topic Struggling alone and abandoned in Depression

Struggling alone and abandoned

Ms-B — Fri, 12 Dec 2025 10:04:30 GMT

Hi I haven’t been here for a very long time, but I’m really struggling at the moment and I’m often feeling this sense of desperation pumping through my body. Like I don’t know where to turn to. I feel so let down by community mental health they have been so slack. I have a lot going on at the moment and it’s a really difficult time of the year. I’m safe, I wish I wasn’t, I have a lot of them bad dark thoughts, but I am safe.

Re: Struggling alone and abandoned

Croix — Sun, 14 Dec 2025 09:02:27 GMT

Dear Ms-B~

Welcome back, it is good to hear from you even though in such poor circumstances.

Having had a horrific younger years it is not that surprising it acts like an injury and keeps on coming back and driving out positive and hopeful thoughts. I know the feeling.

I can also understand your frustration and feelings of abandonment when your clinical team simply does not do its job. Actually I think if you ever find just one, as you did in the past, it changes the whole thing. Sadly the good one you had, your case manager, is no longer looking after you properly.

I read you had some long conversations wihth Eagle Ray, who is pretty cluey, even though suffering the same sorts of things too.

I tend to find ER's personal solutions are good, even though not everyone's strong point. ER goes put into nature and takes photograph after being still and letting wildlife approach. Normally come back feeling better.

You like Lego and painting and puzzles, and although you say you don't have much creativity I think in time you will progress from using numbers, at least at times when you get an idea and want ot set it down. Does not have to be nice idea like flowers, might be expressing abandonment, then again may be victories, even little ones. A damp toothbrush in a glass can show the victory of getting up and getting ready to face another day.

Thinks you can do that distract you, or things you like, plus of course music, can make a real difference. I tease the cat who loves to just snooze and if I gently touch it's ear. It flicks it and glares at me. I read favorite books more than once, and a load of other things.

I divide up my day, with the good stuff in the evening, this gives me something to look forward too when the day is yuck.

I know these are not direct answers to you problems, however I find they can help a lot.

May I ask if you have anyone, a family member or a friend perhaps? Someone that cares about you and will talk frankly with you , not 'fixing 'anything, just leaving you feeling less alone. I remember you have a daughter, how do you get on?

Please feel you can come back and talk more, and if I'm not talking about what you want sing out

Croix

Re: Struggling alone and abandoned

sbella02 — Tue, 03 Feb 2026 05:41:56 GMT

Hey Ms-B,

Thank you so much for posting here, welcome back. I hope you can find some comfort here.

I'm so sorry that you're going through this, I feel like December can often be a time of struggle for a lot of people. The pressure of getting ready for Christmas and the New Year, having time off work, navigating tough family dynamics, all those factors that tend to intensify around at that time.

I'm sorry to hear also that you've been let down by community mental health, that's so sad to hear. Having these kinds of experiences with mental health professionals can really be disheartening.

When you say desperation, I assume you mean that you're feeling really low and are really eager to find some support?

I know from your last post that you've dealt with a lot of tough situations throughout your life. I'm wondering whether you feel like you're still struggling with similar feelings to your last post, or whether something new might've happened since you last visited us? Are you still finding yourself living in that dark world you described?

Feel free to keep chatting some more with us, we're here to support you. Many of us have been in that dark world before and have things to share with you from our own experiences.

Take care, SB