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My Darling Dog Will Be Euthenized Soon

Guest_1573 — Fri, 07 Jan 2022 01:14:54 GMT

I have a dear dog whom I rescued from a horrible place in May 2020. She is now 9 years old. She is the light and love of my life. Two weeks ago she seemed to be unbalanced and a long story short I have taken her to the vet 4 times since then. She has had numerous tests and ultrasounds and the vet is not giving me any answers.

In the last two days she has been lying in the bathroom which she never does. She has been having tremors and crying in her sleep. Although the vet doesn't know what is wrong they have put her on strong painkillers. When she has these she doesn't show pain but sleeps.

She is not drinking water and is very out of sorts. I feel it is time to put her out of this misery. The vet wants to do an MRI at a cost of $5000.00. I have spent $1600 at the vet in the last 9 days.

I am besides myself as I feel she has had a stroke or has a brain tumour yet the vet keeps stringing me along. At the end of the day I truly believe she is showing all the signs of a poor animal at the end of her life.

I am so torn. I barely sleep, I put her on my bed at night and she is often panting, crying in her sleep or having tremors. I am so upset and anxious and I guess I just want someone to make that decision for me. Which I know is not going to happen.

I rang my local vet and told them what has been going on (they were not aware as I had to take dear doggy to emergency vet throughout all of this). They were very kind and said to me that if I truly feel it is time to take here there anytime and they will look after her....

I am so scared that if I do this it might be too early? Yet deep down I know something very wrong is going on with her....I am falling apart. I love her so much. She had a terrible life until I rescued her. I hate life. It is so terrible and unfair.

I have been crying almost constantly daily. Please someone help. Thankyou.

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Matchy69 — Fri, 07 Jan 2022 01:32:05 GMT

Hi Panicmerchant,I am so sorry about your beloved dog isn't really well and not getting an answer what is really wrong makes it so hard to know what to do.It can be very expensive taking it to the vet and trying to get answers.I feel your pain and the tough decision you have to make.I had my beloved rescue dog euthenized a few years ago.It had a diagnoses of terminal cancer and she was in a lot of pain.A long discussion with the vet who I went to school with and my mother I made that decision so she wouldn't be in pain anymore.I cried a lot and still do when I think of this decision I had to make.Afterwards I went and got another rescue dog and it was hard at first to except a new dog but I came to love her much as my other one.

It is ok to cry for your beloved dog and make the best decision for your dog how hard it may be.

Take care,

Mark.

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Guest_7403 — Fri, 07 Jan 2022 01:34:44 GMT

Don't rush your decision, give her time to bounce back.

Theyre quite resilient fur babies. Aslong as she's not in any pain.

Put some water in her food bowl to help keep the fluids up, give her fatty snacks to keep the calories up.

Give her time aslong as she's not in pain give her every opportunity to come back.

Take care

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Guest_1573 — Fri, 07 Jan 2022 02:04:45 GMT

Hi Mark

Thankyou for your reply. I am so sorry you too know how awful it is. Dogs are my one passion in life. I am not good at anyone or anything else!

I am feeling guilt over either decision . If I do 'it' is it too soon? If I don't; is she suffering more?? How I wish someone would tell me!!! To add to all of this my total disillusionment with pretty much everyone and everything has blown out of scale. I feel very unsafe. To go to the vet so many times and not get any answers....it is quite terrifying to me. It triggers my PTSD and anxiety. I really believe that we cannot put any faith in vets or doctors for that matter (I have suffered major health anxiety over the last few years..this brings all of that horror back into focus as well).

Then when I truly think sweet doggy is at her end she rallies...like she is doing now. She has just had some sardines and a drink of water; wandering around wagging her tail... it is truly devastating and heartbreaking because I know within an hour or so she will fall to pieces again.

Thanks so much for your support.

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Matchy69 — Fri, 07 Jan 2022 03:10:38 GMT

I understand about doctor's not getting answers for my own health and both my parents who are no longer with me.Its good your dog has rallied a bit and have some enjoyment from that.Their moments you need to really enjoy and treasure.It does make it hard when you know she will be suffering again.It is such a heart breaking decision you have to make.You have to weigh up in your heart what will the kindest thing to do for your best friend.Its never an easy decision and I real feel the emotional pain you are going through.

Tske care,

Mark.

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Guest_1573 — Fri, 07 Jan 2022 03:39:10 GMT

Dear Mark

Tragedies aside...it is so heartwarming to 'talk' to someone who loves them as much as I. I guess I will just keep her safe, warm and loved....I just hope I will know when the right time is. As she is up and down...it is crucifying. Big hugs to you and your sweet rescue dog. xxxx

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Guest_1573 — Fri, 07 Jan 2022 03:41:43 GMT

xxx I am drowning in sorrow...indecision...grief. To be honest I wish I could go with her. But I can't as I have a son to look after. I am strong and will be alright. As alright as anyone can be I guess.

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Matchy69 — Fri, 07 Jan 2022 03:49:42 GMT

I hope talking about it has helped you and know you are not alone in what you are going through with your beloved dog.Its nice that you found some comfort in talking about it.

Take care,

Mark.

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Guest_1573 — Sat, 08 Jan 2022 02:03:27 GMT

Many thanks to you all for your kind words and support.

Darling girl has perked up again!!! It is very good to see however very draining! So at this point she is still here and happy! So glad...I love her so. I am praying for a miracle . Perhaps she can overcome whatever this is?

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Matchy69 — Sat, 08 Jan 2022 02:47:07 GMT

I hoping and for your dog that she can overcome what she has.It makes it so hard for you when you can't get a diagnoses and know what is the best treatment for her and the future would hold for her.Just love her and look after her the best you can.

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Guest_1573 — Sat, 08 Jan 2022 03:48:36 GMT

xx Yes it is beyond the pale. She is quite comfy and has been moving around happily and smooching around like she used to do! I know I shouldn't get too optimistic but it is such a relief. I know the day will come..but when?? Today she had a 20 minute walk; ate lots of breakfast; drank lots of water. Went to the toilet (!) fine. No evidence of diarrhoea; blood in urine or other.

Having people like you has helped so much. Whatever happens it is a great support knowing I have you . Thank so much xxx

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Matchy69 — Sat, 08 Jan 2022 07:51:49 GMT

That's great you managed to take her for a walk and she is eating.I think you are a really caring pet owner and I know how much she means to you.I am here if you need to talk.

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blondguy — Sat, 08 Jan 2022 14:24:45 GMT

Hello PM....(and a wave to Mark/Matchy)

Im a latecomer on your thread its good to see your 'woofer' is feeling better..I am a huge fan of dogs as you are

If I have missed it...Im sorry...what breed of dog do you have?

my kindest

Paul

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geoff — Sat, 08 Jan 2022 16:23:02 GMT

Hello Panicmerchant, my heart breaks for you because when our puppy shows signs of not wanting to do anything it does really concern us because they too are my passion and couldn't live without having one.

I've had several I had to make a decision on and there wasn't anyone, except my wife who understood because having a puppy who slept on our bed, came with us everywhere was part of our family.

The last dog was one I had by myself for 18 years and this tore my heart out when her time had come, and know exactly how you are feeling.

Let's hope she continues to improve for your enjoyment.

My best wishes.

Geoff.

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Guest_1573 — Sat, 08 Jan 2022 22:51:22 GMT

Dear Paul

She is a labrador cross staffy! Vet calls her a 'slabrador'! 🙂

Dogs are wonderful aren't they. I simply adore them!

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Guest_1573 — Sat, 08 Jan 2022 22:52:19 GMT

Dear Matchy

Thanx She had a good walk today! I am feeling she may be getting better! I hope and pray this is the case....I love her so

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Guest_1573 — Sat, 08 Jan 2022 22:53:19 GMT

Dear Geoff

So sorry you too know what it is like 😞

They are such beloved souls.

Thanx so much. She is slightly better again today..I am so hesitantly hopeful she may be getting over whatever it was??

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geoff — Mon, 10 Jan 2022 15:45:39 GMT

Hello Panicmerchant, we all hope so, just be careful of what may be thrown over the fence and take all the precautions necessary.

Geoff.

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Guest_1573 — Wed, 12 Jan 2022 01:59:14 GMT

Hi Geoff

She is not good today. Spent all night panting and whining....her strong painkillers did nothing to help 😞 I am taking her back to vet first thing tomorrow I think I have to be brave and face the fact that she is seriously ill and without spending thousands to find out what it is (have already spent $1600 with no answers) ; she is failing again.

I am totally torn and heartbroken as she rallies; she eats and wags her tail etc. Yet she is also lying on the cold floor; does not want to lie in her nice bed. The panting and whining is awful; the painkillers seem to be not working. She also yelps in fright or pain if one accidentally brushes past her dear head :(.

I now think tomorrow will be the day . I am kidding myself. She is not getting better.

I hate life.

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Guest_1573 — Wed, 12 Jan 2022 02:03:41 GMT

Dear Matchy

I am besides myself. She had a terrible night; panting and whining.....I kept stroking her and trying to get her to go to sleep. Her painkillers were not working...yet she got up today and ate breakfast and wanted to go for a walk? On walk she fell a few times and she actually turned back to come home 😞

She is now lying on cold floor; won't lie on her nice bed. I think the time has come. She has a vet appt at 8.30 am. At the end of the day; she can rally now and again but she is not right at all. I cannot afford another $5000 for an MRI that may not even diagnose anything. Her quality of life is rubbish and so is mine. I barely sleep and when she is so upset and unsettled like last night I freak.

How I wish the darling soul would pass away in her sleep. But that won't happen. I know how stoic dogs are. I have to make this heartwrenching decision.

I hope she knows I am doing it for her. 😞