https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/intrusive-thoughts-please-how-can-i-control-them/m-p/489532#M16842 <P>hello erinb! </P> <P>thank you for sharing your side. that’s how i’m feeling , always wondering what is going on inside my brain. i appreciate your kind words and support </P> <P><span class="lia-unicode-emoji" title=":slightly_smiling_face:">🙂</span> </P> Wed, 18 Mar 2020 21:59:30 GMT pizza123 2020-03-18T21:59:30Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/intrusive-thoughts-please-how-can-i-control-them/m-p/489530#M16840 <P>Hi everyone, </P> <P>I am really hoping someone can offer me some support/advice or share personal experiences on Intrusive Thoughts and anxiety. I will give you some background information. </P> <P>I am a 17 year old girl. </P> <P>I am suffering from PTSD from a previous surgery and ongoing feelings of un wellness with no medical reason for. I am recently having a lot of panic attacks , particularly at night time. I constantly feel like I am battling a mean demon version of myself in my head. I am not having self harm thoughts instead quite the opposite. I have a severe fear of death that has come from anxiety and my precious experiences of trauma. I often have images of a version of myself like a twin who is mean and out to hurt me and make me feel scared and fearful. I cannot get those thoughts out of my head such as this frightening version of myself, images of death, hospitals etc. I am really trying to find ways to cope but instead keep suffering with panic and anxiety attacks quite severely I become so scared </P> <P>I am also suffering with disassociated feelings. A feeling like i am not alive and am not living in my body instead watching the world around me. I am responsive however and I get on with things. I cannot seem to get this feeling to go away, If anyone has any tips on treating disassociation please share. </P> <P>I have come to the online forum on the lookout for some advice , people to share their experiences on how they cope or how they are dealing with things. I am hoping to find people to reassure me I am not alone and we are in this together. </P> <P>I look forward to hearing from everyone. </P> Wed, 18 Mar 2020 10:58:30 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/intrusive-thoughts-please-how-can-i-control-them/m-p/489530#M16840 pizza123 2020-03-18T10:58:30Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/intrusive-thoughts-please-how-can-i-control-them/m-p/489531#M16841 <P>Hi pizza123,</P> <P>You're definitely not alone and we are here to support you. </P> <P>After a few hospital visits I had in 2016 I had extremely vivid dreams about death and dystopian hospitals. They didn't scare me so much as they just made me think "What the hell is wrong with my brain?" But I can definitely relate to the confusing and concerning feelings. I'm sorry that these feelings and visions are so intense for you.</P> Wed, 18 Mar 2020 13:49:28 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/intrusive-thoughts-please-how-can-i-control-them/m-p/489531#M16841 ErinB 2020-03-18T13:49:28Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/intrusive-thoughts-please-how-can-i-control-them/m-p/489532#M16842 <P>hello erinb! </P> <P>thank you for sharing your side. that’s how i’m feeling , always wondering what is going on inside my brain. i appreciate your kind words and support </P> <P><span class="lia-unicode-emoji" title=":slightly_smiling_face:">🙂</span> </P> Wed, 18 Mar 2020 21:59:30 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/intrusive-thoughts-please-how-can-i-control-them/m-p/489532#M16842 pizza123 2020-03-18T21:59:30Z