topic Stuck in Depression

Stuck

liannajayde — Sat, 11 Nov 2017 06:26:06 GMT

Hi everyone,

I'm just feeling really stuck at the moment. Between my depression and anxiety, I feel like I can't catch a break. My main issue that I seem to be struggling with is motivation. I end up late at work as I find it hard to leave the house some days, and I just don't enjoy it anymore. I'm in a retail sales role and some days my anxiety can really affect my work. I also stress that I'm not 'fitting in' at my job, which just makes me feel alone. I have horses and to me, riding and spending time with them really clears the mind. But even now I'm finding the motivation to go see them is becoming harder and harder, (It's a 20-minute drive to the agistment). I make up excuses as why I can't go places, it's the same as the gym and anything else I enjoyed. The annoying part is when I have days like this where I don't do anything, I feel even more depressed as I'm disappointed in myself for not doing anything. If that makes sense. It's a vicious cycle. I was on medication, but I found after a few months on it, I would feel numb and just didn't care about anything. I would be willing to give it a go again if it would help with my energy. Just wondering if there's anything that helped others find their motivation.

- Lianna

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white knight — Sat, 11 Nov 2017 10:26:50 GMT

Hi Lianna, welcome

Lovely name

Yes meds can have various effects. They are a trade off.

I have written about being radical. For many of us a change is needed to alter aspects of our lives to improve it.

Eg wouldnt it be great if somehow you had accommodation where your horses were without the travel? Or a job change further into the country etc. Somethings worth aiming towards?

Google

Topic: be radical- beyondblue

Topic: city to country move? Why not?- beyondblue

Topic: the timing of motivation- beyondblue

And, set your alarm for an hour earlier, hot shower, eat well and sleep is crutial

Good luck Tony WK

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Dan049 — Sat, 11 Nov 2017 10:52:30 GMT

Hi Lianna. Medications can take a fair bit of time to settle and even then they may require alterations at times. I was able to go off my meds for a good 6-8 months but an upcoming family wedding required me to go back on them. I didn’t leave enough time for them to settle and I felt like a zombie at the wedding.

i have been on my meds for the last 20months and do not plan on going off them. There are days that I feel so low but they are far enough apart to not be too much of a problem. I find that I do not experience a lot of happiness and that is just something that I have to live with.

Best of luck

Dan.

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blondguy — Sat, 11 Nov 2017 12:31:13 GMT

Hi Lianna

Thankyou for having the courage to post on the forums and welcome!

I understand the lack of motivation you are going through. Just in my situation my anxiety was draining my energy and left me the same way.

Having a 'tired mind' (as a result of anxiety) can sometimes reduce our motivation for sure.....You are not on your own here at all Lianna...

The meds are never a fix-all. They do provide us with a solid foundation on which we can start to heal from this awful disorder. I have been on meds for a few years and combined with regular counseling I got my life back

Its a pain but it takes determination and the will to keep the counseling going as frequently as you can.

Anxiety is no different to a physical issue that needs meds and treatment to find some peace

TonyWK and Dan have posted above with their life experience above too 🙂

There are many gentle people on the forums that have experienced similar that you are going through. It would be great if you could stick around if you have any questions. The forums are a rock solid safe place to post where your privacy and welfare is paramount

My kind thoughts for you

Paul