topic What I want to go away today! in Depression

What I want to go away today!

Doolhof — Thu, 09 Nov 2017 08:19:33 GMT

Hi Everyone,

While replying on a different thread, I came up with this idea due to a comment the person made about "wanting it all to go away".

This is a thought I am sure many of us have experienced! It may help if we can express what it is that we want to go away, and than look at ways of dealing with those thoughts, how we can change life to be more beneficial and consider the good things of the day.

I will make a start with my own list of things I'd like to go away:
- waking up in the morning thinking oh bother, here comes another day!
- depression, dizziness, poor concentration, headaches, back ache, neck ache...etc!
- not having employment
- juggling conversations with a husband who may be on the Autism spectrum but declines to be assessed
- the days are heating up...I'm already looking forward to winter!
- feeling like I need to struggle with my thoughts every day
- uncertainty, wanting to run away frequently

I know that if I continue to entertain these thoughts, they will just keep on growing into something even more terrible. I can consider ways of making my life better. Starting with one of these issues at a time.

Okay, now any of you have an opportunity to share.
The next step though is to be thankful for something today despite maybe feeling like the day has been less than average.

Today I am thankful for: the laughter I shared with a lady in the Op Shop today. Who knew that folding plastic bags and chatting could be so much fun!

So what do you want to go away today, how can you help to lessen the impact this issue has on you, and list something good from your day.

Cheers all from Dools

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Vitsyra — Thu, 09 Nov 2017 08:30:57 GMT

I like your thinking 🙂

I'll give this a go.

Things I want to go away:

- Being sick!! 3 weeks with a chest infection that won't clear 😞

- Waking up feeling sad and tired

- Having no appetite/not enjoying cooking anymore

- Worry over my kitty who threw up today (have booked her into vet on Monday.. but know I will worry till then)

Today I am thankful for: Not having an anxiety attack today. First day in a week 🙂 Might finally be turning it around. Also thankful for the sun today, was nice to go for a walk in the sunshine.

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Ballza — Thu, 09 Nov 2017 10:28:22 GMT

Hi there!!!!

Things I want to go away

1 That no energy feeling

2 That feeling of not knowing we’re to start ( I’ve been a Tradie for 25 years, you think I should no how to do my job bye now )

3 Ruminating thoughts

4 The electric shock anxiety feeling when I open my eyes in the morning!!!

Things I’m greatful for...

1 My wife and kids

2 My job

3 Were I live

4 Having a roof over my head!!

Great post by the way!!!

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Guest_0087 — Thu, 09 Nov 2017 10:29:00 GMT

What I want to go away

- Not being able to get over my ex

- Not having the motivation to do anything

- The constant fear of being alone and worthless

- The block that is holding me back from actually getting a job I enjoy and being able to do something of substance with my life.

Today I am thankful for: having a friend that has always listened to my crap and been there for me when she does not have to be.

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Doolhof — Thu, 09 Nov 2017 21:02:42 GMT

Hi Vitsyra,

Thanks for joining in. Getting stuff out of my head helps me.

Hope the chest infection does clear, I imagine that reduces your energy and enthusiasm for every day activities.

Make a little note each night about something "nice" you would like to do he next day. For me today it is going for a walk and taking my camera with me.

Hopefully your cat will be okay. Our cat vomits now and then due to fur balls even though we try to groom the fat lazy thing. Do you have some cat grass available if your cat is indoors? Maybe ask the vet about that as well.

Congratulations on no ANXIETY ATTACH for the day. Celebrate that!

Cheers to you from Mrs. D.

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Doolhof — Thu, 09 Nov 2017 21:07:44 GMT

Hey Ballza,

Thanks for popping by. Like your lists. Has it helped to be able to have a unhelpful list and a positive one?

Those ruminating thoughts need to be stopped and dealt with don't they! Once our brain is stuck in a rut it can be hard to change the tune. A little like when you get a song stuck in your head and you don't seem to be able to find a different one to hum along to.

I find that over thinking just hurts me brain too much and try to stop myself from doing it when I can.

It is great you can list so many positives!

Hope your day goes a little easier for you today.

Cheers from Mrs. D or Dools

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Doolhof — Thu, 09 Nov 2017 21:14:35 GMT

Hi Zimbos,

Don't we all love those friends who hang around regardless of the day we are having! I have met some great ladies in an Op Shop where I volunteer, yesterday I was laughing so hard my sides were hurting.

Trying to get over an ex is not always an easy thing to do is it! I loved a guy from a distance for a very long time. (Before either of us were married we had been friends) Funny thing is when he and his wife came to stay with us years later, I really didn't like his attitude that much.

In my mind I had built him up to the be the most perfect guy a girl could ever want.

Hopefully you may be able to remember the good things about your ex and than not try to find those values in someone else, as no two people are the same.

Saying goodbye to anyone is not easy, finding a way to release them and let them go can be very healing though.

By the way, my comments here are just my own thoughts and feelings. We all deal with stuff differently. I just want to give people an opportunity to off load, than to think of good things in their lives to be thankful for as well.

Cheers all from Mrs. D

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Doolhof — Thu, 09 Nov 2017 21:22:22 GMT

What I want to go away right now is

- my unrelenting feeling of being unwell due to the medical withdrawal of medication that was increasing my blood pressure to almost fatal proportions.

To help me conquer these feelings I am about to head out the door for a walk and will take my camera along with me. Yesterday I saw some very closely shorn sheep that were so pink in colour they made me laugh.

I'm hoping they are in the same smallish paddock so I can capture their image on my camera.

So I am thankful that

- I am getting myself our the door right now and will go for a walk!

- Later on I plan to write down some of those thoughts whirring around in my brain and consider if they are helpful or not, and how I can change them to being more helpful or forget them.

- I am thinking of ways I can help myself and will put them into action!

Cheers all. I am off for my walk!

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Guest_0087 — Fri, 10 Nov 2017 06:42:12 GMT

Hi Doolhof

Yeah, those people are the best. I am quite lucky to have four of those people. Unfortunately I don't see them or talk to them as much as I would like, but it's nice to know they are there. Yeah, getting over an ex sucks. Unfortunately I can't think of any bad things about my ex, and the opportunities I missed out on, and yeah...just kind of sucks.

Today what I want to go away

- My work colleague. He is deceitful and manipulative, and is willing to throw anyone under the bus for his own gain

- The pain of being alone. I am currently in my room whilst downstairs there is a whole group of family, and I feel no connection to any of them or anyone.

I am grateful for

- The little kids in my family. They make me smile and are about the only people I want to interact with.

- Good music.

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Vitsyra — Fri, 10 Nov 2017 08:54:09 GMT

Thanks 🙂 I realised I do the nice thing without meaning to. I try to pick the next thing I'm doing that I enjoy, usually its reading or watching a movie, or seeing friends/family. 🙂

Tonight after work I made a point to play with my kitties in the backyard.

Things I wish would go away:

- Nagging feelings about things... plant needs replacing, a weed that needs pulling, some things I want to throw out..

- Kitty being sick.. though she seems quite happy and playful

- Chest infection! So sick of coughing.. back to the doctors tomorrow to hopefully be cured.

- Constantly having to check on the kitten to make sure she hasn't gone on the roof (Thankfully dad old be putting up a gate to stop her on Sunday).

- Fear of re-triggering my anxiety..

Nice things today:

Playing with my kitties

Lunch with workmates

Warm weather

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Ggrand — Fri, 10 Nov 2017 09:52:17 GMT

Hi Doolhof and everyone else.

wouldnt it be nice if we could write what we want to go away and when we press post, the internet fairy will magically take them away from us. how amazing would that be. But it's only my wishful thinking.

The things I want to go away are.

My anxiety so I can talk face to face with people.

My sadness, depression and guilt feelings, being alone

The feeling of being constantly trapped,

My constantly chatty mind thinking bad thoughts

Wanting to run away from me

The good thing that happened today was that I sat and watched my two little dogs play on the lounge room rug.

GG.

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Doolhof — Fri, 10 Nov 2017 20:52:40 GMT

Hi All,

I'm hoping by sharing how we are feeling it may help us all realise that yes we do have issues, but no they do not have to be totally consuming.

Finding the good things in life certainly helps me!

I haven't been up for very long and can't actually think of anything I would like to be gone except for

- indecision

- still feeling dizzy in the head and having low energy.

Today I am going to sort out my medical notes from my last hospital trip so that will all be organised.

I am going to attend an event in out local town this morning for Remembrance Day.

Tonight we are catching up with friends so I am looking forward to that.

Cheers all from Dools

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Quercus — Sat, 11 Nov 2017 23:51:48 GMT

Hi Mrs D (and everyone who has replied and is reading),

You have a knack for thinking of awesome threads. I like the idea of acknowledging the bad and then focusing on the good.

What I wish would go away...

This low mood and lack of energy. Like wading through a swamp.
The unhelpful feeling of just not caring and going through the motions on autopilot.

I am thankful for...

Knowledge. Knowing this will pass.
My husband for being thoughtful and finding ways to reduce the physical pain.

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_nomniaparatus — Sun, 12 Nov 2017 10:39:48 GMT

I am new to the site and was first diagnosed with depression in 2005. Having a low day/weekend, I know it happens and try not to fight it when it does. Over the years I have become familiar with the signs and take notice of how my mind and body are feeling. This one was set off by thoughts of loneliness due to my parents going interstate for Christmas this year and that my daughter has her boyfriends family and I feel like I am in limbo or a third wheel. I know in my heart this isn't true and I have plenty of friends and family to spend time with at Christmas. The thoughts will pass and I just need to let them play out. I had planned to go bike riding over the weekend but woke up with a headache yesterday and ended up sleeping and watching movies on the couch.

What I wish would go away:

The loneliness feeling
the overthinking
the lethargy

Todays positive:

My cat, Elvis, knows when I am feeling low and is more affectionate and lays with me or on me more than usual.

Knowing "this too shall pass"

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Guest_3712 — Sun, 12 Nov 2017 11:28:39 GMT

Hey Mrs D,

Thanks for your support and I think this is a great thread so hear goes

What I want to go away is my reoccurring feelings of paranoia , insecurity, worthlessness, self doubt, self loathing, feeling powerless, unloved, useless, and a waste of space.

Today is a bad day

Tomorrow has to be better

Stressless

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Doolhof — Sun, 12 Nov 2017 21:19:50 GMT

Today I wish

-my depression would go away

-my desire to run away would go away

-my feeling of being shattered would go away

To make my day better

-I have written out pages of vomited out thoughts from my broken mind

- I will go for a walk

- I will work on finding positive things to do today.

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aegidius — Sat, 18 Nov 2017 11:49:07 GMT

What I wish would go away: My past. Specifically all those embarrassing little (and some big) episodes that I keep getting reminded about that cause me debilitating shame and guilt.

What I am grateful for: My home and family, and my work, even though I'm finished with it. The friends I still have. So many things that are in my past now, tinged with sadness but still grateful. Shit I'm only in my low 60's and talking as if life is over! but as the old joke goes "I've got a great future behind me"

So both aspects are tied up with my past. Funny that.

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dani1980 — Sun, 19 Nov 2017 03:34:27 GMT

I am not in a good space at all right now. I will attempt this though.

What I want to go away-

1. My depression.

2. Feeling constantly lonely

3. My overthinking and obsessive thoughts about my ex

4. The feeling that I will never be happy again.

5. The feeling of wanting to escape my life, and feeling trapped in my own mind.

Things I am thankful for-

My kids

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Doolhof — Sun, 19 Nov 2017 05:25:22 GMT

Hi dani, aegidius and All,

There is no right or wrong way to do this, we all have our own way of expressing ourselves. I just thought it might help some people to off load in this fashion.

What I want to go away;

- low self esteem

- self doubt

- not believing in myself.

Today I made steps in overcoming some of this:

1- I talked to a lady at Church whom I always think of as being better than me in so many ways

2- I invited myself to a luncheon my husband was attending and enjoyed chatting to the ladies

Cheers all from Mrs. Dools

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Doolhof — Mon, 20 Nov 2017 09:08:16 GMT

What I want to go away today

- Flies! Pesky, sticky flies that try to get up my nose, in my mouth and eyes when I am out walking. Yuck. Yuck Yuck! I dislike those sticky pesky flies!

Thankfully we have few flies in the house!

I could wear one of those glamorous fly nets while out walking!