Downward progression

Crux — Wed, 29 Aug 2018 02:34:41 GMT

Hi, I am new to this here just signed up to read others posts and felt inspired?to post my situation.

Quick back story, now 32,
I was abused as a child (aged 4 to about 9/I 0 years old ) physically and verbally

*Chronic alcoholic from 13-30 (almost 2 years sober)

*diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety and paranoia

*night terrors /panic attacks /hallucinations /feel like I'm dying /can't sleep & wake up constantly thinking I'll be murdered while I sleep

*chronic migraines (generally everyday /at least every 2nd guaranteed) became chronic several months ago, upgraded from monthly or so. On zomig for that.

*Ticks- eye, shoulder and neck movements, have to keep remembering to untense face/expression

*tinnitus - really high pitch 24/7 can't think about it too much

I quit alcohol because I didn't want to lose my partner and our few years old son. (yes was very hard to do but I don't think about it anymore) but since being sober my depression keeps growing . I'm becoming manic, sometimes crying in the car park at work feeling sick in my stomach /butterflies. Empty but for the Overwhelming sense of dread, imminent danger. Stressing about people looking at me cripples me. Lost jobs over this. Some days I feel like I'm high on good vibes, feel powerful and resigned to life. Almost like in a state of nirvana, it's amazing actually. But those days are so rare it's mainly black. Some days the sadness is lesser but never gone.

I was on medication for about a year w/no affect so they put it up and everything went horrible so I stopped. Another medication, nothing, some other ssri can't remember made it all worse.

Anyone been through similar stuff like this and found their way through ? I'd love to hear about it. Thanks for reading

Downward progression

Just Sara — Wed, 29 Aug 2018 06:44:55 GMT

Hi and welcome to our caring community Crux;

Wow! You've got a boat load of symptoms there, I'm so sorry.

I wanted to reply to you but need to be short as I have heaps to do. Apologies..

Wondering if you have a psychologist you visit regularly and if your medication has been prescribed by a psychiatrist instead of a GP. Being diagnosed by a psychiatrist with regular reviews sounds like it might benefit your situation.

It's scary shit being trapped in a body you feel you have no control over. There's hope though Crux; believe you/me.

I'm here most days, so if you want to continue talking I'm up for it. Nice to meet you too.

Kind thoughts;

Sez

PS.. Sorry to rush..

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Downward progression

Downward progression