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Suicidal

Chris_Tas — Mon, 29 Aug 2022 17:32:23 GMT

Firstly I think mods do thei best.

Secondly I feel complete ut of touch with reality.

I want people to post freely and express it.

Hi Chris_Tas, We are sorry if you feel you are unable t...

Sophie_M — Mon, 29 Aug 2022 18:05:34 GMT

Hi Chris_Tas,

We are sorry if you feel you are unable to express yourself freely and encourage you to do so on the forums, but it goes without saying it must be within the community guidelines.

We hope that you are doing well but are concerned by your thread title that you are currently at risk, due to this we have arranged a call out by our counselling team. If you miss their calls, we encourage you to contact Beyond Blue either via phone 1300 224 636 or through Beyond Blue Online Chat.

You could also contact the Suicide Callback Service, as you may be aware they offer a range of contact methods that can be accessed via Suicide Callback Service or by giving them a call on 1300 659 467.

Please remember that if you feel you are in danger or you do not feel safe, please call emergency services on 000.

Warm regards
Sophie M

Re: Suicidal

white knight — Tue, 30 Aug 2022 06:28:07 GMT

Is there anything you'd like to discuss Chris?

I've been here 9 years. I'm open to chatting about anything within the community rules.

TonyWK

Re: Suicidal

Petal22 — Wed, 31 Aug 2022 07:44:36 GMT

Hi Chris Tas,

Im sorry you are feeling this way.

Hang in there and please know we are here listening to you.

Re: Suicidal

therising — Thu, 01 Sep 2022 19:42:35 GMT

Hi Chris

I think the moderators are focused on a moderate degree of distressing or upsetting content in the posts, which can help explain why we don't see extremely or overwhelmingly distressing content. I imagine there are only a select number of people that can manage that kind of content. To not be able to freely express ourselves can be upsetting, I can relate, for it's that kind of freedom that can lead us to make greater sense of things sometimes. Putting it out there and seeing how it resonates with people can be something that's really needed. Can almost feel like a deep longing at times.

Wondering how you're perceiving your reality at the moment. With it being said that our reality is based on our perception, if we're in between perceptions for some reason (coming out of an old one and on the verge of coming into a new way of seeing things) or if we're not fully conscious of the perception we're entering into, it can feel pretty surreal. How would you describe it?

Re: Suicidal

Chris_Tas — Wed, 07 Sep 2022 16:53:17 GMT

Been a tough week.

3 admissions all Police involved.

They have been great to me as I'm not aggressive just lost.

Everyone stay well and mods please annex this to my main thread as I have no idea how that happened.

Stay safe all, I'm here for anyone.

Chris

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Chris_Tas — Wed, 07 Sep 2022 17:07:11 GMT

So I've been in hospital 3 times in a week.

Every time rang lifeline.

I am extremely proud of the support given to me.

I had 6 Police officers and 2 paramedics on one occasion and they (whilst confronting) were fantastic.

If you feel.suicidal please reach out like I do. Apparently I'm the highest in Tasmania and they STILL help me with no judgement.

Please seek immediately if you feel unsafe as your life is better with us that without.

Re: Suicidal

Chris_Tas — Wed, 07 Sep 2022 17:10:33 GMT

Please remember Police (outside a few) aren't out to "get you".

Suicide is not a crime.

They will not treat you that way as long as honest, calm, no threats, and just say you're struggling.

You'll be amazed how much support you get as you are not alone.

Re: Suicidal

Chris_Tas — Wed, 07 Sep 2022 19:01:10 GMT

Yes mate but this forum is now so difficult

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Chris_Tas — Wed, 07 Sep 2022 19:06:41 GMT

Thank you Petal.

May I tell a funny story? (my mates found it funny but my sister didn't and gave me a spray)

So I was under the Police Custody Order but I felt up and about -here in Tas you can't leave if under this Order which is great.

I got bored though so had a game of "how to escape) and I did!!!

I threw a bottle of water one way and then hid under ther the Drs chair.

They couldn't find me so I gave myself up and this huge man grabbed me and said funniest patient ever.....lol

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Chris_Tas — Wed, 07 Sep 2022 19:09:54 GMT

Nurse said not to ring lifeline again as "real patients" need help.

I simply said you'll lose your job in 24 hours.

Apparently she has been stood down but no, I want her to work and learn from it.

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Chris_Tas — Wed, 07 Sep 2022 19:20:57 GMT

When in hospital it's great!

Just be honest on your drinking (in my case) or other drugs and I assure you that you'll be treated better if just honest.

I have now been given priority counselling by an absolute gun guy and that wouldn't have happened if I wasn't honest.

Seek help and you will get it so long as not nasty, aggressive etc which far too many are so don't do that (ever)

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Petal22 — Thu, 08 Sep 2022 01:17:54 GMT

Hi Chris,

You did give me a laugh from your story regarding the water bottle.

How are you currently?

Im glad to hear that you are still receiving the help you need…. Keep reaching out.

Re: Suicidal

therising — Fri, 09 Sep 2022 11:35:51 GMT

Hi Chris

I'm so glad all those incredibly supportive people have led you to a counselor who is making such an incredible difference. When I think about the torture faced by those who work so hard to stay in this world, I often think how unfair it is how they can be subjected to weeks, months or even years before finding that person who makes so much of a difference. Wish there were more of them and people didn't have to go through so much to finally get to them.

You're a beautiful person Chris, offering inspiration to others while sharing the terrible pain you've endured. You're here on this earth for a reason, partly to be a guide for others when they are in the dark. You're a light Chris☀️