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mmMekitty — Sun, 24 Apr 2022 02:44:41 GMT

Hello everyone,

I’ve written poems with content which some people may find distressing to read.

I write to express thoughts & feelings. Sometimes these are vivid.

I welcome any response from anyone, whether comments or with poetry of your own.

* Pacific Shore

Thinking too much. Now I'm in pain,
All those memories come up again,
Who can stop the memories, put them out?
Who hears my whimpering effort to shout?
"Go away! Get off of me!
You're not the brother I want you to be!"

I can understand, but Mommy,
I can't ignore - you weren't there for me.
Money can’t replace your protection.
No money makes up for a lack of affection.
Casting your ashes off a Pacific shore
Won't bring us together, no, no more.

[April 2022]

* Shipwreck

A shipwreck,
Tossed about at sea,
splintered boards,
Rubbish & debris,
A broken heart,
A shattered me.

[April 2022]

mmMekitty

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Sophia16 — Sun, 24 Apr 2022 03:47:59 GMT

I love these. Very beautiful and deep.

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mmMekitty — Sun, 24 Apr 2022 04:27:41 GMT

Thank you, Sophia 16 😸

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mmMekitty — Tue, 26 Apr 2022 10:42:31 GMT

I thought I'd add this poem to this thread, because the wintery weather has triggered some feelings in me, which I wrote about in January 2020.

* ICE

Stuck on ice, frozen,
Brittle, exposed skin turns blue.
Shivering ceases,
As does the heart and breath,
And thinking itself
Stops recording life in flesh
Frozen in blue ice.

…and…

Mindless:
Don’t see how the ice was sculpted;
Don’t see how the ice was carved;
Don’t see how the ice has cracked and broken;
Don’t see how the ice is scarred
Faceless.

…or…

Careful, carefully, with care,
Paint familiar features
On this faceless mask,
Showing you do so, even if not,
For those left out in the cold,
Truthfully, true, and truly,
Whoever it is, is worth tears
Of melting ice.

…and/or…

Hold the ice in your warm hand.
Watch it melt and drip away,
Trickling through your fingers,
Like any old, ordinary sand.

***

mmMekitty

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sbella02 — Wed, 27 Apr 2022 13:37:17 GMT

mmMekitty,

Your writing is incredible. The imagery with this one in particular:

Hold the ice in your warm hand.
Watch it melt and drip away,
Trickling through your fingers,
Like any old, ordinary sand.

I'm a writer myself, I'm in absolute awe.

Have you ever considered entering your work in any competitions? I can recommend a few organisations that run some, if you're interested 🙂

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mmMekitty — Wed, 27 Apr 2022 23:41:30 GMT

zhi SB,

Thank you for your comments. 😺

I have a couple times, but I guess I don't write what the judges want to read. I don't want to even vaguely, not even unconsciously, tailor my writing for what judges or readers might want. I do my writing for me, to express thoughts & feelings, as a way of processing those thoughts & feelings & the events which gave rise to them.

Sometimes I wish no one would be able to relate to anything I write, because that would mean they haven't experienced anything like what I have. I'm sad thinking that others hav, knowing how these things keep happening year after year, decade after decade, generation after generation.

then again, I am glad when people relate, & feel not so alone, feel that someone else knows what they have been through, what they feel now, so I want to share my poems for these reasons.

I began just pouring out these words I heard in my head, like taking dictation, & much didn't make much sense, nor was it directly related to things happening or how I was doing my utmost NOT to feel or think about. Then there was a time I din't write much. Then I began again & joined a writers' group, &began to work on those first thoughts & hone mypoems & storie, without losing any of the intent or meaning. Now, I think, I want to be sure my words communicate something TO someone. I'm not shouting into the wind, having my words blown back into my face, anymore.

So I welcome feedback & comments, even critical appraisal. 😺 But I don't want to change anything to please anyone or make the content gentle & light to read, when the experiences are anything but.

Warm regards,

mmMekitty

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mmMekitty — Sat, 07 May 2022 21:38:34 GMT

This poem, 'Winter' I wrote in May 2020

* Winter

Winter is coming.
I want some real, deep warmth.

Put your arms around my sore body.
Let me snuggle in tight,

But don’t dare trust me
To be unafraid to trust you.

Then, ignore that and hold me,
Until I decide, I can bear up.

What if, your holding is enough
To carry me through Winter?

***

It's a scary thought, actually.

mmMekitty

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mmMekitty — Fri, 13 May 2022 22:13:07 GMT

Just thinking of the ways we have found to cope & protect ourselves when too young & immature to know better ways. I originally wrote 'Another Pet' in 2018.

* Another Pet

I am the elephant in the room,
The trouble, you say,
Oh, the worry and concern,
The shame and the embarrassment,
The thing no one talks about,
The taboo lurks all over me.
You are the monkeys:
You shut your eyes,
Stop your ears,
And zip your lips,
For fear of sinking ships.
I am the one you lie about.
You say it was because of the flood.
To keep the truth from coming out,
You tell me, if anyone asks,
Lie and say, I was sick.
You say that school has a special class for her,
Say anything but the truth.
Because she will be away
From the old school.
Other kids won’t do what she did,
There will be no copy cats.
then everyone can relax.
We’ll go on with our lives,
we will have no problems here.
We have another secret between us,
Publicly shared; privately alone,
I will be another pet.
I am a small grey mouse,
You groom, feed and kind of love,
And train to walk a tightrope.
Trying to neither jump nor fall,
I turn secrets into my own.
I find a corner of the nest,
And think about how to endure the lies.

mmMekitty

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mmMekitty — Sat, 14 May 2022 13:12:22 GMT

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️to the 'people found this post helpful'. 😺

mmMekitty

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sbella02 — Mon, 16 May 2022 16:08:26 GMT

That's really beautiful - you have a quite a talent for poetry.

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mmMekitty — Mon, 16 May 2022 20:06:04 GMT

Thank you, again.😸

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mmMekitty — Fri, 15 Jul 2022 04:31:14 GMT

😸Link worked! So, now I am here, I will post this poem I wrote yesterday, for those who followed my link from 'Introducing mmMekitty' (& anyone who happens along).

* Polly

Pecking crackers,

Pretty Polly, perches,

Prattling, parroting curses,

The perfect panacea:

Pollyanna, in a cage.

mmMekitty

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sbella02 — Fri, 15 Jul 2022 05:05:06 GMT

Beautiful, mmMekitty. I love the alliteration.

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demonblaster — Fri, 15 Jul 2022 14:42:33 GMT

Well done kitty the link worked. Boomer!

This is a link to redesigning the forums for all the help discussions.

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/re-designing-and-upgrading-the/tips-for-the-new-forum/td-p/539059

Th8s time I'm going to beddy byes.

Nigh nite darl 🤗 good restful dreams ☺

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mmMekitty — Fri, 22 Jul 2022 13:52:12 GMT

Thanks DB. 😺

I've got a great title for a movie, book, musical comedy, "The 3 Chocolatiers" - what d'ya reckon? So long as you get souvenirs, I think it's gotta be a winner franchise.

Or it's too late for sensible thinking?

💖💖💖

mmMekitty

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CaramelCrisp — Sun, 24 Jul 2022 05:38:30 GMT

Hi mmMekitty,

just found your thread and wanted to say your writing is beautiful. I have actually recently started trying to express my own feelings in creative writing, sometimes poems sometimes other stuff, and I have found that a bit helpful. I hope these poems are something helpful or good for you too

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mmMekitty — Sun, 24 Jul 2022 07:22:15 GMT

Hello CaramelCrisp 😺,

Writing has been the most useful way for me to express my feelings, to work through thought & get them into some sort of manageable order.

The most important thing to do is to give yourself permission to say anything, in whatever way you want to say it, no restrictions.

If you think what you are writing is good, you can tidy up later.

I wish you all the best with your writing, & would be happy to talk more.

Thank you for saying my writing is beautiful. I usually don't think it is. With the poetry I am usually wanting to bring ideas into focus, & use a different way of saying things that other writing I find does not do, angles & perspectives, I guess.

💖💖💖

mmMekitty

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mmMekitty — Sun, 21 Aug 2022 12:39:09 GMT

(Letting thoughts run the course. Maybe I can work on this... but here I will leave it unedited).

* Alone

I think, I am not alone.

No matter how anyone crunches the numbers,

That's one thing undeniable,

Until, writing here, a Reply to myself,

I am alone.

alone, in my head,

I hear their voices,

Read their words,

Count the numbers too, if I could,

Over all the years,

Every single time,

All of us, alone.

Some of us deny, to survive.

Some scream loud & long, to be heard;

Some cry into pillows at night, in fear & pain;

Some escape by any means, unable to cope -

All alone.

I am just me, alone,

Someone who wants to be there,

Someone who won't turn away,

Even though I don't know what to do or say,

Someone who knows you are alone,

But doesn't want you to feel that way.

Then I take a different view

& I don't want it to be you,

Not you too.

I'd rather be the only one

Here on my own, alone.

mmMekitty August 21 2022

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redroses — Sun, 21 Aug 2022 12:50:12 GMT

just found this thread, mmMekitty. your writing is wonderful & deep. i used to write aswell, rhyming poetry really, like what you did. but i haven't written in years. i guess i lost interest & couldn't think of things. i have my own writing on my ipad, some i didn't finish. but it's probably too dark to post on these forums.

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sbella02 — Sun, 21 Aug 2022 14:06:40 GMT

I like this one, mmMekitty. "Some of us deny, to survive" resonates particularly well, as well as the line directly after, "some scream loud & long, to be heard".

Your writing has a certain universality to it that I like. Keen to hear more, if you have more to share.

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