topic Really struggling today in Depression

Really struggling today

fifi — Wed, 18 Jun 2014 02:07:48 GMT

having such a horrible day today 😞 and here i was thinking that i was having more good than bad 😛 well this week has proved me wrong . I am in a major downward spiral sitting here at my work desk finding it hard not to burst into tears and the anxiety attack that is going with it has my stomach in knots. my body is aching all over and i am finding harder to function as the hours roll on over the last few days i have had a heap of veins explode and my hands are now all bruised and extremely sore not helping at all . the stupid irrational thoughts are back and i find myself over analyzing everything i have types this post over 5 times 😞 just wish everything would just settle down i really dont like where my head is heading praying for a better day 😞

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JessF — Wed, 18 Jun 2014 05:22:33 GMT

It's awful when you get overwhelmed at work and can't talk to anyone fifi, I'm sorry to hear you're having such a terrible day. What sort of work do you do, what is the office environment like?

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fifi — Wed, 18 Jun 2014 08:16:35 GMT

Hi Jess F ,

Thank you for your reply , As for my job i am an administration officer at farm in my local area i am the only office worker so spend most of my time all alone 😕 . I usually try to study (i am a photographer ) but i just couldn't today so much is happening so much has happened i am really really not coping atm well today anyway 😕 sorry i know i am being a bit of a dq (drama queen ) i just cant deal with all the stuff that's going through my head right now !! Its starting to make me think i am loosing my mind obviously i am just simply having a bad day but as any fellow sufferer the bad days are the longest 😞 was hoping to stay positive as i have a pretty important and possibly life changing experience coming up its all seeming a little impossible right now

Thank you for taking time out of your day to reply

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Neil_1 — Thu, 19 Jun 2014 01:14:19 GMT

Hey there lovely lady

Tis Thursday today – yesterday was a horrible day for you. I’m hoping so much that today is better. Having veins explode sounds very serious to me – are you familiar with this? Ie: has it happened before? Is it something that should be looked at by a GP?

Fifi, you know we’re here for you – ‘shout out’ to us whenever you need too.

Hope to hear from you soon

Neil

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fifi — Thu, 19 Jun 2014 02:11:40 GMT

Hi Neil ,

Thanks buddy 🙂 today is well meh not as bad as yesterday but still meh 😛 As for my veins well i did go to the doctor and he simply said i am not worried about it and to just keep and eye on it ! Obviously i was really unhappy with such a pathetic diagnosis and due to the fact that the bruising was spreading up my fore arm and my hands were so sore i couldn't drive or type for to long any way i went to the chemist and she said almost the same thing but did take the time to explain and work out why it was happening . Basically long story short is i was given aspirin to control the symptoms of my Endrometriosis and that with a combination of my anti depressant has caused my blood to thin and obviously my veins explode so i just have to grin and bare it at the moment and see what happens . still very worrying, painful as my hands are my job but we will see what happens. And thanks mate i really love this group and its great that you guys are always there for a chat 🙂 . To be honest i just wish that i wasn't so tired all the time i am sleeping but i wake up and feel like i haven't slept at all and obviously with all that's going on i am stressed as am really hoping and praying that all just settles down a little so i can think or least catch up . Oh i just realized i owe you an apology Neil my reply in the last post for some reason or another didn't show up not to sure why as it was well withing the guide lines of the site 😕 any way to answer the question that you asked my pups are staffy pups 🙂 we have 3 white with patches 3 blue and 2 little black and white ones right now they are awesome lol but i am not looking forward to having 8 part grown pups destroying my house and yard hahahah. We had recently as in last Friday adopted another puppy she has problems and needs a little bit of special care and my friend could not keep her as she is going through chemo to try and fix her brain tumor so we have her as well . Talk about animal farm lol 3 cats 4 dogs and 8 puppies i well and truly have my work cut out for me .

Thanks heaps for taking the time to reply

Fi 🙂

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--Danny-- — Thu, 19 Jun 2014 09:01:17 GMT

Hey fifi, sounds like you're in struggle city at the moment...hopefully things pick up for ya soon!! :-):-)

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fifi — Thu, 19 Jun 2014 12:29:56 GMT

Thanks danny hears hoping hey

Thanks 😄

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Neil_1 — Fri, 20 Jun 2014 07:42:34 GMT

Hi Fifi

Another case of "useless" advice or support from people who get paid gazillions and are so called professionals - damn that annoys me. Sorry, little rant. But it's not fair when someone goes to them to ask what's wrong and they palm you off.

I know what you mean with regard to the sleepiness of a day - I don't know why and my doc/psyche can't put a finger on it either (well, not that they tried - you know, to put a finger on it - considering I don't even know what "it" is - whoops, sorry, just being a little silly on a Friday evening). But yeah, I get to work and I struggle till around midday with heavy eyes and just so damn tired, and yet I think I sleep ok.

Wowee, you've got quite the animal farm - and you'll be needing to wear ankle high boots in the coming weeks, when the little ones start their little bitey session at anything that moves.

Just for the record, we live in suburbia and have: one dog (of kelpie size), 2 gorgeous bunnies (of bunny size), 4 awesome chooks (the girls as they're known around the house), 2 budgies and 4 fish. 🙂

Cheers

Neil

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--Danny-- — Fri, 20 Jun 2014 12:08:53 GMT

How u coping tonight fifi?

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vip — Fri, 20 Jun 2014 12:44:13 GMT

Hi Fifi whats wrong with drama queens im one myself and you don't over analize anything that is part of having depression . I have some nasty injuries and the antidepressant I took caused some memory loss and falls to the ground. I havnt fell this year but I do get off balance and well the memory its getting there its not great but I have a diary im writing everything in because I have missed an appointment and ended paying $150 for it. Wow you must be so patient with animals I must admit im not an animal lover at all and dogs they petrify me its the same as small babies im not clucky towards them at all but I love children around 5 onwards . Hang in there your not alone I also get those symptoms your experiencing every now and then too its tough but we are all here for you and when your feeling a little better you will be able to help us out too take care

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fifi — Mon, 23 Jun 2014 01:21:54 GMT

H Danny I am doing ok thanks just one foot after the other one day at a time 🙂

Thanks fifi

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Neil_1 — Mon, 23 Jun 2014 02:45:26 GMT

Dear fifi

Hey, that was a song from, gee, the 80’s I think – and was performed by John Paul Young (JPY) – Soldier of Fortune.

“One foot in front of the other babe,
One baby step, I I I,
Feel the soldier of fortune
Watching inside of me”

I think that’s how it went, yeah – good aussie song from 1983 - Soldier of Fortune.

Neil

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--Danny-- — Mon, 23 Jun 2014 10:42:33 GMT

Good to hear mate:) Little bit by little bit...u will get there!! Keep fighting, keep throwing punches & don't give up....once u beat depression..u will be a stronger person!! There will be some hard knocks now & then, but if u keep fighting & moving forward & don't give up, u will win this fight!! U gotta put on the boxing gloves on & fight!! Depression can't be fixed by laying on your back & surrendering to it...u gotta be willing to fight hard!! You can do it mate, I believe in you!! Your a winner...& winners don't quit!!

Fight hard,

Danny

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fifi — Tue, 24 Jun 2014 00:13:29 GMT

thanks Danny xx

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fifi — Tue, 24 Jun 2014 00:28:13 GMT

Hi Vip 🙂 thankyou for your reply 🙂

my hands have settled down thankfully 🙂 as a photographer and admin officer i was really scared there for a while 🙂 and i guess drama queens are not so bad after all 😄 and as for my animals in so many ways they lighten my life due to fertility issues we do not have children .I was born a nurture and found that animals were a great help all of my pets are best friends strange i know but they all love each other

thank you again xx

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fifi — Tue, 24 Jun 2014 00:33:35 GMT

thanks neil 🙂 🙂 hope you are doing well mate 😄

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--Danny-- — Tue, 24 Jun 2014 11:07:28 GMT

Hi fifi, how was you're day today?

Danny

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fifi — Wed, 25 Jun 2014 11:07:00 GMT

Hi Danny ,

Thanks for asking but for now i am afraid a no comment is all i can muster up totally and utterly emotionally drained .

Hope you have had a great day buddy 🙂

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--Danny-- — Wed, 25 Jun 2014 12:04:19 GMT

Hey Fifi, one of them days ey? I hope u get a good nights sleep & feel better tmrw! It's amazing how a good night sleep makes u feel...try your best to chill out & relax!! Tomorrow is a new day...get the ball rolling tmrw...small baby steps...I got your back mate!

Danny

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fifi — Wed, 25 Jun 2014 22:40:12 GMT

Cheers man 🙂 with traveling to brissy and back only to get home be there for an hour then have to go back out in the freezing cold with 8 pups and 1 mummy dog to travel another hour there and back to take one of the pups to the vet and not getting home until after midnight and having to wake up at 4 i am absolutely destroyed hahahahah mentally i feel ok today just so damm tired 😛 bring on the weekend mumma needs a sleep !!!! lol . Thanks again 🙂