topic Getting worse..... in Depression

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Anntug — Wed, 21 Jun 2017 23:58:14 GMT

Hi,

i suffer from health anxiety even when I have been to the Dr and she advised all is good. I just cannot get it out of my mind that I am dying. I have been suffering this on and off over the last 27 years! My anxiety then developts into depression and I am struggling going to work every day. I stuggle every morning getting out of bed and cry most of the time. I am on AD and think they are working a little. I have the support of my beautiful Mum and husband but feel like I cannot continue To trouble them all the time. I just feel so unloved at the moment and want to be my happy little self again. Thanks for listerning.

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MarkJT — Thu, 22 Jun 2017 06:14:05 GMT

Anntug, your words resienate with me quite loudly. I am forever thinking that something is wrong with me and i am on my way out. I know of many others who are like this so you are not alone, that is for sure.

Even though you have been to the GP and are on AD's, have you discussed this problem with the GP? Have you ever had psych work done on this?

With the many sessions I have had with the clinician's, I worked on this and are now able to control them. It takes some practice but I want you to know that you can overcome them.

Mark.

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Jimny — Thu, 22 Jun 2017 06:39:22 GMT

I haven't endured the severity of the anxiety you are describing, but might be able to relate to your depressive symptoms. It sounds like you have two wonderful people around you, who love and care for you.

I would ask the same question as Mark, and wondering if you had any psychotherapy to investigate both your anxiety and depression. Also, how long have you been on anti-depressants for? In my experience, the SSRI needed a few months in order to "kick-in", and yes, there were some (mild in my case) side-effects.

Are you mother and husband properly informed about anxiety/depression (i.e., beyondblue website, etc.)? You're not a alone, even though it may feel like.

best-

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geoff — Thu, 22 Jun 2017 18:37:34 GMT

hello Anntug, it is great to hear that you have the support of your mum as well as your husband, and I'm sure they would only be wishing for you to get better, you need their support, but more so they want to help you.
If your doctor has prescribed you your AD's then she has to realise that your health will go up and down, so can I ask you to google 'intrusive thoughts', as these are related to anxiety, and with this comes depression.
Is it possible to try another doctor, if you aren't too happy with your current doctor. Geoff.

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Anntug — Fri, 23 Jun 2017 01:11:33 GMT

Hi Mark,

Tha k you for your response. I have discussed this issue with my GP and often tell her what tests I want...... even though she thinks I don't need them she does them to ease my mind. I have tried counselling sessions with a few people but it has not helped me. I am currently learning Meditation which I am sure will help me.

thank you for being there x

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Anntug — Fri, 23 Jun 2017 01:15:35 GMT

Hi Jimny

Thanks for replying to my post, it certainly helps me get through the tough times. Yeah tried to discuss with councillors but cannot seem to get to the core of the problem. Only been on AD for three weeks so yeah probably need time to kick in! Thanks for the idea of passing on some info for my Mum and husband to read I will certainly do that. Thanks for being there x

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Anntug — Fri, 23 Jun 2017 01:17:46 GMT

Hi Geoff,

Thank you for replying to my post it certainly helps me knowing there are people to chat to. I will google the intrusive thoughts and check it out.

Thank you for being there for me, I really appreciate it x

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MarkJT — Fri, 23 Jun 2017 07:30:12 GMT

Anntug, sounds like you have a supportive GP which is a good thing.

With the meditation, what type are you doing?

I practice mindfulness quite a bit, probably should do it more and have found that it has been really helpful.

There are some really good apps to help out with this also.

Mark.

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Jimny — Fri, 23 Jun 2017 11:16:51 GMT

Hi Anntug,

Hang in there with the ADs for a bit, your psychiatrist/GP will likely adjust dosage or type if results don't come within 1-2 months.

During the beginning of my meds I found it helpful to keep a journal/diary (mood, how your feeling, upset stomach, insomonia, what is upsetting you, etc.). This may also help if you happen to switch the med and try a new variety in the future, and then you can look back on your symptoms you experience with other drugs. I have been a quite lazy lately about keeping a mood diary, but I really should get back to it because it has been helpful in the past.

Love to hear how the AD's are working as you move through this time.

All the best, Jimny

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Anntug — Sun, 25 Jun 2017 23:42:10 GMT

Hi Mark,

i am currently doing a work work shop for IMagery Meditation. I strongly believe it will be good for me however it's bloody hard try to focus, but they say it all comes together in time.

I am going to be having a couple of one on one sessions which I'm looking forward too.

i will keep you posted. X

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Anntug — Sun, 25 Jun 2017 23:44:48 GMT

Hi Jimmy,

i have kept a journal is the past and found it very helpful, thanks for reminding me I will start another one. It very interesting reading how you felt in the past experiences and what gets you through.

i will keep you updated on my journey!

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MarkJT — Mon, 26 Jun 2017 08:53:58 GMT

Anntug, that is awesome that you are doing the imagery mediation and i really like how you have a strong belief that it will work for you. I think in the long run after you continue doing this, it will be great for you.

Really interested to see how you go with that so if you can keep me informed, that would really be appreciated.

Mark.

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Anntug — Tue, 04 Jul 2017 10:03:01 GMT

Hi All,

Started feeling ok until today..... I thought all tests were clear but found out I have to have my liver checked!!!! I am beside my self with worry that it's something serious.

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Jimny — Thu, 06 Jul 2017 11:08:52 GMT

Hi Anntug,

I hope everything ends up OK. I'll try and check back every so often and see how things are going with you.

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Anntug — Fri, 07 Jul 2017 03:50:20 GMT

Hi Jimny

I am sure it will be fine. I went back yo my Dr yo clarify a few things.

Thank you

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geoff — Sat, 08 Jul 2017 01:49:22 GMT

hello Anntug, I'm just about to log off but I'm rather concerned about the tests you have had on your liver, so if you feel comfortable I'd like to know, but only if you want to.
Please remember that there are many other people who are having trouble with their liver, I know that my gamma level is extremely high and has been for the last 15 years, but this can be caused for many reasons, maybe I can help you ease your mind.
If for some reason I forget please get back to me by adding to your post which will put your comment back on page 1. Geoff.

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Starwolf — Mon, 31 Jul 2017 00:07:22 GMT

Hi Anntug,

Kudos for sharing your concerns with us.

I am sorry to read you are finding yourself in a dark place again. As Geoff pointed out, depressive states come and go in waves. Sometimes there's a trigger, sometimes it just happens. Waves do pass to reveal calmer waters.

On the brighter side, you have now experienced that things can and will improve. As time goes by, those awful downs become easier to manage and recur less often. Slumps are an unavoidable part of the recovery process.

I have found in the past that taking it 1 hour at a time does help. 1 hour is easier to deal with than 24.

Well done for seeking medical assistance to help you negotiate this difficult stretch. You are on the right track, even if it doesn't feel that way right now.

Kindest thoughts.

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Anntug — Mon, 31 Jul 2017 02:25:17 GMT

Hi Starwolf

Thank you for your reply it means a lot to hear from people. I will try the hour by hour sounds good.

Thinkpgs can can only get better yeah

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Neil_1 — Mon, 31 Jul 2017 03:20:50 GMT

Hi there anntug

Welcome back to Beyond Blue and thank you for writing.

May I ask about how you got on previously? You mentioned you felt on top of the world and that things were going along pretty well … I do love hearing about how things can change at times. What kinds of mechanisms did you put into place at that time to help yourself? I’d assume you went along to your GP? Did you receive any follow up help, say from a psychologist? Finding things of interest to help you through the day, music, hobbies, sports, etc – anything along those lines?

Mornings are always hard … cause you’re going from a place of pretty much a safe and cosy sanctuary – your bed and then it’s the issue of getting up and going. I guess these colder mornings never help in this instance either. That’s where I mentioned above of having some kind of interest that could help with the “getting going process”.

Do hope to hear back from you,

Neil