there is hope never give up

catej — Sat, 30 Sep 2017 05:13:12 GMT

Depression – rearing its ugly head
I think I have had depression since my mid twenties but seemed to manage having youth on my side, a good job, travelling overseas and a lovely family and friends.
In my late twenties I had a long period where I suffered, anxiety and not being able to cope with every day life, driving recklessly in the car and not really caring one way or another.

I was on anti-depressants and whilst this helped me get better, I did have some under-lying issues and a quick temper. I ended up quitting and after a holiday to Hawaii I went home and went about setting up my own business. It was very costly and trying but on the first day of trading I ended up with a good business and loved the independence and freedom it gave me. My former boss felt very threatened so he complained to the council and I had to apply for a permit, in the end it was granted minus not being to have clients around. I still had them around but was
The worst period of my depression was in Dec 2016 when I did a contract 2 week role in Cairns looking after a permanent letting building, it was an absolute disaster and I ended up walking out after week one as it was untenable. I avoided everyone. Did not want to go out, down the street nothing. I tried to work again at 2 more resorts and they fell through as I was still not myself. I was so anxious everything was an effort. My mum suffered dearly because of my depression. I couldn’t cook, clean or even read a magazine. I kept on watching movies over and over, staying still in bed, not washing or cleaning my teeth for 2-3 days. It was horrendous nothing like this had ever happened so severely like this before.
It went on until the end of April, finally I was up to working again and within 2 days had a job 2 days a week and then 3 days a week. I never thought I would get out of this black hole. Eventually I did and realised I will be ok. I started being kind to myself, buying some new clothes, booking a holiday, getting in touch with friends again.
I know how you feel, never never give up. There is always hope.

there is hope never give up

Blue_Jane — Sun, 01 Oct 2017 10:38:12 GMT

Hi Cate

Looks like this is your first post with us. Welcome, we hope you find the forums useful.

Thanks for sharing your story with us. Sounds like you have gone down but have managed to bring yourself up again - such great news.

Being kind to yourself is such an important part of managing our mental health. But it is not always easy to do that! We can be our own worst enemy.

I hope your health continues as well as it has the last six months.

Blue Jane

there is hope never give up

Julz01 — Sun, 01 Oct 2017 14:38:20 GMT

Hi Cate

Sounds like you have been through a tough time. I am so glad you have come out the other side.

Julz

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there is hope never give up

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there is hope never give up