https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/laying-it-all-out/m-p/477036#M16164 <P>Hey people some time has passed since i recently posted her on this forum. things have changed as i have learned about things im going through</P> <P>My mother and step father are violent narcissists and due to that i am experiencing PTSD.. due to my symptoms</P> <P>i have come out to some good online friends and my real life system that i am Bi-Gender switch from Male to Female and backwards.</P> <P>due to the fact i require my family for help with my illnesses.. and due to there constant abuse i have learned helplessness.. meaning i cannot leave until i hit a breaking point and that it ties in with trauma bonding.</P> <P>my health is getting worse but i am seeing a physiotherapist for my Narrowing of the spine and Body Facet Joint Arthritus [Hands, Feet, Knees, Back]</P> <P>i have generalized anxiety disorder [managing well without meds] and Clinical Depression which if i get fully looked into i fear may be bi-polar.</P> <P>i am currently battling my health being immune compromised has its issues, Serious Chronic Fatigue, vital organs under attack + more</P> <P>my next step is to get the courage to get over my fear of being forever institutionalized and seeing a mental therapist. </P> <P> </P> <P>i am ... somewhat happy.. and happy to answer anyquestions .. i feel even though i get depressed.. sometimes dysphoric when my mental gender is female i am doing good and slowly enjoying life again.. </P> <P>unfortunately i have been slammed with a DSP Esat as i have had issues getting work in two years.. people love me they do a work trial with me for 4 weeks under the false hope of employment then BAM! sorry just no money to hire you atm, keep in touch bye! rinse and repeat..</P> <P> </P> <P>anyway.. <span class="lia-unicode-emoji" title=":slightly_smiling_face:">🙂</span> cheerio</P> Fri, 19 Jul 2019 06:09:39 GMT HollowMan84 2019-07-19T06:09:39Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/laying-it-all-out/m-p/477036#M16164 <P>Hey people some time has passed since i recently posted her on this forum. things have changed as i have learned about things im going through</P> <P>My mother and step father are violent narcissists and due to that i am experiencing PTSD.. due to my symptoms</P> <P>i have come out to some good online friends and my real life system that i am Bi-Gender switch from Male to Female and backwards.</P> <P>due to the fact i require my family for help with my illnesses.. and due to there constant abuse i have learned helplessness.. meaning i cannot leave until i hit a breaking point and that it ties in with trauma bonding.</P> <P>my health is getting worse but i am seeing a physiotherapist for my Narrowing of the spine and Body Facet Joint Arthritus [Hands, Feet, Knees, Back]</P> <P>i have generalized anxiety disorder [managing well without meds] and Clinical Depression which if i get fully looked into i fear may be bi-polar.</P> <P>i am currently battling my health being immune compromised has its issues, Serious Chronic Fatigue, vital organs under attack + more</P> <P>my next step is to get the courage to get over my fear of being forever institutionalized and seeing a mental therapist. </P> <P> </P> <P>i am ... somewhat happy.. and happy to answer anyquestions .. i feel even though i get depressed.. sometimes dysphoric when my mental gender is female i am doing good and slowly enjoying life again.. </P> <P>unfortunately i have been slammed with a DSP Esat as i have had issues getting work in two years.. people love me they do a work trial with me for 4 weeks under the false hope of employment then BAM! sorry just no money to hire you atm, keep in touch bye! rinse and repeat..</P> <P> </P> <P>anyway.. <span class="lia-unicode-emoji" title=":slightly_smiling_face:">🙂</span> cheerio</P> Fri, 19 Jul 2019 06:09:39 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/laying-it-all-out/m-p/477036#M16164 HollowMan84 2019-07-19T06:09:39Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/laying-it-all-out/m-p/477037#M16165 <P>since i recently posted here on this forum*</P> <P>my real life sister*</P> <P> </P> Fri, 19 Jul 2019 06:18:29 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/laying-it-all-out/m-p/477037#M16165 HollowMan84 2019-07-19T06:18:29Z