https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/suicidal-thoughts-and-self-harm/i-don-t-look-forward-to-anything-anymore/m-p/576098#M49405 <P>i continue to find that i don't look forward to anything anymore. for some reason i continue to put things in place that i think i enjoy doing but then realise that i don't like doing this activity that i maybe used to enjoy and ultimately end up hating myself more after. i always think to myself why do i bother with anything and i think its because i'll continue to try to help myself, but i am worried that i will give up all hope and put myself in a much darker spot.&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>recently i went away for four months, over that time i still felt like i didn't want to be around. although goods things would be happening to me and i would know that and appreciate it. i found myself holding onto the the negatives that popped up. using these, i guess small negatives to propel my overall feeling of not wanting to be around.&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>i will go away again for a similar amount of time soon and keep thinking to myself why am i even bothering.&nbsp;</P> Sat, 07 Oct 2023 13:20:11 GMT pat-i-l 2023-10-07T13:20:11Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/suicidal-thoughts-and-self-harm/i-don-t-look-forward-to-anything-anymore/m-p/576098#M49405 <P>i continue to find that i don't look forward to anything anymore. for some reason i continue to put things in place that i think i enjoy doing but then realise that i don't like doing this activity that i maybe used to enjoy and ultimately end up hating myself more after. i always think to myself why do i bother with anything and i think its because i'll continue to try to help myself, but i am worried that i will give up all hope and put myself in a much darker spot.&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>recently i went away for four months, over that time i still felt like i didn't want to be around. although goods things would be happening to me and i would know that and appreciate it. i found myself holding onto the the negatives that popped up. using these, i guess small negatives to propel my overall feeling of not wanting to be around.&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>i will go away again for a similar amount of time soon and keep thinking to myself why am i even bothering.&nbsp;</P> Sat, 07 Oct 2023 13:20:11 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/suicidal-thoughts-and-self-harm/i-don-t-look-forward-to-anything-anymore/m-p/576098#M49405 pat-i-l 2023-10-07T13:20:11Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/suicidal-thoughts-and-self-harm/i-don-t-look-forward-to-anything-anymore/m-p/576157#M49409 <P>hello and welcome...</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>I'm sorry to hear you've been struggling with finding enjoyment and meaning. There was a long time I felt I had 2 level ... 0 and 1. Going to the football was a '1' (roughly speaking) and after the game dropped back to 0. So it's understandable to feel discouraged...</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>It's OK that some activities you used to enjoy no longer bring you happiness.</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>Here are some things that helped me since I started getting help...</P><UL><LI>Focus on the small positives when you can, even if the negatives feel more prominent. Appreciate the good moments and successes, however minor they may seem.</LI><LI>Do you have any support? For example, speaking to a counselor or therapist. They can help provide tools and perspective to work through the lack of enjoyment and negative thought patterns.</LI><LI>Be compassionate with yourself. Healing and finding meaning takes time. Progress isn't linear. Keep taking small steps forward when you can.</LI></UL><P>These may or may not work for you. Hopefully some part might resonate with you. Listening if you want to chat more...</P> Sun, 08 Oct 2023 12:15:50 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/suicidal-thoughts-and-self-harm/i-don-t-look-forward-to-anything-anymore/m-p/576157#M49409 smallwolf 2023-10-08T12:15:50Z