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Hidden Depression

Lilac1 — Sun, 04 Feb 2018 05:48:55 GMT

I’m not sue where to exactly start, or what to exactly say, but I need to express my feelings and emotions.

I’m lost, and feel stuck. I’m “happy” one day and extremely down another day. I don’t feel I’m truly happy with myself or my life, everyone is living and I feel stuck. I want to enjoy life, find my passion, love the relationships in my life but I just can’t. I want to achieve things, be truly happy. I want that more than anything. I just am stuck, I don’t see any jobs that truly is what I can do, my anxiety plays a part but it doesn’t fully control me. I want to succeed, get a job, find true friends, live a life of me being truly happy within myself but I don’t know how. My anxiety hurts me when I need to recharge after lots of social interaction even with my partner, which he doesn’t understand because he is the opposite he can’t be alone. I have my passions that keep me going which is art, poetry and basketball but I feel my feelings have even affected those things. I am one of those people who just want to make everyone happy, because it makes me happy so when I am having a down day I just hide it because there is really nothing they can do, and me seeing them happy instead of worried is helps me more. I just feel lost and you reading this can probably tell I’m all over the place. I’m just sad, down about a lot of things and I’m trying to find my way out. Thank you for reading my confusing mess and I hope if anyone feels similar you are not alone

Hidden Depression

quirkywords — Sun, 04 Feb 2018 06:15:46 GMT

Hi Lilac1/

Welcome to the forum.This is a friendly and caring place.

You have expressed yourself well andI can understand how you feel.

You want everyone to be happy and you want to age them happy and if you can't you feel you have nothing a all to offer them so you hide away.

It is good you can express your feelings through you art and poetry. What sort of art do Yu make and like?What type of poetry do you write or read?

I am hoping your art and poetry may explain you find a way out of the sadplace by expressing how you feel.

You are not alone. thanks for sharing your thoughts.

Quirky

Hidden Depression

Lilac1 — Sun, 04 Feb 2018 06:34:25 GMT

Thank you for replying

I love very detailed dot painting art, or drawing mandalas. I find very detailed art helps silence my thoughts and requires patience and takes time. It prevents my negative thoughts.

I don’t think I’d be good at writing poetry, but I do write my favourites in a journal which I share on instagram. I have a hard time explaining my feelings, expressing myself so I love how you can find the perfect poem to describe exactly how you feel.