topic I don't want to live anymore in Suicidal thoughts and self-harm

I don't want to live anymore

NellieF — Sun, 11 Oct 2020 22:34:44 GMT

I have given up. There's no reason to live. There's no joy. There's nothing

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Sophie_M — Sun, 11 Oct 2020 22:54:46 GMT

Hi NellieF,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums. Despite seeing no reason to live you have written to our community, which we imagine must have been difficult for you. We are so glad that you have done so today. Please know we are here to support you through this dark time, you’re not alone in this. If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency and you need to call 000 (triple zero).

Reaching out to Lifeline (13 11 14 / https://www.lifeline.org.au/Get-Help/Online-Services/crisis-chat ) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467 / https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/need-to-talk/ ) are also great places to talk things through.

While our community may take some time to reply to your post, feel free to continue sharing any thoughts or feelings when you feel comfortable. It might be helpful to share more about what has brought you here today. Again, our community is here to listen and support you through this.

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Aaronsis — Sun, 11 Oct 2020 23:59:04 GMT

Hi NellieF

I can hear from your few words how dark today is for you and how much pain you are in. Well done for reaching out to us, to let us sit with you and to let you know that there are people who care very much and we are here for you.

It is not easy to reach out when you feel like all is lost and there is nothing to look forward to let alone make you feel any tiny bit of happiness. You have done that today and I am very proud of you.

If you wanted to share some more of your story I am here to listen and to chat with, this is a really safe space with no judgement or criticism, only if you want to tho.

Sophie_M has given you some great support options too if you feel like talking, the people at Lifeline are so amazing and it would be wonderful if you felt you could reach out for some support there too.

I am here for you NellieF,

Sending you hugs

Sarah

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tranzcrybe — Mon, 12 Oct 2020 00:21:20 GMT

Hi NellieF,

I hear you are in a dark place, but that tiny hand reaching out is a glimmer of hope in you still. What's put you there where you don't belong?

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smallwolf — Mon, 12 Oct 2020 12:48:10 GMT

hi and welcome.

a single line of text... so raw. emotional, perhaps painful to write, and yet you did. It takes courage to recognise a problem and not knowing how others might respond.

I can remember a time when nothing gave me joy also. I was also seeing a psychologist at the time. Still am! And yet somehow I have made it through.

In this post I would just want you to know that I am listening. I hope you will come back to tell more of your story. Then I might also show you other parts of the forum to explore.

Peace and comforting thoughts,

Tim

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therising — Mon, 12 Oct 2020 23:59:55 GMT

Hi Nellie

I echo everyone's words when I say I hear you and I am here for you. You've joined an incredible deeply caring group of people who look to make a difference to those who so desperately need it.

🙂

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NellieF — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 09:39:11 GMT

Thanks for your replies. I feel suicidal everyday. The only thing stopping me from suicide is my soulmate and family. Im sick and depressed.

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Sophie_M — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 09:45:20 GMT

Hi Nellie,

We're sorry to hear that you're sick and depressed. We can hear that you're feeling really low tonight, so we're glad you reached out.

Can we ask, do you have any mental health support? We understand it can be really tough to cope sometimes. If you would like some help finding mental health support, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport They will give you support and point you in the right direction for help in your area.

If you would like to post further, please tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best help support you.

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blondguy — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 10:04:23 GMT

Hi Nellie

Its just humble opinion if thats ok Nellie...You are a legend for having the strength to post on the forums feeling the way you do

Can I ask what is making you feel this way?

The forums are a rock solid safe place for us Nellie! There is no judgment here. If you can help us help you I really hope you can let us know why you feel the way you do

we are listening Nellie 🙂

Paul

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NellieF — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 10:09:31 GMT

I don't know what else to do. I was so sick but I went shopping with my nephew. I'm so sick all I can do is sleep all day and stay in bed.

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NellieF — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 10:17:48 GMT

I have an auto immune disorder. It's hard for me to rest in bed. I'm physically sick and I get tired easily and depressed because of my illness.

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TheBigBlue — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 10:29:30 GMT

I don’t know if this will help or not, but I live with 2 autoimmune disorders so I can understand how hard & tiring & relentless it can be. It just never stops & it’s physically & emotionally debilitating.

im always happy to listen if you need to vent

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white knight — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 12:06:15 GMT

Hi NellieF

I'm here like the other posters. I'm listening, I'm feeling and just like the others, I'm feeling your message.

My survival 24 years ago started with a special man called Maharaji real name Prem Rawat. Maybe you'd like to Google these-

YouTube maharaji sunset

YouTube Maharaji the perfect instrument

TonyWK

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smallwolf — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 12:41:28 GMT

Sad to read how challenging things are for you. There is also strength in you - from one post about sleeping all day and then to shopping...

Can you tell me something about your family?

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NellieF — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 13:58:51 GMT

Hi smallwolf
I have my nephew staying with me. I am trying to relax and enjoy being in bed and listening to the rain makes me happy. My family pretty much do thier own thing and I see them with NDIS support. It's raining here and I love the rain. I get tired but I'm trying to enjoy staying in bed all day.

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NellieF — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 14:12:45 GMT

Hi Bigblue I get very tired thanks for your post. I try to enjoy staying in bed and to rest.

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smallwolf — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 21:36:59 GMT

How long is your nephew staying with you?

And what is it about the rain that you like?

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NellieF — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 22:54:47 GMT

My nephew is staying with me for good. I love the rain it's peaceful and I can rest in bed and chat on multimedia.

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NellieF — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 23:21:09 GMT

It's hard accepting that I have to stay in bed and rest that I can't go out anymore and study and work. I have always worked studied and been busy but to rest in bed for a year has been hard. But I'm trying to enjoy resting in bed all day and chatting on Multimedia. It's a different life.

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NellieF — Sun, 18 Oct 2020 00:13:19 GMT

It's hard I try and do prayer and meditation it helps me change my reality. I find I am still depressed. I think it's got to do with immune disorder being depressed