topic I always do things ass about in Long-term support over the journey

I always do things ass about

velvetfaerie — Wed, 13 Sep 2017 09:23:01 GMT

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

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Guest_128 — Wed, 13 Sep 2017 09:30:48 GMT

Now I can find you.

💓💗💖💘💕💞💓💗❤️💞💖💗💓

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Peppermintbach — Wed, 13 Sep 2017 09:36:54 GMT

Hi Velv,

I have seen you around the forums. She of the wonderful sense of humour with a bold, independent, spirited streak that comes across in your posts.

Just say what you want to say and pause when/if you feel like it too; it's your thread 😉

I totally hear you on music and animals being your life's passions. With you 100% on both counts!

Pepper xo

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Guest_128 — Wed, 13 Sep 2017 09:39:57 GMT

Oh, enjoy all your friends that are about to come to you.

I could squeeze you to pieces.

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velvetfaerie — Wed, 13 Sep 2017 09:43:40 GMT

Aweeee pepper and Dory thank you.

**blush**

yeh I read your hint in class this am Dory and chuckled... took all day to do this because of feeling so yukky.

I did very little in class too lol.... way too Blaryhhhh feeling.

your squishes are appreciated and returned squishy like

hshahaahhaa

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Guest_3712 — Wed, 13 Sep 2017 10:25:54 GMT

Hey Velvet my friend

Wow your own thread ! So Dory finally wore you down - she's a persuasive little 🐟

Nice to know a bit more about you - but already knew all I needed to- kind , compassionate, funny, animal lover ✅✅✅✅

❤️💛💚💙💜

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Guest_128 — Wed, 13 Sep 2017 10:29:55 GMT

It's so good to know you are a nuta(ok fishing spelling)

like us 🤣😂🤗🤣😂

ok I will try and be fishing normal 🐸

You are not a yucca plant ,

This old fart is going to bed.

You have made my week.

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velvetfaerie — Wed, 13 Sep 2017 21:53:36 GMT

Thank you Dory for believing in me.

Im having a rant. I'm sick to F..... of being a "good friend" (direct quote from last night) to people when no one is there for me.

I listened and helped a friend last night for 2 hours on the phone. While earlier this week she ignored my little reach out.

i mean SERIOUSLY.... next time "who cares" will come out of my mouth. No one knows or cares to F ing know what I'm going through this week. Bad meds - ditched today. A virus. Plus life stuff. Plus my bf hurt me and angered me beyond belief.

F today!!!

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velvetfaerie — Thu, 14 Sep 2017 02:51:27 GMT

You make me smile Dory because we seem similar.

I had a rant here this am. No sign of it. Must've been too non PC.

Meh.

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Guest_128 — Thu, 14 Sep 2017 08:38:20 GMT

Well fry me too,

I just wrote an epic and deleted it💩

Gotta cook tea for all my mongo family,

I be back

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Guest_3712 — Thu, 14 Sep 2017 08:53:26 GMT

Love u guys

See u in the Circle Later for RU OK posts

Stressless or as Dory says

Stress and Less😂

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velvetfaerie — Thu, 14 Sep 2017 08:55:24 GMT

Mongo family?

LOL DORY LOL!!

ok crawling over.....

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Guest_128 — Thu, 14 Sep 2017 10:02:45 GMT

And Thankyou for believing in me.😊

Have I ever said that I can not stand me me me me me me me people! They are the biggest tools on earth,and have no flying idea about life! They are usually the others.

What's doing with the bad meds and ditching????????

What your computer has a virus???????

Ass bf did what????????

Life stuff, give it to me baby??????

Dory

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velvetfaerie — Thu, 14 Sep 2017 10:21:46 GMT

I read that one of yours and smiled. I'm naturally a nurturer, carer, helper. Misplaced maternal instinct lol!!! I help tools thinking , ah they not like this all the time. WRONG. 😂

i have a virus. Bastard thing.

Meds were counter productive.

Bf - pfffffttt he's got depression and sadly is yet to help himself. I want to help him when he is ready.

life stuff - busy busy work tafe exams ARGGHG LOL... helped with some work today subject to quarantine. Was interesting stuff.

I collect macabre things... found another bird skull for my collection today. Yes. I'm strange.

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Quercus — Thu, 14 Sep 2017 15:56:57 GMT

Hi Velvet 😊

Just had to throw in a hello so that I can find you easier once I get back from my road trip tomorrow.

I'm so glad you have your own thread. Now I can watch you and Dory crack everyone up. You've made my day.

As to the 'friend' if she ignores you and is selfish then she's not much of a friend hey. Time to find some new friends.

You never fail to remind me of my sister... She is a kick ass woman with a big heart of absolute gold who speaks her mind too. This is a fantastic thing! Stuff the PC celebrate foot in mouth disease 😊😊😊.

❤ Nat

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velvetfaerie — Thu, 14 Sep 2017 20:18:52 GMT

I just woke up. I'm smiley. You guys made my morning.

Its Friday too 😁😁😁😁

Bad meds are gone I feel better.

I have had a virus. Bugs graaarr !!!

BF - stupid dumb boy who thinks only of his own selfish needs. We are on talking terms again though. Lol... Also he has depression he admits... he's just bee in denial for 2 decades.

Its brekky time!!!!

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Guest_128 — Fri, 15 Sep 2017 03:31:37 GMT

Oh Vel I just wet my pants

Awsome dude, I was about to say whats macawhatever and then saw bones, oh how exciting, Don't know if you know that I go hunting so all weird and wonderful things. We have a few animals around. Crap gold hunting too🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🐡🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

Tell that lucky bf to wake up or lookout for a blue fish coming.

Dory

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Guest_3712 — Fri, 15 Sep 2017 03:47:43 GMT

I so know where to look if I need cheering up- you guys crack me up every time !

Not really into all the macabre things you guys are, I actually have trouble with live creepy things let alone dead ones, however I appreciate we all have different interests so as long as you look out for me and don't do any scary things - all good !

Drop by the Circle later, some folk there need some cheering up

Stressless

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velvetfaerie — Fri, 15 Sep 2017 03:57:45 GMT

You guys rock my world 😄

HEHEH. Dory he will get my boot is his ass first...

Going to circle......

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velvetfaerie — Sat, 16 Sep 2017 17:24:50 GMT

I think my relationship is broken. I can't sleep. I'm sick of repairing it. I feel taken for granted. I'm sick of arguing and not feeling loved / wanted / valued. He knows this. He knows I'm at end point. He doesn't know what to do either. He says aaaaallll the things - I love you, I want you in my life, I want a future with you.

Im starting to believe it's all lies. But, it's not like he's getting anything out of me at the moment.

Must. Sleep.