topic Re: Lost in Life in Depression

Lost in Life

Ollie2026 — Wed, 16 Sep 2026 13:34:46 GMT

Hello......first time I've posted on here before. Will see how this goes....

Not really sure where to begin.....ive been suffering with my mental health most of my life. Have only spoken up about it in the last year as i had sort of a mental breakdown i guess you could call it. Have been seeing a counsellor for close to a year now who i have found helpful and i had improved from where i was last year.

But just feel like im heading back down that rabbit hole lately and i really dont know why. My life is good. Have a good job, a very loving a supportive partner who im building a life with but i still get those feelings of not wanting to be here anymore and just lost with life.

I feel very selfish as i read some of the other posts on here from people who are really doing it tough, when i really shouldn't be complaining about my life.

I have a counselling appointment tomorrow so will be sure to speak to them about how ive been feeling of late. Just thought id try something new and share with you all.

Thanks for reading

Re: Lost in Life

white knight — Thu, 17 Sep 2026 04:16:38 GMT

Hi, welcome

I hope your counselling appointment went well.

I dont really have all the answers, I've been where you are at and know the loss in your soul that seems to last forever. For me the answer was to simultaneously dig deep to find myself and also seek the true meaning of life.

So to help you and all others reading those post, let me express that your life, you as a person, a wonderful human being, only needs the sniff of faith in yourself to come good, the slight hint of the value of life itself to appreciate the wonder of your existence... and your inner heart. And you can proceed together with your partner.

Couple all that together along with some basic changes in your life like job, career, living location and relationships and you'll be on your way to paradise where I am now.

I recall in 1996 a week before my marriage dissolved, my attempt on my life. Then 24 years later when my daughter married I realised my value as a dad and now a new granddad. And regardless of motivation or good things in our lives we can fall at any time into a void of dark and cold perception. But it isnt real, we have to actively say to ourselves "this will pass, I'll be ok, now what changes can I make to help my recovery transpire"?

WE ALL CRAVE

I pray but I'm not a believer

I hope even when there isnt any

I appreciate but dont feel fun

I try but the results dont come

I see a bird and watch it fly

I watch people, laughing walking by

I crave for no clouds and no running tears

Maybe I'm happiest facing my fears

But the sun will rise like every other day

And I hope you'll find your way

Because there's wonder when a bird flies

We all crave an Ollie in our lives

TonyWK

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-PUvPX8qz38

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgh08mZ355Q

TonyWK

Re: Lost in Life

therising — Fri, 18 Sep 2026 10:02:55 GMT

Hi Ollie2026

There's absolutely nothing wrong with questioning where you are in life and why you're feeling what you're feeling. While considering life to be a landscape we travel through, it's fair to acknowledge how far we've come while also wondering about where the heck we now find ourself. It's all uncharted territory until we chart it or figure out how to map it out.

Uncharted territory is always going to hold certain challenges, unless we've entered into a blissful or exciting area. Then it's easy and incredibly enjoyable. Other areas on the other hand can prove exhausting, confusing, dark perhaps, rocky, stressful and more. 'Where am I at?' becomes the ultimate question and 'How did I get here?' becomes another valid question. Sounds like you've got a really good guide in your counselor and it sounds like they might be able to offer some sense of understanding when it comes to where you're at and maybe where you need to head.

From my own experience, I no longer see it as a problem to think 'I don't know how to live'. While I used to see me as failing in some way, these days it's more about 'How would I automatically know how to live (under such challenging circumstances) if no one's shown me how to do it?'. Life can definitely be a bit of a 'learn as you go' experience, that's for sure. What do I need to learn? Who's the best person to learn from? What can I learn that's going to help me develop some of my natural abilities (some I'm not even conscious of)? What skills do I now need in order to be able to navigate? So many questions but all questions are a part of the quest. We are travelers. Sometimes very confused, lost, stressed or depressed ones but travelers nonetheless. Btw, I'm a gal who tends to be a bit of a rabbit hole frequenter myself. I've discovered I tend to venture down there when in search of key revelations. Lots of revelations/gems to be found down there. It pays to have a guide who's able to shed some light in the rabbit hole.

Re: Lost in Life

Lana026 — Sat, 26 Sep 2026 01:22:51 GMT

Hiiiii,

I’m really glad you decided to post here. And please don’t feel selfish for struggling just because parts of your life are going well. Mental health doesn’t always match what things look like on the outside.

It sounds like you’ve already done a lot of hard work over the past year, and having a rough patch again doesn’t erase that progress. I’m really glad you have a counselling appointment tomorrow and that you’re planning to be honest about how you’ve been feeling.

The part about not wanting to be here anymore really stood out to me though. If those thoughts get stronger or you feel like you might act on them, please reach out for urgent support and don’t sit with it alone.

You don’t need to have a “bad enough” reason to deserve support.