The wall i built

Christine-R — Sun, 07 Sep 2025 01:58:33 GMT

The Wall I Build

Weights are pressing, pulling me down,

I am drowning, lost where no light is found.

Darkness whispers, it seeps through my skin,

Not sadness now—something deeper within.

I push the world back, it feels safer this way,

A wall of stone shields the night from the day.

I tell myself pain won’t reach me again,

So I harden my heart, think only of gain.

But love in others is salt on my wound,

Their laughter feels cruel, their joy ill-tuned.

I stand in shadows, brittle and weak,

A broken soul the daylight won’t seek.

I am tired of pain—always the same.

My veins run heavy with, hatred and anger , a venomous thought .

I push away love, for safety, for breath,

Building strong walls that resemble my death.

Yet somewhere inside, a flicker remains,

A fragile ember beneath all the chains.

Though darkness has worn me, and silence has grown,

I dream of a place where I’m not alone.

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Sophie_M — Wed, 10 Sep 2025 03:54:08 GMT

A very warm welcome to the Forums. Thank you so much for sharing what you’re feeling right now. It sounds like you’re carrying a lot, and we want you to know that this is a space where you’re not alone.

Writing things out can be incredibly cathartic, and you have such a beautiful way with words. The way you’ve expressed yourself is deeply moving. You’ve captured something that many of us know well: that instinct to build a wall between ourselves and the world, hoping it will protect us, but also feeling the loneliness it can bring.

What really stands out is that, even in the midst of all this pain and self-doubt, there’s still that flicker of hope and curiosity. That’s something truly powerful. It speaks to your strength and your resilience.

We’re so grateful you’ve shared this with us. If you ever feel like sharing more of your writing, please know it’s very welcome here - your words have a way of reaching others in a meaningful way.

Take good care of yourself today. Maybe there’s something small you can do that nurtures that flicker of hope, even just a moment of kindness toward yourself.

Kind regards
Sophie M

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The wall i built

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