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Isolated-cold-lonely and depressed.

Guest_4987 — Thu, 14 Jul 2016 11:00:22 GMT

As i live in an isolated regional area with all the cold weather with my depression i am finding life very hard at the moment. I am not new to BB but have not posted for some months but find myself needed help as I am sliding into a dark place which i seem to carry with me…

With not that much support available in my area at night i decided to reactivate contact on these forums as it was helpful then so why not now. STS

Isolated-cold-lonely and depressed.

Guest_5218 — Thu, 14 Jul 2016 11:27:33 GMT

Hi Wayne. It has been some time hasnt it?

Sorry that winter seems to have brought with it 'the blues'. It has been very cold down your way, and you may have even got some snow this week?

So how are all your dorper sheep going? We still have your pet lambs in the Cafe by the way. Rambo and Millie. Of course they are big now and no longer bottle fed. In fact they may well have been lamb chops by now, but we couldnt let them go. They keep the Cafe grounds nice and neat as well as fertilised.

How is your house building going? I was thinking you may be in the house by now, rather than the shipping container. If you are still in the container, no wonder you are feeling the cold.

If I recall correctly, you had a brother not too far from where you are. Do you still see him and his family occasionally? Or perhaps the winter weather prevents you seeing him as much as you otherwise might.

I have forgotten the name of your little dog. Was it Maggie? Sorry, there are many dogs here these days, so your girls name has evaded me for now. Perhaps you can remind me. We have a Pet thread now if you would like to contribute a story about your dog or your sheep, or any other animal if you'd like. It is located in the Staying Well section.

I'm sure you will get a few replies soon Wayne, and I hope coming back here helps you feel less isolated. We do still have some of the same people here of course, plus lots of new people all the time.

I am currently watching the Sydney Swans vs Hawthorn Hawks, top of the table clash. Very close. C'Mon Swans.

Talk again soon Wayne.

Sherie xx

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Guest_4987 — Thu, 14 Jul 2016 12:01:00 GMT

Hi Sherie, so nice to hear from you and hope you are doing ok. Iam in my house which is only to lock up a bit brrrr at the moment as no internal lining or heating but yes still better than the container.

My dogs name is Lucy don't know what life would be like without her still love her to bits. My Dorpers are lambing at the moment they were joined with my Stud ram so there are some cracker lambs, one ewe had 4 beautiful little lambs i wonder where she fitted them all.

Don't see my brother much these days.

Pet thread sounds good i will check it out seem to spend most of my time with animals.

Go the Swans!!!!Yeah

Are you still working Sherie

Wayne xxx

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Guest_5218 — Thu, 14 Jul 2016 12:16:37 GMT

Thats right ...... Lucy, of course. Ahh, lambing time is usually pretty busy I expect. 4 lambs, gosh thats pretty amazing. They are good mothers usually, so hopefully she rears them all to maturity. Are you still exporting your rams?

Sorry to hear you dont get to see your brother much these days. Is that because you are just too busy?

Yes I am still working .. but only part time - usually 2 days per week.

Unfortunately the Swannies lost 65/70 with a goal to Cyril Rioli in the final minute. But at least the NSW Blues turned the tables on the QLD Maroons last night with a come from behind final second try. That felt good!

Anyway, check out the Pets thread when you get the chance. There are some really nice feel-good stories there. You can contribute with something about Lucy or some of your sheep or something else if you'd rather. I look forward to seeing what you write. Of course I still have my little dog Holly, as per the latest profile picture.

My hubby is away for 2 weeks at present, so Holly is a real little godsend. She keeps me calm, safe, warm, motivated, etc. Just like a good companion animal should. (-:

Catch you later Wayne.

Sherie xx

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Guest_1055 — Thu, 14 Jul 2016 13:34:47 GMT

Hey Wayne

I almost have happy tears at seeing your name pop up again. You were always someone special to me. And I haven't forgotten you, because when I visit the local library, the "Shaun the sheep" children's dvd sort of stand out to me, and I associate that with you.

I am sorry Wayne you have been sliding into that dark place. Here is hug for you that I am sending on out to you. I hope you feel it. Is Lucy OK, does she still sit at your feet?

And you have got some cute little lambs again. Do you remember you used to write bah...bah?

So I am guessing you are pretty rugged up then, since you have no heating. Is it snowing there then? I can send you a virtual wool patchwork quilt, I could wrap the hug in it. It is pretty cold here as well. But I do have a heater on, and I am wearing a thick long jumper.

Can you give Lucy a pat for me? She probably doesn't remember me though...... Hope you sleep well, and feel better soon Wayne and that you are not too cold.

Much love

Shelley xx

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Guest_1055 — Fri, 15 Jul 2016 01:13:50 GMT

Just saying Hello to you out there at your place, hope you feel better soon.

Shelley xx

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Guest_4987 — Fri, 15 Jul 2016 07:06:20 GMT

Hi Shelley,

Thanks for saying hello, today was a bit better it was good to make contact with you again…you have a great memory Shelley..Lucy wants me to say hello and she still sits at my feet and loves to get under the covers with me as it's so cold at night.

Chat again later tonite.

Waynexx

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Music_Freak — Fri, 15 Jul 2016 10:32:02 GMT

Hello Wayne, I'm Narelle, a fairly new newbie, but enjoying it here, so far

Is that Lucy in your pic? If so, she's a little cutie.

I can imagine you feel isolated and I'm sorry for that, but the gang here is always here to listen. I can't really relate, because I live in a metro area, but depression is isolating from friends and family, so I can totally understand in that sense.

It has been cold in Adelaide just recently and I'm glad the sun was out today, I was nice, I spent a little while sitting outside with my cat Buddy in the sun, he loves being outside. I walk him on a lead and everything

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Kazzl — Fri, 15 Jul 2016 10:36:44 GMT

Wayne! Hiya mate, welcome back. I'm sorry to hear you're not good at the moment, but gee it's good to see you!

Yes it's been a bit nippy round our way lately eh? Pleased to hear your house is progressing, and your sheeps are doing sheepy things. 😄

Hugs to you mate.

Kaz

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Guest_1055 — Sat, 16 Jul 2016 13:08:51 GMT

Hey Wayne

Just saying hello again, hope you had a better day today.

Shell xx

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Guest_4987 — Sun, 17 Jul 2016 09:27:40 GMT

Hi Narelle, Thanks for the reply I agree this is a great site the the ones that use it are so nice i also like posting hear.

The pic is of Lucy my number one companion and hot water bottle at the moment.

I'm glad the weather has been a bit warmer of late for you in Adelaide it has been warmer here in the Riverina NSW for the last two days…happy days!

Are you a cat person Narelle? Whats your cats name and do you have other animals.

Hope to chat again

Waynexx

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Guest_5218 — Sun, 17 Jul 2016 09:36:37 GMT

Hi there Wayne. Hope you've had a couple of better days?

Thanks for your contribution to the pet thread too. If you have a look there, you will meet Narelle's cat Buddy.

I hope that ewe and her 4 lambs are all doing well.

Ha ha, I understand about Lucy being a water bottle. Holly is also useful as a bed warmer for me. She burrows under the doona when she thinks its bedtime, which is usually before I am ready. So she curls up in bed and waits. She generates a fair bit of heat, so the beds warm by the time I crawl in. ha ha ..

Glad to hear that the Riverina weather has improved somewhat over the past couple of days. Bad weather does tend to get you down in the dumps a bit doesnt it. We had a frost here 2 nights ago, the first in about 2 years I think. But the day afterwards was sunny and lovely. Then today it was mild, overcast and drizzly.

Are you still doing most of the work on the house yourself? What is the next step for you?

Sherie xx

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Guest_4987 — Mon, 18 Jul 2016 10:33:10 GMT

Hi Sherie

Been a tough couple of days for me, so many things to be done and no drive to do em..so tomorrow will the day to get myself motivated again so I can move forward.

Mum ewe with the quads lost one but the other 3 are doing good, these cold and windy days as you know take a toll on the young lambs.

With the house Sherie i need to finish off the ceiling battens then line the interior, kitchen, bathroom, wiring, plumbing and two decks. WOW think'n about it i better get on with it.

Waynexx

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Guest_4987 — Mon, 18 Jul 2016 10:46:02 GMT

HI Shell

Hope my post finds you well, I'm trying hard to keep it all together! You know I must find the way past my dark side I really don't want to define myself in this negative way so no matter how difficult it is i think i really need to take a honest view of my thoughts and make positive change and forget the negative.

Waynexx

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Guest_4987 — Mon, 18 Jul 2016 18:58:39 GMT

Hi Narelle, Starting to rain here at the moment which is not a good thing for me at present usually i welcome some rain as i live on a farm. I'm glad there's others about at this time i don't feel so isolated. x

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Kazzl — Mon, 18 Jul 2016 20:40:51 GMT

Morning Wayne - hope you have a better day today mate.

Kaz

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Guest_5218 — Mon, 18 Jul 2016 22:40:19 GMT

Morning Wayne. Gosh, still so much to do on the house! Of course there is only so much you can do on your own, and with the farm to run as well.

Did you end up getting much rain last night? Hopefully not, as you didnt want the rain right now. Is that because of your house building activities, or because of it being lambing time?

Wayne have you ever considered doing an on-line depression/anxiety course? For example a mindfulness course or something like that? I believe there are some good options out there, and it could be worthwhile for you. I cant remember if you are on medication or whether you have been seeing a psychologist in the past. If not, is it worth trying now?

In the meantime, keep talking to us here. Please give cute little Lucy a big hug from me. And one to you also.

Sherie xx

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Guest_5218 — Wed, 20 Jul 2016 08:02:51 GMT

Hi Wayne, I didnt catch what time you posted to the Cafe about being back in 1.5hrs. But I think that will be somewhere between 7pm and 7.30pm. So I will check back here around then. Its just on 6pm now, and I also have a few things I need to do before then.

Just post when you get back and I will come back in and check later. Perhaps you can start be telling me why today was such a bad day for you?

Talk soon.

Sherie xx

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Guest_5218 — Wed, 20 Jul 2016 12:42:52 GMT

Hey Wayne, sorry you didnt make it back in tonight. Its now about 10.45pm and I am heading off to bed, as I didnt get much sleep last night, and am now really tired. Cant wait up any longer to see if you turn up.

So if you do come in tonight - sorry I missed you. I expect there will be others here who you can talk to anyway.

Maybe I will catch up with you tomorrow sometime. I hope things improve for you soon.

In case you need it - I give you a comforting hug and Lucy a gentle scratch behind the ear. Take care.

Sherie xx

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Guest_4987 — Thu, 21 Jul 2016 08:18:07 GMT

Hi Sherie, Really sorry i let you down last night by not looking back on to BB i hope that staying up so late waiting didn't hinder you in any way. Last night was a real bummer for me and a couple of my ewes the poor girls were having trouble lambing so one needed to catch them and pull there beautiful little lambs. As i'am still boiling water for a shower and i was so cold after chasing down the girls i decided(needed) to go to town and have a big hot shower. I bumped a friend in town who knows that i do it a bit tough some times and he invited me around for a warm drink. Yesterday was the pits Sherie i was at my wits end with no possible way out of my deep,black hole but you know earlier in the day i was reading a few posts about mindfulness and got a little inspired to give it ago.

You asked in an earlier post if i was on ant meds for my depression, i haven't taken my prescribed meds for 6 months or so as they really have bad side effects ( maybe i should see the dock and try something different?)

Back to mindfulness I'm a little excited! i have known many people who practice it and they seem to do really well, but i must admit i do get a bit confused exactly how to practise it so i could do some research.

Today Sherie has been a little more bearable and at least i can see that there is a way forward (don't really know how or when) but hey i'll just keep trying.

Wayne xx