https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/admission/m-p/421631#M11260 <P>I think I have struggled with alchohol for a long time but hadn't been willing/able to admit to it out loud. I have recently lost my mum, just 6 months ago. I have noticed i'm reaching for the Bottle in ways I have NEVER before. It's no longer social which scares me. I have a loving supportive husband, 2 beautiful daughters who I adore.</P> <P>I guess I just want to be accountable really. I don't want my girls to see their mum as a drunk, especially as I work in Fitness and THIS is what I want them to see not the drink...</P> <P> </P> Sun, 19 Aug 2018 00:06:03 GMT Leish53 2018-08-19T00:06:03Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/admission/m-p/421631#M11260 <P>I think I have struggled with alchohol for a long time but hadn't been willing/able to admit to it out loud. I have recently lost my mum, just 6 months ago. I have noticed i'm reaching for the Bottle in ways I have NEVER before. It's no longer social which scares me. I have a loving supportive husband, 2 beautiful daughters who I adore.</P> <P>I guess I just want to be accountable really. I don't want my girls to see their mum as a drunk, especially as I work in Fitness and THIS is what I want them to see not the drink...</P> <P> </P> Sun, 19 Aug 2018 00:06:03 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/admission/m-p/421631#M11260 Leish53 2018-08-19T00:06:03Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/admission/m-p/421632#M11261 <P>Hi Leigh,</P> <P>I am deeply sorry for the loss of your mum. That is an enormous loss...I’m so sorry...</P> <P>I think we turn to the bottle when we feel overwhelmed and aren’t really sure how else to cope. I feel it gives us that temporary relief where the pain subsides just a little...except sadly the pain inevitable returns...so we reach for it again. I can relate as I also have an unhealthy love of alcohol...it can be a vicious cycle....</P> <P>I really admire your determination to be a good role model to your daughters. Your husband also sounds like an absolute blessing...</P> <P>I‘m thinking maybe a good first step is to make an appointment with your GP about your drinking and see what advice referrals s/he has for you. I hope you don’t mind this gentle suggestion...perhaps something you might like to consider...</P> <P>Alternatively, maybe if you want more anonymity for now, you could consider giving a helpline a call for advice, such as the beyondblue helpline...</P> <P>Plus you’re always most welcome to talk to us here. There’s no pressure but the option to share and discuss is always here...</P> <P>Kindness and warmth,</P> <P>Pepper</P> Tue, 21 Aug 2018 00:10:44 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/ptsd-and-trauma/admission/m-p/421632#M11261 Peppermintbach 2018-08-21T00:10:44Z