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Feel like im missing something

Taannyyaa_xx — Fri, 07 Aug 2020 09:53:58 GMT

So ive been dealing with BPD for years and lately ive been struggling a little more than usual

So i recently got with a close friend of mine and we have been dating for about 3 weeks now.
I have been stressed and its taken a toll on my body, so my period has been a bit up and down.
I took a pregnancy test just to double check, i knew there was 99% chance i wasnt pregnant but i took it anyway.
I knew it would come up negative but i still feel absolutely wrecked that it wasnt positive.
Idk why i feel like this, im not in a position to have kids but i know that i want one really badly.
I just feel like apiece of me is missing and i dont know what to do about it.

Feel like im missing something

Heartcentred — Tue, 11 Aug 2020 05:27:20 GMT

Hi Tanya,

I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling a little more than usual.

It sounds like you're cautious and aware of your body which is a strength. It can be disappointing to receive a result that you do not specifically desire right now however, there is always time and things will fall into place.

I allow myself to feel all my emotions and then let it go - it works for me to relieve stress in the moment.

As for feeling like something is missing, I have found that by exploring myself gently and without judgement, I discover a lot about myself. Journal prompts help with self discovery and meditation is a great way to increase focus and raise consciousness.

It sounds like you know what you want and you're willing to discover and find out where you're going...

Wishing you all the best in your journey 🙂 x

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Guest_4521 — Tue, 11 Aug 2020 06:23:54 GMT

For what it's worth, I am pregnant at the moment and I don't think now is a good time to have a baby!

I found out I was maybe two weeks before we had our first lock down.

Covid's effects on babies is unknown, and if you test positive too close to giving birth, you will be separated from the baby!

The future is very uncertain as well! I don't know what the future for kids is going to be like.

Prenatal care isn't as good as it was before either. You aren't allowed a partner for ultrasounds and stuff...so if you do get pregnant, you'll go through all those milestones on your own. It's even worse if something goes wrong.

So be happy you aren't, it's not the right time and even though you don't say how old you are, there's plenty of time I am sure.

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Croix — Tue, 11 Aug 2020 15:20:20 GMT

Dear Taannyyaa.xx~

Welcome back, although I can't find your old posts - my apologies - I think I remember talking with you a couple of years ago, and you were not in good shape, the A/Ds were not doing their job, you had broken up wiht your ex and other more serious troubles too. You were just about over it all.

Now you sound a different person, and I truly hope your past troubles are behind you.

I'm afraid I'm going to take the sensible approach, which may not seem that helpful right off.

You badly want a baby, OK, that is a very natural feeling, and maybe it is true, you will not feel complete until you do have a bub to look after.

However you say yourself that in practical terms you are not in a position to have a child now, and also that you have only just just started a relationship.

After your breakup there must be a strong tendency not to trust or reply upon a partner, and that can keep you from finding the right person. I have found two in a long life, and lived with them permanently and in love -I am am no prize (maybe I fond the two silliest people in the world:) I trust them completely (no, not both at once! one passed away and I later remarried)

If you think of your baby, what do you think his or her needs are going to be? A stable household, enough time with parents who do not have to hold down two jobs, health and love?

May I suggest you develop your relationship or another that is right for you both , and delay til then?

If you find your desire to be pregnant becomes truly overwhelming may I also suggest you go and see your GP and talk the matter over. Sometimes what we want or need can get out of proportion and medical support to help you keep perspective might be an option

What do you think?

Croix

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White_Rose — Tue, 11 Aug 2020 15:43:47 GMT

Hello Taannyyaa.xx

Welcome back. It's good you know where to find help. Rather than repeat Croix remarks I will simply say I agree with the comments.

We often want something that is not a good idea atm and we get impatient about it. Having a baby is a commitment for the next 20 years. Are you ready for this? Seeing your GP will offer a broader view of life. Getting your mental health issues sorted out is a bigger priority at the moment.

This is a short post to welcome you back and say hello.

Mary