person and also was taken the wrong way,without discussing it with me which would have made it all different omg

anyway guess im asking how do i stop the suicidal thoughts thats are currently and have been for a few days consuming my mind ? i now feel like a noone like ive been put in the same catergory this person sees nearly everyone ? it hurts and im just gob smacked

any suggestions if anyone reads this please?? HELP

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Rosi_Z_ — Sat, 08 Apr 2017 03:19:08 GMT

Hello. Trust between friends is essential and sometimes people do get their wires crossed.

Would a structured support group help? One with a skilled leader and people who are committed to confidentiality and respect?

Take care and look after yourself.

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startingnew — Sat, 08 Apr 2017 04:00:47 GMT

hi falling angel

i also struggle alot with suicidal thoughts and know how it feels to be in that place

ive recently created a coping strategies thread that may be of use to you, theres heaps of different things you could try to help yourself 🙂

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Falling_Angel — Sat, 08 Apr 2017 09:55:17 GMT

thanks .ive obviously stuffed up and my intentioms have been misread regardless of this i cant stop ,my way of thinking, im going to get drunk i know its a depressant but takes me out of the reality im dealing with,

i just cant understand why ive become a user/abuser and not genuine as i am and definately thought we had a understanding oh well life goes on ill just go about my buisness and try not to intrude on this person anymore i think its best for us both as i cant take another broken heart ..................but its too late

never mind at least i found out instead of making a complete idiot of myself thinking we had something special

ill be more careful actually im finished thats it for me over it all .thanks for replyong

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Falling_Angel — Sat, 08 Apr 2017 09:58:03 GMT

Rosi i think its too late for that but thanks for your support 😞

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Falling_Angel — Sat, 08 Apr 2017 09:59:52 GMT

Hey starting new how do i get to this thread you have created please

any help appreciated 😞

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startingnew — Sat, 08 Apr 2017 10:35:35 GMT

as it only a new thread it should come up under the new posts title- its just called coping strategies

if not its under the new posts its under staying well and its called COPING STRATEGIES

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Falling_Angel — Sat, 08 Apr 2017 10:52:48 GMT

THANKYOU 🙂

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startingnew — Sat, 08 Apr 2017 11:12:16 GMT

not a problems hopefully something on there will help 🙂

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Falling_Angel — Mon, 10 Apr 2017 04:45:19 GMT

hi starting new yes ive looked at your thread it might be very hepful for me

update on situation the friend no longer wants anything to do with me and thats fine she found out i knew she had been talking about me anyway oh well i tried too bad she couldnt get over her ego admit she was wrong or made a mistake and talk about it but guess she wanted to sabotage the relationship anyway , im unsure if ppl can have relationships when both are dealing with ptsd and other mental issues so im respecting her descion and moving on.. thankuu all for taking the time to chat with me ill be back later take care FA XX

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startingnew — Mon, 10 Apr 2017 05:38:35 GMT

They can falling angel despite having problems people can still be friends with others. But im glad your not bothered and you seem to be taking it well which is great

Shows great resilience ❤❤❤

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Falling_Angel — Mon, 10 Apr 2017 10:56:30 GMT

Startinng new

i am bothered tho im heartbroken this lady doesnt see the real me

or if she does she doesn like it..!!! either way im hurting ill read more of your posts they are really good thankyou for caring xx

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startingnew — Mon, 10 Apr 2017 11:02:57 GMT

it is very hard loosing friends FA i certainly know the feeling of that, just recently i thought i was very close to these three people and then bam nope they really dont like me and i found out they talk about me all the time behind my back - alot of it isnt good so i found out so its been abit rough for friends for me too

the sad thing with these three though was they saw the real me past the depression etc and they still chose to leave. i havent spoken to them in a few weeks now and they havent conteacted me either.

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Falling_Angel — Mon, 10 Apr 2017 11:29:13 GMT

my friend lives right across the road and is aware i know that she has ben talkng about me

she is a memeber on bb also so ,makes it difficultt but ill work it out with help i hope 😞

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Falling_Angel — Mon, 10 Apr 2017 11:37:38 GMT

we both being careful

how do u cope when u find these things out?

im jaw dropped at how bad i came across but we were both being careful yet then she run me down on BB thinkk i i should delete my account ???????????????

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startingnew — Mon, 10 Apr 2017 12:03:45 GMT

I dont think you should delete your account FA

This is all anonymous. But it really is up to you

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startingnew — Mon, 10 Apr 2017 12:13:23 GMT

My friends live in the same area as me with in a 15k radius and they are in my area quite a fair bit so every now and then i see them when im driving.

These people are actually older than me and i thought i was fitting in quite well as we had the same hobbies but after a while i has to move to another interest and then theu turned on me.

They didnt say it straight away they just let their hatred grow while they were silent and then i sent them a msg asking what was going on and why were they ignoring me and what have i done. Then it blew up in my face. They name called and we were really mean about it.

The only way i cope is to just try and live life without them . Hard i know but its their problem not yours. You havent done anything

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startingnew — Mon, 10 Apr 2017 12:15:43 GMT

Do you mean they know who u r on bb?

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Falling_Angel — Tue, 11 Apr 2017 02:02:01 GMT

yes she does

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startingnew — Tue, 11 Apr 2017 03:28:01 GMT

then i would FA and then create a new account under another name so that she doesnt know then you can speak freely without worry