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13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Hb5598 — Wed, 01 Jun 2022 02:01:18 GMT

Hello, i am a 13 year old boy and i couldnt talk about suicide in young adults and teens section so im doing it here.

over the weekend i tried to harm myself.

my mum told me that my life is precious and that kind of stuff.

why am i trying to kill myself? error 404: Reason not found.

Some stuff about me real quick.

as stated i am a 13 year old boy in highschool. i have clinical depression and ADHD, Autism, Low muscle tone and im very fat, I weigh more than my mother (she is in her early 40s ) i am ashamed of myself and i fight myself all the time.

Well i have to wrap this up because i am almost out of battery.

Thanks for reading,

A suicidal studant who does not believe in himself.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Sophie_M — Wed, 01 Jun 2022 02:55:17 GMT

Hi Hb5598

Thank you for posting to the forums today. We can hear you’re going through a really difficult time. We’re really glad you could share here, it’s a really brave step to have taken.

Please know that we are concerned about you and have asked our friends at our Support Service to check-in with you via email, to ensure you have a plan to keep safe today. If you'd prefer to call us directly we're on 1300 22 4636, or webchat: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums

If you’re feeling suicidal or are having thoughts about harming yourself, it's important that you take immediate steps to keep safe. If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency and you need to call 000 (triple zero).

A few more options are Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800, the Suicide Call Back Service on
1300 659 467, and Headspace on 1800 650 890. All of these options are also available through webchat, if you'd prefer:

Kids Helpline: https://kidshelpline.com.au/
Suicide Call Back Service: https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/phone-and-online-counselling/
Headspace (9am-1am AEST): https://headspace.org.au/eheadspace/

We'd encourage you to check back in when you can to let us know how you're going.

You're not alone in this.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Ggrand — Wed, 01 Jun 2022 04:13:52 GMT

Hello Hb5598,

I am sorry you are strong much with your mental health...

Your mother is so right...Life is precious...you are precious..

Do you have a health officer that you can talk to at school and let them know how your feeling....Does you Mum know how your feeling....Please Dear Hb5598..speak to someone, reach out to your mum or your health officer at school...or the contacts that our lovely Sophie has given you...so you can get the help that you deserve and need...

Depression tells us all sorts of different things negative about us...When you start thinking unhealthy thoughts, Please try hard to distract your thoughts into something you enjoy doing...

What kind of things do you like doing?

My kind thoughts Dear Hb5598...please keep talking here if you feel up to it....we are all here to help support you the best we can..

Grandy.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Petal22 — Wed, 01 Jun 2022 07:50:35 GMT

Hi Hb5598.

Wellcome to our forums.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way I understand it's hard.

I'm sorry that you tried to harm to yourself.

Are you currently seeing a psychologist?

Please try to understand that you aren't your thoughts but you are the observer of your thoughts, you don't have to identify with your thoughts.

I understand that with depression our mind can be full of negative thoughts, please try to feed your mind with positive thoughts and allow the negative ones to float on by.

Try to occupy yourself with something you like doing.

Your a beautiful human being and you deserve to be here living your life.

Please don't allow your body image to define you, you are still you and what's inside yourself is what matters.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Chris_Tas — Wed, 01 Jun 2022 14:37:00 GMT

I care about you. If you are feeling unsafe, Please go to emergency immediately

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Hb5598 — Wed, 01 Jun 2022 23:36:19 GMT

yes petal, i am. also thx for commenting on all my posts so far.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Hb5598 — Wed, 01 Jun 2022 23:38:09 GMT

yeah, life is a precious thing. I keep failing to realise that fact.

but i am working hard and have told my mum all about this.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Hb5598 — Wed, 01 Jun 2022 23:40:23 GMT

yes i will try to do that. also thanks for changing my post it would trigger some people and i read the rules of this sub after i posted about details. sorry about that, no details of how i tried self harm. thanks though.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Petal22 — Thu, 02 Jun 2022 03:05:02 GMT

That’s ok Hb5598 😊 please know we are always here to support you.

I’m glad you are seeing a psychologist.

Have you ever tried meditation? A meditation for learning to watch your thoughts is a great meditation to practice…. You could google one if you want to?

Or you could have a chat to your phycologists about meditation and your mum?

Meditation got me over the line with my mental health condition I learned that i wasn’t my thoughts but the watcher of my thoughts.

I think it’s fantastic that you are so open in talking to your mum 😊 she loves you very much and wants the best for you.

Keep talking

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

smallwolf — Thu, 02 Jun 2022 12:03:12 GMT

hello and welcome.

In addition to the suggestions put forward by the other the replies, i would also suggest that you have a look at

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/beyondnow-suicide-safety-planning/create-beyondnow-safety-plan

I understand it may seem that things are too difficult for you at the moment and I want you to know that people here care about you. It takes courage to write about what you feeling to a group of strangers. Anyway, do you want to share a little more of your story or what's happening in your life? Or things you like?

Listening to you.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Karen0901 — Thu, 02 Jun 2022 12:21:27 GMT

The early teen years can be so hard. I tried to harm myself when I was 14. I was very lucky I got help in time. Don't do anything you will regret. Suicide is forever and you have a lot of future ahead of you. So many things can change.

Talk about why you are feeling this way honestly with your family and mental health professionals. They will help guide you through this difficult time.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Chris_Tas — Fri, 03 Jun 2022 16:47:09 GMT

Well believe in yourself?

I believe in you.

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

yggdrasil — Sun, 05 Jun 2022 05:31:30 GMT

Hi Hb5598,

Thank you so much for posting on here. I'm really sorry to hear how much you are struggling. It's a very challenging age you are at, as everything can feel particularly intense.

Do you have any sports you play regularly? Anything to get you out of your head. There are also things like skating and scootering if team sports are not your thing. I started skating in my teens, and it really focuses your mind, as falling hurts, so you really concentrate.

Is everything ok at school? Are there any subjects you particularly like/dislike?

Also, do you have any artistic outlets? Do you play any instruments, or like any visual art styles? All the best,

13 year old boy in highschool - feeling suicidal

Phnx2405 — Sun, 05 Jun 2022 07:39:52 GMT

Hello Hb5598

I'm sorry to read that you are struggling this much. Very brave of you to reach out and express yourself. That alone you should be proud of.

I remember being 13. That's when 'My Dark Mistress' and I started dancing regularly. No doubt you and I have different circumstances surrounding and leading up to said depression. All I know is that my teenage years were very difficult for a variety of reasons.

I may not be able to help or offer anything that resonates with you personally but you've come to a great place. Help and assistance is everywhere and we all want you to discover your spark.

Reaching out, seeking advice and asking for help is the best first step. Try and focus on that as a positive. Also, any creative outlets, hobbies, school classes you enjoy. use them as a conduit to express yourself, heal and evolve.

I for one used writing as mine. Over the years Ive written thousands of poems. many for my eyes only.

You can do this. You are stronger than you realise.