topic Feel like I’m stuck in a hamster wheel? in Depression

Feel like I’m stuck in a hamster wheel?

pinkkookaburra99 — Thu, 06 Dec 2018 04:00:14 GMT

Bit of a random title but I guess it describes what I’m feeling pretty well. I feel like I’m in a never ending cycle of doctor’s appointments and blood tests and medication and therapy appointments where I don’t achieve anything. I always get the same terrible advice- exercise and socialise. I just wish people would realise the problem isn’t that I dont think exercise and socialising is important (I know it is), the problem is that I’m physically trapped in my bed and unable to get out.

I shouldn’t have to fight this hard for healthcare. All I want is a GP I can trust, who listens to me and takes me seriously, a medication regimen that actually works and a clinical psych who can do their job. I really don’t think that’s a lot to ask! I’m happy to put in the hard yards but I’m sick and tired of the healthcare system not meeting me halfway. I keep telling people nothing I’m doing is working and they just say to do it again!

sorry for the rant. Anyone relate?

Feel like I’m stuck in a hamster wheel?

Peppermintbach — Thu, 06 Dec 2018 21:25:19 GMT

Hi pinkkookaburra,

No need to apologise at all. Sometimes I think it’s healthy and cathartic to get those feelings/thoughts out, so good on you for putting it in writing here...feel free to write any time...

Sorry, I’m not sure if I’m the best person to respond as I haven’t had too many bad experiences with the health system (and I know you’re looking for someone who can relate). That being said, I know there are many people on the forums here who aren’t receiving appropriate professional care or support, either due to a lack of services and/or poorly trained professionals.

No wonder you’re feeling discouraged and frustrated with the repetitive advice that is both unrealistic (given your circumstances) but also a little overly obvious, and therefore possibly slightly condescending...

I don’t think what you’re asking for is too much at all. All you want is an effective health care team who can do their job. I think that’s a perfectly reasonable and understandable request...

I realise my post may not be very helpful, but I still wanted to reach out to you anyway. I really feel for you, and can definitely see why you’re feeling so frustrated...if I were in your position, I’m sure that I would feel the same way...

Kind and caring thoughts,

Pepper

Feel like I’m stuck in a hamster wheel?

Lily78 — Sat, 08 Dec 2018 14:48:45 GMT

Hi, I can relate so much to your post. Our mental health system is extremely frustrating. It has taken me since 2005 to the present day to finally feel like I am on the path to healing and moving forward for good. I came across a great psychologist through an employee assistance program at work late last year and have continued seeing her. A great, supportive GP who ideally bulk bills is important also especially if prescribed medication as the regular appointments are so important either way.

I would hope if anything this helps you even just a little bit as I only wish I had found the right supports back then. With no disrespect to our health professionals, there are good and bad just like anything. You need to find the right fit with a psychologist and that is not always easy. I haven't seen them consistently as who could afford that. However I have been to at least three over the years and although lovely people, were not able to assist me well enough to the point where yes I too have felt like I have been stuck on hamster wheel and it hurts significantly knowing I have been carrying this pain or baggage around for nearly 13 years.

Feel free to post back if you would like to chat. I wish you all the best.