topic Re: Behind a functioning me, darkness beholds in Depression

Behind a functioning me, darkness beholds

ThomasJakeLim — Sat, 09 Sep 2023 07:02:47 GMT

Been a tough year. The passing of few family members coupled with an unexpected workplace restructuring, I struggle to pick myself up. I lost interest in what in the future beholds. In fact I wonder if I can manage what is coming up ahead of me. The thought of just disappearing feels comfortable, too comfortable. I pinch myself hard to override the pain I feel emotionally, so everything feels manageable. These moments of internal despair is scary because I can feel it taking away all my confidence, hope and happiness. Finding bright spots in my life is getting harder though they exist. I feel profoundly empty. Hope someone can share your experience on how to cope and find motivation to move forward.

Re: Behind a functioning me, darkness beholds

Guest_1282 — Sat, 09 Sep 2023 08:19:20 GMT

Hey Thomas yeah in a similar spot myself. I think just finding things that u think will give even a scherick of appreciation for life will help. Then go from there like with the purposeful, more I guess prominent things. Could be movement physically, or just trying to push urself socially. Or if the socially thing isnt meaningful/doesnt mean much- then just for creatively. If thats ur thing anyway if it helps great, but look just thought would reach out. Cos i feel alone lots of times, a lot of the time on a regular basis. Even just coming back to work the last couple of days this week- feeling good for having completed a full part time work week for the first time. In what felt like mustve been two months, but yeah even then felt alone. Anyway yeah just do what u can and do ur best is what Id summarise for that, it up as. From going off on a bit of a tangent then I feel, also seeing a psychologist is the big one for me. Something could recommend, in fact would recommend majorly

Re: Behind a functioning me, darkness beholds

ThomasJakeLim — Sat, 09 Sep 2023 12:11:46 GMT

Hi Stephen thanks for making time to offer support. It really helps. I do feel really lonely at times especially when I feel how I feel.