topic Re: Dealing with illness in Depression

Dealing with illness

Guest_10490 — Mon, 18 May 2026 05:25:44 GMT

I'm 56 was a very hard worker then at 40 I suffered a massive heart attack driving home that ended me working career, forced retirement and I didn't handle it well , over the years since I now have type 2 diabetes have been in heart failure for about 5 yrs then last year had a small stroke that left me with memory loss , bad balance on bad days and depression that my gp but down to very low T that can't be treated because of cardiac history and I find myself with zero drive , most of the time I'm numb and just do what needs to be done,I don't have hobbies anymore I don't let people close anymore I barely talk to people except my inner circle and so far all the medical help I get is exercise and eat well now my wife of 17 yrs and me are having problems and it feels like the last straw I feel like I'm I lose a little of me every day and don't know how to be truly happy again...use to just go for a big motorcycle ride to clear my head or vent to my sister that I lost 3yrs ago and it's been nearly 6yrs since I lost my bike and never replaced it ...just feeling lost. ..

Re: Dealing with illness

Pete66 — Mon, 18 May 2026 10:31:58 GMT

I hear you. I am about your age, due to health reasons I can no longer do the job I had been doing since I was a teenager. Have not worked in 6 years. My brother passed away 3 years ago (something I am still angry about). Any time I do get happy, I break down in tears.
7 months ago I thought I had gotten control of my depression and had 4 great months of sunshine and unicorns, I then fell over, bumped my head. After that I lost my joy again.
I wish I had words for you, but I don't. Just to say I understasnd

Re: Dealing with illness

Guest_10490 — Mon, 18 May 2026 10:50:14 GMT

Thank you , hope you get back to happy days ..I think trying to hold onto good thoughts help I sometimes soak in negativity and think to much maybe time to get a hobbies again 😉 goodluck

Re: Dealing with illness

Pete66 — Mon, 18 May 2026 11:15:54 GMT

Getting back into hobbies is great. Just start off small, get your hands dirty. Ignore what others think or say and just admire your work at the end of the session

Re: Dealing with illness

dontseethepoint — Tue, 19 May 2026 13:31:05 GMT

i'm really sorry that life has dealt you such a tough hand.
it sounds like you feel as though you don't have much to look forward to. i've felt the same way a lot in my life. i can only suggest trying to pick up an old hobby again, or try something new even. it's easier said than done, but having something you're passionate about makes all the difference. have you spoken to your wife at all about how you've been feeling?

Re: Dealing with illness

Guest_10490 — Tue, 19 May 2026 21:45:28 GMT

Yes me and the wife talk about everything just on different journeys and I pulled out an old project bike yesterday that I put in the corner of my garage Neary 2 yrs ago and started cleaning it up now just need to keep moving forward with it 😁