topic I am new. Hello. in Depression

I am new. Hello.

Angel_Joy — Mon, 18 Jan 2021 10:51:05 GMT

Hello, I am new here. Would someone like to know a bit about me and why I am here?
Umm, this is kinda embarrassing.😬 I-I don't really know what to say.

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Not_Batman — Mon, 18 Jan 2021 11:12:45 GMT

Hi angel-joy.

welcome. Sure we’d like to know a little bit about you and why you’re here.

hey, dont feel embarrassed, we’re here for support and to support. There is no shame in it at all. We all need someone to talk to sometimes.

A couple of questions to start you off...

whats brought you here today?

how are you feeling right now?

Not_Batman

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mocha delight — Mon, 18 Jan 2021 12:06:46 GMT

Hi angel_joy first welcome to the forums and yes we would but just share with as little as you want or as much as you want but just know we don’t judge here.

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Summer Rose — Mon, 18 Jan 2021 12:28:13 GMT

Hi Angel Joy

Welcome. Please don’t be embarrassed about being unsure about how to get started with your post. Everyone is different and approaches posting in their own way. There’s right or wrong and no judgment.

I am interested in whatever you might like to share! Do you want to start with why you are here?

Kind thoughts to you

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Guest_4643 — Mon, 18 Jan 2021 13:01:23 GMT

Hey Angel_Joy, welcome to the forums. I like your username and profile picture.

I understand the feeling of being embarrassed, and that's perfectly okay. But you're in a safe, caring, friendly and non-judgemental place. We're all here for you.

- Tayla.

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Angel_Joy — Mon, 18 Jan 2021 23:26:54 GMT

Thanks. Well I have come here because I have depression and anxiety, and I wanted someone to help me. I didn't really know what to do so I came here.

I am feeling rather scared right now.

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Not_Batman — Tue, 19 Jan 2021 01:05:01 GMT

Hi angel-joy

Thanks for sharing that with us.
anxiety and depression make us feel really scared sometimes. This forum is a pretty safe place, and will be able to give tou some guidance.

have you seen a doctor at all to discuss how you’re feeling? If not, i would suggest this as your next step.

it can be hard to talk to a doctor about these things, but it makes a big difference. From there you can get access to other forms of help.

you’ve done a great thing by asking the forum what to do. Are there any things that you do to take care of yourself?

not_batman

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mocha delight — Tue, 19 Jan 2021 02:07:31 GMT

I agree with not_batman but if you’re nervous/anxious/scared angel_joy and decide to see your gp you can do what I did which is type up any symptoms/signs ect ect ect you’ve been experiencing to print out and hand straight to your gp. Your gp will ask if there’s any family history of mental illness/health in your family and how you’ve been feeling, how you’ve been going ect ect ect. Not to mention observing your reactions ect ect ect, you’ll be prescribed by your gp either a antidepressant or antipsychotic or both (but that depends on what your gp thinks you might have) and if your issues are more serious you might be referred to a psychiatrist first but if not a psychologist but the psychologist could also decide you might need to see a psychiatrist as well.

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Guest_4643 — Tue, 19 Jan 2021 02:20:33 GMT

Hey Angel_Joy.

You've come to the right place, it's a very supportive, friendly, caring and non-judgemental place. It's like a safe haven I guess you could say. Everything is moderated for everybody's peace of mind. You're safe here.

I understand about feeling scared, but you're ok here, I promise. We're all here for you, we all understand.

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mocha delight — Tue, 19 Jan 2021 02:31:52 GMT

If your not on any prescription medication to help and are worried about being on a prescription medication that will make you feel numb you can tell your gp you don’t want to be on one like that just like I did so you can discuss the options then that are still open to you. I also don’t believe in the ones that make you numb as I didn’t want to feel like a 🧟‍♀️ 😂 but that’s just my own personal opinion. I would also add to ask your gp for a list of psychologists/psychiatrists/both as it might take a few calls to get an appointment with one. I wish I had done that but I didn’t and the one my gp recommended she was not taking on new clients. So the psychologist I’m seeing she was not recommended to me by my gp as I found her myself but had to ask the receptionist at my gps rooms to pass on the psychologists details I found to get a referral to see her. Also all the mental health professionals have different wait times to get into to see them which I was lucky enough to get my first appointment for 3 weeks later. Also you won’t get a diagnosis straight away after your first appointment as it may take time and if the issues are a bit different a psychologist may want a second opinion from a psychiatrist. And finally with seeing a psychologist/psychiatrist you are in control on the topics/conversation but they all ask you some questions but in my experience mostly listening.

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Angel_Joy — Tue, 19 Jan 2021 23:12:16 GMT

Umm😥 I-i don't have a gp or anything. My mum doesn't know I feel this way. I-i don't know what to do. I am so afraid a@and nervous. My anxiety seems worse today. Ohhhhhhh😖😣

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Angel_Joy — Tue, 19 Jan 2021 23:13:40 GMT

Umm, i-i don't know what things I do to take care of myself. I have been taking care of other rather then me. Like, I haven't been eating much.

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Sophie_M — Tue, 19 Jan 2021 23:25:47 GMT

Hi Angel_Joy,

We are sorry to hear that your anxiety feels worse today. It must be really difficult to not have your mum understand what you're currently going through. Please know our community is here to support you through this tough time.

If you do not feel comfortable reaching out to your mum right now you might find it helpful to reach out to our friends at Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800) to talk things through. They offer free phone counselling services 24/7 or you could also contact that via email or webchat through their website: https://kidshelpline.com.au/ .

Headspace is another great service that offers support, advice, referrals, low-level counselling, and face-to-face counselling for depression or anxiety and other life issues (https://www.eheadspace.org.au/ or or 1800 650 890).

We hope to continue seeing you around the forums - feel free to keep checking in to talk through your thoughts and feelings.

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Not_Batman — Tue, 19 Jan 2021 23:46:32 GMT

Hi angel_joy

is this feeling of anxiety something you can share with your mum?

It can be a burden if we keep it to ourselves. And like you’re doing on the forum it helps to talk to someone about it.

You may both be able to talk to a doctor together.

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Summer Rose — Tue, 19 Jan 2021 23:57:15 GMT

Hi Angel Joy

I’m really sorry to learn that you’re feeling anxious and depressed.

I hope it’s okay to ask how old you are? I’m just asking because my daughter fell ill with anxiety and OCD at age 13 and it was really hard for her to tell me what was happening.

She couldn’t go to school, so we sat together for two days until she finally told me. It was such a relief for both of us because then we could work together on helping her to get well.

My daughter and I were really close and it was still hard for her. Are you and mum close? How do you think Mum might react if you told her how you are feeling?

Kind thoughts to you

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JoannaJay — Wed, 20 Jan 2021 00:21:25 GMT

Hi Angel-Joy, what a brave young lady you are in taking this huge step to open up about your feelings. I was the same age as you when I was crippled with anxiety. I curled up on the couch for two days,but couldn’t explain to my dear mum what was wrong. She had her own worries with my abusive father. There were no support services back then and I wasn’t sure my GP would understand,so I put up with it,until the worst happened. I married an abusive man,had post natal Psychosis after the birth of my son,lost custody of him,and set off a truly traumatic chain of events that totally destroyed twenty years of my life.

Sweet girl,things are different today than back in the 50’s-60’s when psychiatric staff could be quite cruel and unfeeling. There was no technology and no support at all,so I struggled alone until I got admitted to a private hospital

Today people listen and care. Keep reaching out and know you are not alone. We all understand.

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Guest_4643 — Wed, 20 Jan 2021 02:32:20 GMT

Hey Angel_Joy.

I wish your Mum could understand and help you, I'm not sure why she isn't. A GP or a professional could be able to help you, but we're all here for you and we all care. Please take care of yourself, and try to eat more, I do know that it's hard.

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rebornedsoldier — Wed, 20 Jan 2021 07:47:57 GMT

Hi there i am new myself.

I hope we can both get adjusted to these forums fast! 🙂

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Guest_4643 — Wed, 20 Jan 2021 10:55:47 GMT

Hello rebornedsoldier, welcome to the forums

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Angel_Joy — Thu, 21 Jan 2021 06:40:30 GMT

I am 15, and I was 13 when I first sent a letter to my mum saying that I didn't want to live..............she never talked to me about the letter. My mum doesn't know that I feel this way, no one knows except my sister. But, she didn't help much either. I am so afraid to tell my mum, and I am afraid to even send a note to her saying bout this. I can't do it.

I don't think I am close to my mum. I don't think she feels the same way I do. I am scared to tell her this. I mean, what if she yells at me and I am never allowed online again? What if she does something bad to me? I would run away if something bad happened, like if she doesn't let me online again or she doesn't get help for me. I cry very easily. She doesn't even know that I am doing this, so she might get mad if she found out. I wish someone else could tell her, I'm no good at doing this. I feel like I am trapped, I demand freedom.