topic I feel like I have no one in Depression

I feel like I have no one

BBUser36 — Tue, 08 Jan 2019 15:12:52 GMT

Hello, I am new to this forum and really don't know where to start, but I'll try my best

For my whole life, I have been raised in a very very religious household. I don't want to get into too much detail, as it is a very broad topic in my life, but I have never really made any friends because my family doesn't really like me talking to people outside of the religion. I feel as if this has become a major issue as of recent, because I feel like I have absolutely no one who really cares about me, and a family who will limit contact with me once I come out as gay and leave the religion. All of this has accumulated throughout my early-mid teen years, in which I was very anxious and depressed 24/7, leading me to become extremely underweight to this day, and having no positive image of myself.

Now, I am still no better than I was back then, nothing much has changed, I still struggle to get out of bed in the morning and talk to anyone, because I've been taught from a young age that all people will do is bring pain to me, so its better not to talk to them. I don't have many friends, and most of them tend to ignore me and get angry when I try to talk to them about anything, telling me to bother someone else because I'm too needy (their words). The one close friend I have, who I don't deserve, is the only one I really talk to anymore, and even then, I struggle with the negative thoughts about how "he doesn't really wanna talk to you" and "he is talking to you because he feels bad".

I feel like I haven't really felt anything for a long while now, the only productive thing I can do anymore is draw, and am worried that I will continue to get worse as time goes on. My medicine and therapy haven't done much to help me, and I worry if I'm a lost cause.

I have no idea on how to cope with this, but I hope that made sense, Thank you for reading.

I feel like I have no one

quirkywords — Wed, 09 Jan 2019 03:32:57 GMT

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welcome to the forum. You have written a very honest and moving post that people can relate to.

This place is full of friendly kind and nonjudgmental people who are supportive.

I am sorry you feel so alone and you feel no one cares about me. That would make you feel lonely.

You have a good friend and it can be your low mood saying those negative things. He is your friend because you are a kind person.

I think it is great you can draw. What do you like to draw what do you like to draw with? Do you have an art book that you draw in?

I can not draw at all so think that is great talent you have. Also you can write well and express yourself clearly.

You made a lot of sense . Feel free to post here when you want to?

Quirky

I feel like I have no one

kanga_brumby — Wed, 09 Jan 2019 05:06:35 GMT

Welcome //// quirkywords summed it up well you are a valued member of our community here we judge no one. Religious or not gay or not. Basically we are all the same a group of people struggling to see the end of today. If you need someone to talk to we are here for you we care.

Kanga