https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/my-bpd-is-back-with-a-vengeance/m-p/427314#M37071 <P>I'm a 32 year old male, father of four and happily married, but I'm afraid that my borderline personality disorder is back and hurting my family.</P> <P>I was diagnosed four years ago after suffering from depression alcohol and drug abuse, I was in a bad place and put myself into hospital and from there I got the help and understanding I needed, after about 8-12 months I was able to get off the medication which was for more the depression not the BPD, I then met my wife and have not looked back, up until about 6 months ago I noticed I would snap easily and turn small inconveniences into a MASSIVE deal, I hate that I can get so frustrated so easily and I feel like its taking a toll on my family, I can see this in them and it hurts me more so I hurt myself when no one is around, I have over the years had about 8 different jobs and have made excuses to leave all of them and I'm never confident in what I do, I have pushed family and friends away and as of now only have one friend and the everyone else is family, none of which really know or understand what BPD is, I have recently been doing some mindfulness work and have gone back to my doctor to start a new mental health plan but in between all this I am still struggling with anxiety being unmotivated and having very bad mood swings from being really happy and ready for the day to hating everything and everything I do is wrong or not working, I need help to control these BPD attacks because I don't want my family to suffer because of my BPD</P> Thu, 11 Apr 2019 23:31:37 GMT Behindthebeard 2019-04-11T23:31:37Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/my-bpd-is-back-with-a-vengeance/m-p/427314#M37071 <P>I'm a 32 year old male, father of four and happily married, but I'm afraid that my borderline personality disorder is back and hurting my family.</P> <P>I was diagnosed four years ago after suffering from depression alcohol and drug abuse, I was in a bad place and put myself into hospital and from there I got the help and understanding I needed, after about 8-12 months I was able to get off the medication which was for more the depression not the BPD, I then met my wife and have not looked back, up until about 6 months ago I noticed I would snap easily and turn small inconveniences into a MASSIVE deal, I hate that I can get so frustrated so easily and I feel like its taking a toll on my family, I can see this in them and it hurts me more so I hurt myself when no one is around, I have over the years had about 8 different jobs and have made excuses to leave all of them and I'm never confident in what I do, I have pushed family and friends away and as of now only have one friend and the everyone else is family, none of which really know or understand what BPD is, I have recently been doing some mindfulness work and have gone back to my doctor to start a new mental health plan but in between all this I am still struggling with anxiety being unmotivated and having very bad mood swings from being really happy and ready for the day to hating everything and everything I do is wrong or not working, I need help to control these BPD attacks because I don't want my family to suffer because of my BPD</P> Thu, 11 Apr 2019 23:31:37 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/my-bpd-is-back-with-a-vengeance/m-p/427314#M37071 Behindthebeard 2019-04-11T23:31:37Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/my-bpd-is-back-with-a-vengeance/m-p/427315#M37072 Might be time to head to the gp for some anxiety meds mate to help take that edge off <BR /> <BR />Get your mind focused on daily activities....cleaning the house, wash the car, cook dinner, shopping etc <BR /> <BR />Make sure your getting a good 8 hours of sleep each night, its important as you know <BR /> <BR />Stay away or try and limit contact with whatever is triggering you <BR /> <BR />Talk to the mrs about how your feeling Fri, 12 Apr 2019 08:14:24 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/my-bpd-is-back-with-a-vengeance/m-p/427315#M37072 Guest_7403 2019-04-12T08:14:24Z