https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/when-the-darkness-comes-calling/m-p/369607#M33575 You have perfectly captured the emotional pain many endure. You have a gift of expression and hope you continue to record your thoughts in this creative way. Tue, 26 Feb 2019 13:17:41 GMT walpurti 2019-02-26T13:17:41Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/when-the-darkness-comes-calling/m-p/369606#M33574 Even on days of clear blue, beautiful skies; the darkness comes calling<BR /> The inner monolog is so loud you cannot hear the outside world<BR /> The inane whispers and screams alike, drowning and falling<BR /> Lost in the self contained chaos with little to no wisdoms of pearl<BR /> <BR /> <BR /> No suicidal thought is spared<BR /> No more tears left to shed<BR /> When the darkness comes calling<BR /> <BR /> <BR /> Break down after a long day of trying to hold it together<BR /> Every scar, a seam that was slowly unraveling with anxiety tugging at loose threads<BR /> Crying in a heap, not a grey cloud above<BR /> Better off dead, better off dead<BR /> <BR /> <BR /> <BR /> No suicidal thought spared<BR /> No more tears left to shed<BR /> When the darkness comes calling<BR /> No time like the present standing still<BR /> No more blood left to spill<BR /> When the darkness comes calling<BR /> <BR /> <BR /> Broken and beaten<BR /> Life is so fleeting<BR /> Pulling myself apart but not yet given up<BR /> Scratching and clawing<BR /> Begging for relief<BR /> Pounding of this beautifully broken heart<BR /> <BR /> <BR /> My tears have dusted over like antiquities of pain<BR /> Wounds grown over like tumours of tainted memories<BR /> One more incision is only a bad decision away<BR /> One more knot is not enough to choke away the misery<BR /> <BR /> <BR /> Even on days of clear blue, beautiful skies; the darkness comes calling<BR /> And even at my strongest I struggle to not say goodbye<BR /> It’s hard to keep ignoring when each call could be the end<BR /> No suicidal thought is spare, no more tears left to shed…<BR /> <BR /> &nbsp; Tue, 26 Feb 2019 07:35:30 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/when-the-darkness-comes-calling/m-p/369606#M33574 Phnx2405 2019-02-26T07:35:30Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/when-the-darkness-comes-calling/m-p/369607#M33575 You have perfectly captured the emotional pain many endure. You have a gift of expression and hope you continue to record your thoughts in this creative way. Tue, 26 Feb 2019 13:17:41 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/when-the-darkness-comes-calling/m-p/369607#M33575 walpurti 2019-02-26T13:17:41Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/when-the-darkness-comes-calling/m-p/369608#M33576 <P>thank you.<BR /> <BR /> I've been writing for some time. even have a collection published. </P> <P>originally i started writing as a means of therapy, i guess it has taken on life of its own. </P> Thu, 28 Feb 2019 13:32:37 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/when-the-darkness-comes-calling/m-p/369608#M33576 Phnx2405 2019-02-28T13:32:37Z