Less than 680 more than 599

Knuckleberry_Poe — Thu, 08 Apr 2021 11:55:17 GMT

Over the last few weeks I've been struggling. I've had moderately ok to even maybe good, and I've had really bad days.
Then last fortnight as I sat in my therapists office I told her I'd calculated that from the age of 11 to 16 the school teacher had abused me around twice a week over a 22 week period over four years. Then in yr 11:- 2 to 4 times a week over a 38 to 40 week period.
And that at college it was on a daily basis 5 days a week over a 40 week period.
Plus 2 other seperate times outside of school and then at 20 being raped.

I just couldn't and still can't wrap my head around that number. I'm not a genius at Maths in fact it was the subject I struggled with the most. So I asked my therapist was I over calculating.
Each person was a different occassion and each person abused me multiple times. So was each day it happened a singular attack or were they counted as a whole.
Over 599 times but less than 670 was the number we arrived at. Even being cautious I couldn't go lower than 500.
I told her my life is a mess. And if I told people I knew what had happened and how many times they'd think I was crazy.

And the nightmares are getting worse.

Less than 680 more than 599

Knuckleberry_Poe — Thu, 08 Apr 2021 12:16:35 GMT

TRIGGER WARNING

I need to clarify a typo mistake I made. At college it was a different school in a different state and it was a group of boys.
Over 10 years it was 13 males and 1 female. The woodwork teacher at school over five years. From 11-16
At college a group of 10 boys at age 16-17
The girl- my childhood friend- at age 13 and 15 goading her first boyfriend to Sexually assault me, then her first husband - boyfriend at the time- helped him rape me.
It's a bit confusing and I'm very ashamed of the number of times it happened.

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Less than 680 more than 599

Less than 680 more than 599