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Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

KTOCD — Sat, 26 Dec 2015 12:48:27 GMT

Hey,

im having a really hard time. I feel like I make some progress and then we just go back to the beginning again. Things shouldn't be this hard. Hating how things are at the moment. Finding it so hard to be positive about anything.

Sorry but needed to offload. Need some space to rethink how I move forward. Feel like I'm running into a brick wall over and over again.

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

Guest_1055 — Sat, 26 Dec 2015 14:09:16 GMT

Hey KT OCD

I'm sorry you are having a hard time. Hugs to you. I long to move that brick wall for you, so you wouldn't keep running into it or something. And so your life would be better.

I am not sure what else to say, except I care about you.

Shelley xxx

PS gosh I really do long to smash it, so you can really run and be free.

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

KTOCD — Sat, 26 Dec 2015 14:17:58 GMT

Thanks Shelley. I appreciate your reply....needed to know there was someone out there who cared. Feeling pretty awful. Going to have some quiet time tomorrow and do some self care. Think this is going to be a sleepless night.

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

Guest_1055 — Sat, 26 Dec 2015 14:58:12 GMT

Hey, yeah I am having trouble sleeping as well, for me it is this chocolate that I am eating, It is keeping me too alert.

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

Chicken_Wings — Sun, 27 Dec 2015 00:30:42 GMT

Hi KT,

It's so hard sometimes isn't it. Two steps forward one step back.

But you sound determined, you sound like you want this and I believe that the desire to improve is so important. This brick wall sometimes seems so strong, but you can be stronger.

If you feel like you're going backwards then regrouping and assessing your strategies is a good idea. But you can't give up, you can do this.

Were hear to listen and support you when you need it.

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

Girlbond_007 — Sun, 27 Dec 2015 00:35:21 GMT

Hi KT,

i can definitely relate. It is so hard, when you think you are getting better and then boom, it hits hard again. I feel like giving up, especially today. I can't take it anymore. But it gives me strength reading I am not alone.

Bug hugs and keep pushing

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Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

KTOCD — Sun, 27 Dec 2015 01:48:40 GMT

Hi Chicken Wings,

thanks for your reply. I feel a bit alone sometimes so it is nice to know u guys r here for me.

i am still determined but not as determined as I used to be. Seem to have lost motivation along the road. I think I may be a bit depressed. Haven't been diagnosed but not feeling like my old self. More feelings of helplessness and despair. Will chat it over with my psychologist next time.

I am feeling better this morning. Having a quiet one 😄

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

Guest_5809 — Mon, 28 Dec 2015 12:03:48 GMT

I totally get never seeing the sky for the clouds. I am so over it. I sole parent. I don't know how long I can continue to have strength for my kids and myself. We are all dealing with escaping continued psychological and emotional abuse from my ex husband their dad 8 years after the marriage ended. I am tired and drained and often think about our way out, the gutless way to finish this painful and tiring life I live. It's almost becoming a fantasy cause we exist but don't live.

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

geoff — Mon, 28 Dec 2015 18:26:11 GMT

dear All, well we all go through life grappling or wrestling with continual thoughts that may haunt us, day in, day out, and while some people are able to cope with them, or even pretend to cope with them, there are people like us who can't figure out why depression has hit us, so does this mean that we are the weak ones, definitely not, but unfortunately we struggle and always try and answer the question, WHY, I don't deserve to feel this way, I haven't done anything to be punished with this crawl illness, where all our friends have given up on us, we have now lost our job and our marriage or relationship is now suffering.

At first we ask ourselves a question, but we don't get an answer, so we move onto another question and again there is no reason, so this can go on for a period until we give up and this is when the black blanket now embroils us to where it suffocates us.

Your recovery is slow and yes you take one step forward but then two steps backwards and feel as though there is no light, but eventually it will appear, which may not sound to be any consequence to your own situation

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

geoff — Mon, 28 Dec 2015 18:31:36 GMT

sorry I don't know what happened there, however to finish off, ------ to your own situation, but as long as it takes there is some relief at last, just like me and many other people have found. Geoff.

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

KTOCD — Mon, 28 Dec 2015 19:35:57 GMT

Hey Dottiebluebell,

sorry to hear of your situation. It must be very hard. I always try to remember when I am down that these feeling can't last forever. U will find happiness again. Take one day at a time. We r all here for u. Hang in there and keep talking

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

Guest_5809 — Tue, 29 Dec 2015 08:27:13 GMT

Geoff and KT your words are amazing and of some comfort. And although I want to believe in things getting better and moving forward I am tired of the hard road. Sounds gutless maybe. But the longer it goes on the more the more I find myself thinking of how easy it would be to just opt out of all of this and be at peace. It just gets too much.

Feeling like nothing is ever going to get better. Had enough

KTOCD — Wed, 30 Dec 2015 10:41:45 GMT

Hey Dotti,

how r u going today? Sending huge hugs to u. Please reach out for help if things get too much. Call the beyond blue number or lifeline. Sometimes when everything is messed up , we can't see how anything could possibly get better.

your situation will change in time. Your children will grow up and u will have more time to yourself. Things will get better!! It won't always be like this.

Keep talking on here. Does anyone else have any advise for Dotti?