topic Re: Self sabotaging behavior in Depression

Self sabotaging behavior

DutchieSydney — Thu, 13 Apr 2023 23:14:13 GMT

Hi all - this is my first time posting as honestly don’t know what to do - I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety in the past, am on medication and have seen a psychologist. However, over the last couple of months my behavior has gotten out of control and I can’t stop it - I am not not productive at work - I’ve recently started a new job and feel like I’m trying to fly without wings - I am a senior exec in marketing however I’m not involved with the rebrand or website development at work but can post social media content and send out emails…. I feel so disheartened so got a bad performance review yesterday as my output is not on par which I agree with but I feel I can’t do anything right and mistakes are slipping in as I cant concentrate. My house looks like a bomb site, I drink too many glasses of wine each night, spent too much money and I know I need to stop all of this but I feel I’m on a train that I can’t stop anymore… I’m planning to resign on Monday and focus on getting myself in a better headspace and then start up again whilst creating positive habits - if anyone has been through something similar - I’d love some input on what has helped you break this cycle?

Re: Self sabotaging behavior

white knight — Fri, 14 Apr 2023 07:10:30 GMT

Hi, welcome

I'm glad you're here. Anxiety often becomes the first of other mental health issues like depression and PTSD that follow in some cases. We are peer advisors and are here 24/7/365 so when you post all you have to do is wait until one of us answers when we are free.

A start with all this could be with your GP then his/her recommendations. In the meantime we have a comprehensive library- just use search.

I've got a list of a few threads you can dabble into relating to your situation. Feel free to reply.

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/anxiety/worry-worry-worry/td-p/87808

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/anxiety/anxiety-how-l-eliminated-it/td-p/183873

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/meditation-words-of-wisdom-it-helped-me-for-25-years/td-p/89818

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/depression-and-the-timing-of-motivation/td-p/149708

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/switching-mindsets/td-p/274532

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/acceptance-is-this-our-biggest-challenge/td-p/147694

Repost anytime.

TonbyWK

Re: Self sabotaging behavior

james1 — Fri, 14 Apr 2023 16:38:54 GMT

Hello DutchieSydney,

Welcome to the forums! It seems like you're in a bit of a pickle right now, to put things gently. It's astounding (in an unfortunate way) just how much of an effect anxiety can have on our daily lives. A new job is tough at the best of times, let alone while you're struggling with anxiety.

I don't know if I can give any good advice about the job specifically, but it sounds like you've reached a point where you feel like you need space to focus on yourself, which is definitely a worthwhile goal. I was mostly struggling with depression a few years ago and while I ended up staying in my job, I was also quite unproductive at times and was lucky enough to have an understanding manager and a job I knew quite well.

In my own experience, it can be really hard to just focus on recovering. I had such an up and down journey that it was often very disheartening, and I actually found a lot of solace in distractions and even work at times. It's been quite a long journey for me but breaking that initial bad spiral was very much a matter of refocusing my life around my health, while also trying not to disrupt my life too much (as I don't generally deal well with losing my routine).

Have you got any thoughts on how you would focus on getting yourself into a better headspace?

James