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    <title>topic PTSD shattered memory's and getting some of them back in PTSD and trauma</title>
    <link>https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/ptsd-shattered-memory-s-and-getting-some-of-them-back/m-p/609463#M24176</link>
    <description>&lt;P&gt;Hi all&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I feel very alone as I haven't found anyone that has had a trauma where they have lost memories and had others shattered into pieces that could not be understood.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I knew something was wrong 50 years ago when lots of people (counsellors) came into the classroom and talked about a boy that had drowned, I didn't know who he was and thought I should have.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;Then the boy next to me leaned over and told me "he thought he was a pair of shorts hanging on the side of the pool " I immediately had a picture in my head of this, it has never left me&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I have shards of memories that I could never put together or understand these are sharp and vivid.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;Being asked to go to a friend's place&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;Talking about a P76 Leland car with him while walking to his place&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;One of churning water this made no sense to me until about 5 years ago&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;And the one of walking home but not knowing where I had come from&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I have thought about these everyday of my life and I could not understanding them.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;About 6 to 7 years ago I decided I was going to work them out.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;It led me to have a really bad brake down&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I found help with a Psychologist and a stint in SPP&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I got more memories back and on the memories and family evidence I sort of believe I was there.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;My question is are there others like me&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;And how do you cope with the thoughts around are the recent memories real, I'm at 98 to 99 percent real, but that 1 or 2 percent just f--ks with me&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;</description>
    <pubDate>Wed, 16 Apr 2025 05:30:04 GMT</pubDate>
    <dc:creator>1234</dc:creator>
    <dc:date>2025-04-16T05:30:04Z</dc:date>
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      <title>PTSD shattered memory's and getting some of them back</title>
      <link>https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/ptsd-shattered-memory-s-and-getting-some-of-them-back/m-p/609463#M24176</link>
      <description>&lt;P&gt;Hi all&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I feel very alone as I haven't found anyone that has had a trauma where they have lost memories and had others shattered into pieces that could not be understood.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I knew something was wrong 50 years ago when lots of people (counsellors) came into the classroom and talked about a boy that had drowned, I didn't know who he was and thought I should have.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;Then the boy next to me leaned over and told me "he thought he was a pair of shorts hanging on the side of the pool " I immediately had a picture in my head of this, it has never left me&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I have shards of memories that I could never put together or understand these are sharp and vivid.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;Being asked to go to a friend's place&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;Talking about a P76 Leland car with him while walking to his place&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;One of churning water this made no sense to me until about 5 years ago&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;And the one of walking home but not knowing where I had come from&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I have thought about these everyday of my life and I could not understanding them.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;About 6 to 7 years ago I decided I was going to work them out.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;It led me to have a really bad brake down&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I found help with a Psychologist and a stint in SPP&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I got more memories back and on the memories and family evidence I sort of believe I was there.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;My question is are there others like me&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;And how do you cope with the thoughts around are the recent memories real, I'm at 98 to 99 percent real, but that 1 or 2 percent just f--ks with me&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;</description>
      <pubDate>Wed, 16 Apr 2025 05:30:04 GMT</pubDate>
      <guid>https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/ptsd-shattered-memory-s-and-getting-some-of-them-back/m-p/609463#M24176</guid>
      <dc:creator>1234</dc:creator>
      <dc:date>2025-04-16T05:30:04Z</dc:date>
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      <title>Re: PTSD shattered memory's and getting some of them back</title>
      <link>https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/ptsd-shattered-memory-s-and-getting-some-of-them-back/m-p/609499#M24179</link>
      <description>&lt;P&gt;1234,&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;Thank you so much for reaching out, and welcome to the forums. I can read your pain in your post. I'm sorry to hear that this has been a long-standing struggle for you. How frustrating it must be to live with the difficulty of having shattered memories.&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&lt;STRONG&gt;Broken, repressed&lt;/STRONG&gt;, or &lt;STRONG&gt;misremembered&lt;/STRONG&gt; &lt;STRONG&gt;memories&lt;/STRONG&gt; are quite &lt;STRONG&gt;common&lt;/STRONG&gt; for people with PSTD. You're not alone. From my understanding, when something traumatic happens, our brain will sometimes try to trick us into &lt;STRONG&gt;forgetting or losing&lt;/STRONG&gt; that particular memory to &lt;STRONG&gt;protect us&lt;/STRONG&gt; from reliving that horrible event. This can start to trickle down to our memories &lt;STRONG&gt;in general&lt;/STRONG&gt;, which can be really frustrating if we're trying to remember important details or events.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;It may be worth going up to that "&lt;STRONG&gt;search&lt;/STRONG&gt;" bar at the top of the page (next to notifications) and having a look at other similar threads from people with &lt;STRONG&gt;similar experiences&lt;/STRONG&gt;. "&lt;STRONG&gt;PTSD&lt;/STRONG&gt;", "&lt;STRONG&gt;childhood trauma&lt;/STRONG&gt;", or "&lt;STRONG&gt;broken memories&lt;/STRONG&gt;" may be some good terms to start with. Hopefully you can find some comfort in reading the experiences of people who feel similarly.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;There are many ways to ensure that you can keep certain memories in tact. &lt;STRONG&gt;Journaling&lt;/STRONG&gt; about events that stand out to you, or experiences that you want to try and remember, or even just monotonous happenings in your day, then reading back your journal entries - this can help to jog your memory. Keeping &lt;STRONG&gt;pictures&lt;/STRONG&gt; as &lt;STRONG&gt;records&lt;/STRONG&gt; of certain events or experiences can also help. You can hang them on your wall, or keep them by your bed, something like that.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;I hope this helps, and I hope that you know that you're not alone in feeling like this. We're also here to chat some more with you if you'd like.&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/P&gt;&lt;P&gt;Take care, SB&lt;/P&gt;</description>
      <pubDate>Wed, 16 Apr 2025 15:02:34 GMT</pubDate>
      <guid>https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/ptsd-shattered-memory-s-and-getting-some-of-them-back/m-p/609499#M24179</guid>
      <dc:creator>sbella02</dc:creator>
      <dc:date>2025-04-16T15:02:34Z</dc:date>
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