https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/keeping-it-together/m-p/366976#M34366 <P>For the past 6 years I have been taking a medicaton that has helped with my depession / moods / anxiety,</P> <P>Its been 10 days since I last took my anti depressants. By my choice. </P> <P>The fact is only 1 person knows I have been using meth on a regular basis for the past 3 -4 years, Ive been addicted before in my early to late 20's . No one knew either until my behavious were really out of control and an intervention was made, and I went to therapy/ rehab. ..</P> <P>Im 37, single with no children. And live on my own . I hold down a great job, own my home , and under all this " got my shit together because I work hard" I hold the biggest secret. As there will be a day when I dont want to use anymore, but I am sooo addicted, </P> <P>Apart from my brother who knows,......My family are extremely anti drugs and would be in total shock if they knew,<SPAN style="font-size: inherit;">and they would never trust me / respect me ever again.</SPAN></P> <P>My friends wouldn't judge me but I am too embarrassed, and dont think they need to know anyway.</P> <P>I need to get this off my chest, my doctor(s) don't even know because I am ashamed of how its taken a hold and how easy I can act/ look "normal"</P> <P>I don't think Im looking for advise, but just a forum to get this off my chest and out of my head once and for all . </P> Mon, 29 Oct 2018 18:21:13 GMT nitzkachick 2018-10-29T18:21:13Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/keeping-it-together/m-p/366976#M34366 <P>For the past 6 years I have been taking a medicaton that has helped with my depession / moods / anxiety,</P> <P>Its been 10 days since I last took my anti depressants. By my choice. </P> <P>The fact is only 1 person knows I have been using meth on a regular basis for the past 3 -4 years, Ive been addicted before in my early to late 20's . No one knew either until my behavious were really out of control and an intervention was made, and I went to therapy/ rehab. ..</P> <P>Im 37, single with no children. And live on my own . I hold down a great job, own my home , and under all this " got my shit together because I work hard" I hold the biggest secret. As there will be a day when I dont want to use anymore, but I am sooo addicted, </P> <P>Apart from my brother who knows,......My family are extremely anti drugs and would be in total shock if they knew,<SPAN style="font-size: inherit;">and they would never trust me / respect me ever again.</SPAN></P> <P>My friends wouldn't judge me but I am too embarrassed, and dont think they need to know anyway.</P> <P>I need to get this off my chest, my doctor(s) don't even know because I am ashamed of how its taken a hold and how easy I can act/ look "normal"</P> <P>I don't think Im looking for advise, but just a forum to get this off my chest and out of my head once and for all . </P> Mon, 29 Oct 2018 18:21:13 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/keeping-it-together/m-p/366976#M34366 nitzkachick 2018-10-29T18:21:13Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/keeping-it-together/m-p/366977#M34367 <P>nitzkachick,</P> <P>No advice from me. But welcome to beyond blue. I only have a couple of questions...</P> <P>1. How have you been feeling since stopping taking ADs?</P> <P>2. You said that your brother know about you taking drugs? What does he say to you? And your responses? Did/Do you want to get off them?</P> <P>3. Now that you have posted to this forum, do you feel like did "get this off .... chest"?</P> <P>I don't know anything about your family, and while their might be shocked and have "trust" issues, I would hope they would care about you and help you, if that is what you wanted? </P> <P>Whether you respond to any or all questions is up to you. I hope that you come back and talk some more. And you will find all the people her supportive and helpful.</P> <P>Tim</P> Tue, 30 Oct 2018 08:26:51 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/keeping-it-together/m-p/366977#M34367 smallwolf 2018-10-30T08:26:51Z